Depending on how he looked at that, thinking could be a good or a bad thing. This time he was thinking it was probably going to be a bad thing. See Dmitry wanted to bring something up to his husband but was not sure on how to do it. In truth, he wanted what Xander had…Not the whole doctor bit but the best of both worlds. Xander had a wife that was okay with him adding a third person to their relationship in the form of Yatora, someone that Ai herself propositioned. The dynamic between the three was amazing and he constantly wondered if that would work for him and Ryan. Everyone assumed that they were both entirely homosexual when that was only half true. They were both bisexual, but they loved each other so much that it’s usually “Oh he’s just Dmitrysexual or hes just Ryansexual”, which he didn't mind…It's just that he wants more.
And he felt like complete s**t for even thinking about it.
It's what has kept him up at night most days, why he won't go on patrol or work on his wonder. Was he a shitastic husband for wanting something like this? One part of him thinks yes while the other tells him no. The biggest part tells him to try and discuss it with Ryan to see what his input is. Which is why he was sitting there staring at his husband in the middle of the night, who was staring back at him. How does he bring this kind of s**t up without causing Ryan to be upset or god forbid, to think that he didn't want him anymore, which was so far from the truth. Ryan was his everything, his sun, moon, ******** his whole universe…
Which is why this was so ******** hard to talk about.
“Baby….I…” he ran a hand through his hair, noting he would need another haircut soon, “I would like to have a third.” There he said it, it's out in the air. Now to see what hell awaited him.
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Ryan was tired, watching his husband watch him and wondering what was on his mind. He was only half awake having been asleep previously, but unable to stay that way with his husband staring at him.Years of being in the negaverse made for very honed senses. He waited for his husbands to say whatever was on his mind, content to look into his handsome blue eyes.
His brow furrowed in confusion at the question, completely unsure of what the man was asking, with his sleep-addled brain.
“Mitry,” he said with a yawn, “what … a third … a third, what … we already have three children.”
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Dmitry couldn't help the nervous laugh at what his poor sleepy husband just said.
“No babe, uhhh not a third child, I want a third….Like what Xander has with Yatora and Ai.” He hoped that made sense at least because that's what he meant to say. “I wanted to add a third person to our relationship.”
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If Ryan wasn’t awake before he was awake now, “excuse me,” he said, sitting up and giving his husband a look. It was the middle of the night, they were lying and bed together and this was what he was thinking about.
“Dmitry, what? Why on earth would you want that … Xander is Pan and Poly …what they have doesn't apply to us?”
He was frowning and giving his husband a hard stare. This was certainly not something he wanted to wake up to, nor something he currently wanted to discuss.
“It's 2am Mitry,” he said, glancing at the clock, “... really … really?!?”
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Dmitry winced visibly at the “excuse me”. Oh god he knew that tone, and didn't want any part of it, but he had to do damage control. “W-Wait I can explain! J-Just--” He sighed, how do you tell your husband that you wanted to have a third that is female? Because god he did miss having both. But also he felt like he was being unfair to Ryan the past couple of weeks. On top of taking care of the kids, being the source your husband takes his secret sexual frustration out on is just not something he wanted to keep doing. “Look I'm sorry it's so late but I've been wanting to talk to you about this for awhile, I just….I didn't know how to tell you or how to bring it up.” He was trying, really he was but he had a feeling this was about to blow up in his face.
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Ryan raised a brow when his husband said he would explain and crossed his arms waiting for an explanation. An explanation wasn't really what he got, instead what he said made Ryan’s frown more intense before he just looked hurt..
“A while,” he said, sounding something like disappointment, maybe, definitely questioning. He looked to the door debating whether we would try to hear his husband out or go sleep in Emmorlai’s room.
“How long is a while, Mitry?”
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Great.
This was not going to work out the way he wished it would. “Not very long Ry, just a couple weeks at best.” A bit of a lie yes but he was already in the shitter so why not go all the way? He moved over to pull Ryan into his arms, resting his head on top of his, “I'm trying baby, I'm not good at this explaining thing, you know that. I just…I love you more than the ******** universe, you know I would rip apart satans a*****e to get to you. I'm happy, I promise.” He kissed the top of Ryan’s head, the silence was telling and he already knew with the way he was looking at their youngests room that he was about to be put on ice for a couple of weeks.
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Ryan let his husband hug and kiss him, but he didn't laugh at his joke and he didn't really say anything. After a moment he pulled out his husband's arms, grabbed his pillow and headed to the door. He stopped at the door and looked back at his husband and sighed. “You know Mitry … I've only had two relationships, one right before you and you. We’ve been married for 4 years and together for nine … I can tell when you're lying.”
He walked out of the room and headed into their youngest room, “think about that okay,” he said before closing and locking the door.
“I love you,” he said from the other side before curling up in the rocker recliner.
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God that hurt.
Dmitry was already kicking himself in the gut for lying but he should've known Ryan would catch on. Why the ******** did he even do that?! It was like he didn't think. Already just feeling guilty and more than shitty, he put on some shoes, sweats, and grabbed a jacket from the closet. Before he left, he placed his forehead against Emorlai’s door, “Love you too.” He said nothing more, closing the front door of the house behind him. He really needed to think, exactly like Ryan had asked.
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