Nothing she was doing had worked, all she could get were civilian star seeds. Every time she had gone after one of the knights something had stopped her. First, it was that cracked-out princess, Ida. She had nearly killed that one, to be honest, he probably was still worse from wear and would have second thoughts of prowling around at night because of what she had done to him. Next was that ice b***h from the faction with the deadbeat prince who wasn't around anymore. She had gotten a grip on the thing but she had taken too many hits to go through with it. Those star seeds she had eaten, she still thought about them and how it had felt. That rush and the boost in healing had made it possible to stand up against them even with the magic they had used to boost themselves. She had to run from that fight as well. The most recent one... it had gone from great to a shitshow in just a few seconds. She hated that feeling, she hated those men. If she could tear them apart and make them suffer she would, it wasn't just the knight but all those men that treated people like s**t and girls like objects.

Pressing her face into her knees for a moment, she pulled out her medal from the fighting tourney and rand her thumb over it like it was a worry stone. She knew she was good at fighting, maybe she needed more help against some of these knights. At least some backup if things got too hot to handle. Things were still shaky after that last fight and she never wanted to feel like that again. Maybe she would try talking with Crocoite again or seeing if there were any other corrupt senshi she could team up with to make sure she didn't get singled out. She needed some scary dogs to bite and snap at the ones who tried to grab her or hurt her. If they were corrupt, she could trust them right? At least she knew she could trust Crocoite, he was always polite if not the slightest bit in a bad mood. At least she could tell what his goals were and what motivated him. Plus he let her kinda do whatever and was interested in her magic.

Closing her eyes she pictured her dullahan and thought about how it listened to what she had wanted it to do. It was always there to grapple or slow down her opponent. Maybe one day it would fight and defend her, at least she hoped it would. Maybe one day she would hear what it said for herself. She only ever heard the faintest of whispers as it grabbed those knights. Was it taunting them? She wished she could talk with it and thank it for helping her, although she felt the work she was doing for the Negaverse probably was a thank you to it in a way.

She took some deep breaths and pulled her headphones on to blast some music as she laid back down on her bed to stare at the ceiling. Maybe one day she would talk to someone about all this but she really didn't know who or how. Next time she would go out on patrol she would look for another corrupt to talk to.

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