Autumn sighed as she came home from work a few days after she'd had her butt totally kicked by that girl in the pink senshi outfit. On the Negaverse side of things... She shivered as she remembered that she'd basically come way to close to being killed. For trying to do the right damn thing! Augh!! She threw herself onto her bed after stripping out of her work uniform, groaning into the pillows and wiggling to get comfortable.
She kept going over the way she'd... said something really stupid. Really, really stupid. At least it had gotten her the chance to live, but... now that she was far from the moment, she was mega embarrassed. Really, admitting such a thing! When she knew damn good and well that she was just straight! That was some weird, totally uncool thing to say in the heat of some kind of "I'm going to die" moment. She didn't feel those kinds of things for girls!! She just didn't.
Of course, it still didn't explain why she'd been so hurt at the idea of Lete running from her, but... that was just, like, totally normal friendship, right? Like, there wasn't anything special about it, insofar as the big picture went (because of course she thought what they had was special; the two of them were friends with each other, and that was a beautiful thing!). She didn't feel any kind of... sparkly things. Not the way everyone talked about, so it was just... completely and utterly silly of her to still be thinking about this, right?
She just wasn't gay! Or bi! Definitely not any kind of lesbian at all! That's all there was to it! She was totally, for sure, one hundred percent, no doubts about it, absolutely, positively, completely, assuredly, unquestionably, beyond any shadows of any doubts that even could have been shadows cast off flea-sized doubts, fully, indubitably, solidly, not even close to questioningly, very straightforwardly... straight.
And no, being thorough about how sure she was wasn't some kind of ridiculous, stupid, dumb, bologna sauce that meant she was wrong. Some people just needed a whole lot of extraneous words to get the McFreaking memo here!!
Ugh, she was being wayyy too dramatic right now. Super duper mega embarrassing kind of dramatic. She reached for her pillow and buried her face in it to scream. She was fine!! Totally fine!!! Even IF, in the event she was ~miraculously~ wrong about herself, well...
Would her parents even be okay with it? She'd heard so many stories about parents who supported stuff like gay marriage in theory, but when it came to their own kids, well. They wound up kicked out or worse! Just because she trusted that her parents really supported the LGBT stuff in general... didn't really mean she would trust them if she came out to them about anything. Even fakely, just to test the waters. No, no. And it broke her heart. Even as just a simple, straight, Pumpkin Spice Latte kind of girl, who would never really be any kind of queer—it would be safer to just never bring it up at all. Especially as someone who was just plain straight, anyway. She didn't want to be kicked out over a mere question.
It really, really sucked, though.
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