Demeter knew only one person she could talk to about this—or should talk to, anyway. Her heart pounded in her throat and she tried to swallow it down, but the panic boiled away, making her jitttery. She'd already struggled enough with the idea she liked girls, and she had no idea where Murikabushi had gone or she'd have asked for his help with this... other thing. That she was experiencing. She hadn't been able to find him for a while, and it worried her, but right now... As much as she wanted to ensure her friend's safety (and could probably ask Lete about it), she... Needed to tend to a personal problem she'd been suppressing, because doing round two of this stupid queer feelings crap really freakin' sucked, and she just wanted the whole "first time" ordeal over with already, because at least if she talked to someone else about it, someone she trusted, she could, like... maybe just get it out of her system!! Lord knew she couldn't do anything online, not with the way her parents tracked everything.

Still. The nerves bit at her, and she almost started to cry from just standing there, waiting for Lete for their usual meeting, and trying not to panic too hard.

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