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Hurrying home after powering down, Sasha still tried to keep quiet so as to not bother Ian before he finally made it back inside and up to the bed. Setting his empty tea bottle in the sink gently, he made sure he unloaded the rest of the uneaten fruit and berries back in the bowl on the counter next to the little handkerchief he’d used as a makeshift bag to carry them to and from his meeting with Hamal.

Moving up the stairs he fidgeted with his hands again as his antennae twitched nervously. Keeping away from the spots he knew creaked, he hoped he wouldn’t spook them before he made it to the room. Leaning in, it looked like they hadn’t gotten up yet and everything seemed peaceful with that calm blue glow from their computer in the corner.

Sliding out of his jeans again he sat on the bed in his boxers and the oversized hoodie of theirs that he always wore. Nudging them softly he tried not to startle them. “Ian?”

Feeling a bit bad as they groaned and shifted, Sasha fidgeted a bit more before speaking softly. “Can we talk?” Watching as they rolled towards him, keeping fairly still, he wasn’t sure if he should just lay down and let things wait until the morning or not. What Hamal had said made a lot of sense and he wanted to talk about things while it was still fresh in his mind and he was motivated to bring it up.

If he waited too long he wasn’t sure if he would bring it back up. It was hard to figure out and think through which was why he’d thought to ask Hamal in the first place. “About you and me?” Shifting slightly he rested his hands on the comforter in front of his crossed legs.

“Uh…” Sasha froze up a bit hearing the concern in their voice. “Yes.” Nodding slightly as he fiddled with the comforter beneath his hands. It had been a few months now that he’d been living here and getting used to the other and he still felt bad for waking them up but he wanted to try figuring things out so maybe he’d stop feeling bad about things.

“Talked with someone about things. Gave me advice.” Another paused as he thought more about it all while watching them wake up a bit more and become more aware. “Need help maybe… from you… about Amel.” Because he hadn’t really let things process really even as they’d brought him to Chaldene a few times. He enjoyed it there but he knew that part of him went there hoping he’d find something of the past there among the dead plants and quiet waters.

They visits had helped, at least in part, with him getting used to the other and learning more about them as Ian and not as who they had been. But everything felt like they were doing it for him and not because they wanted to, which he couldn’t quite get why. “How do you feel? About me…” Trailing off he stared at them nervously.

Shaking his head slightly knew it had been a shot in the dark over if they would find something there to remember the past. “To move on.” Because it wasn't really fair or good for him to cling to someone who was long gone. But he also wasn’t sure how to or if how he felt would ever really go away. It had been a thousand years but it still felt like only months ago for him that he’d last seen the other.

Their answer had him more conflicted though because it was kind and nice but… more like someone who was just taking care of a guest than more. It made sense but it didn’t help with things so he nodded and went to lay down facing the other way so he could watch the soft glow of the computer which he enjoyed. It reminded him of the wisps even if he knew now it was electricity that made the glow and that odd hum he heard everywhere. They said they cared though so at least it was something but he still felt awkward as he curled up and pulled his knees up into the hoodie slightly.

“Sorry for waking you, bedtime now.” Pulling the blanket over himself, up over his head almost. “Good night….” Trailing off he didn’t feel tired but, he also didn’t feel like keeping them up when he wasn’t sure of things. He knew there were things he liked about them and they were cute both physically and how they seemed to act. But then it always came back to the fact that he wasn’t sure if it was because of who they had been or who they were now and that wasn’t something he was sure might get resolved quickly and it made him feel bad even if they seemed okay with things as they were. He knew it wasn’t normal based on what he’d seen and heard from Xander but at the same time, he wasn’t sure if that was good or bad considering he wasn’t normal either. It was a mess.

Nodding in response to the first few questions he was glad they’d figured that bit out right but when they asked if they’d said something wrong he shook his head because they hadn’t said anything wrong. They weren’t the one who was conflicted with things and trying to figure it all out.

Thinking about things, he fiddled with his phone in the pouch pocket of the hoodie as he thought about it. “Nothing wrong just… complicated.” Which wasn’t fair to them at all. They’d been going up to space, a place they didn’t like because of him and he knew they weren’t getting the best sleep with him sneaking out or staying up late.

“Amel gone but… for here it was long ago. For me… just months.” That was the unit of time that fit on this planet, rotations were slightly off from what he’d figured so he was still playing catch up on the math which wasn’t his strong point even in the past. “Like you but… not fair I think.” Because they didn’t know him and he didn’t know them the same way even if he’d learned things fairly quickly with each visit to Chaldene or time spent playing on the computer with them. They’d even gotten him a little computer to play things on, which was a pastel green like his hair, with games about farming and making friends. He liked it but it reminded him that he missed things.

He gave another slight nod as he felt them moving to sit up more, hearing the headboard creak slightly as he figured they were leaning against it. Scooting back just a bit closer, he let the blanket come down a bit so his head wasn’t covered anymore. “Different things, like games.” Which was something he did like even if he was slow and bad at a lot of them.

“Not sure how…” Because it was fresh as they said and it really hadn’t started sinking in until he started seeing the differences. Thinking for a moment about what Hamal had said about losing someone, he finally shifted and rolled to face them a bit. “Have you lost important someone?” Maybe they might know what might help then. But he leaned his head towards their hand slightly as his antennae twitched.

“Still cute… if okay to say.” At least they wanted to help even if he felt bad still a bit but if he didn’t let them help they might feel bad about him feeling bad. It was complicated, why did everything here have to be so complicated? It had never been like this on Erinome but he’d also never really dealt with others either so maybe it was like that but he’d been sectioned out because he was the planet’s senshi and his task in the endless forest was important but kept him isolated from the rest of his planet’s society.

Another nod as he looked at them. “It’s fun, the farm game.” He didn’t really like some of the other ones he saw them play, they moved too fast for him. But they wanted to help him get better and that sounded like fun and something they could do when the other wasn’t working.

“To the forests, buried. New plants over them.” It was a cycle but he’d never participated in it much himself, just oversaw it from the distance sometimes while making sure the grasping vines of the forest didn’t try to trip those mourning. But he couldn’t do that for Chaldene, not exactly. But thinking about things did give him an idea. He hadn’t been back to his planet, not since he arrived here but maybe it was time to go back and look things over if he could. Maybe it might help and maybe he would find things they’d left before everything had been overgrown by those chaos infused vines.

Puffing his cheeks up he pulled the hood of the hoodie down to cover his face as a bit of color went across it. “Not cute.” If anything he was still conflicted about everyone thinking he was a child here. It meant he got free things sometimes when he went to the store with Ian but it also meant people didn’t seem to want to listen to him either.

“Yes together.” Smiling a bit more he nodded but the mention of puzzles had him feeling bad. He wasn’t really good at them but if they liked puzzles maybe he should try. “Not good at… but can try?” Especially if it was something they could do together because he did get bored sometimes when he woke up during the day while they were working. He knew better than to bother them when they had a serious look on their face.

“Flowers, trees, things important.” It all depended on who they were and what they did for others. He’d seen all sorts of things before chaos had seeped out from two of the corpses buried in that way. Thinking for a bit he huffed and pulled the hood down more. “Not cute, you’re cute with pretty decorations.” He kept forgetting the words they used for them, the metal bits they had on their face that he thought were interesting.

“Sleep though, tomorrow games?”