Mizuki couldn’t breathe.
She collapsed in the alleyway, struggling to breathe. She couldn’t find a breathe, she could only suck in small, tiny gasps of air. The concrete underneath her was fuzzy and damp; was that because of rain or her tears? She couldn’t see. She couldn’t feel. No, she didn’t want to feel, but couldn’t stop feeling.
The plan had failed, it failed it failed it failed.
Her dad was gone.
Her general was gone.
He was gone.
A scream tore from her mouth. Her fists cracked against the ground again and again and again and again. Pain laced through her hand. The concrete started to turn red as she slammed her fists over and over into the ground. Something cracked and shot pain up into her shoulder.
Mizuki couldn’t stop screaming. She couldn’t think.
Her world crumbled around her, reforming too fast and collapsing again. She couldn’t breathe why couldn’t she breathe.
She clawed at her chest, trying to shove her hand inside herself and rip out the gaping hole in it. Pain continued to shoot through her hand, nails tearing at her fuku, her skin, the lilacs. Stray petals fell beneath her, dotted with blood.
If she could just get it out get it out get it out get it out she could breathe again she needed to get it out get it out get it out if she could just reach the ice if she could just
She closed her hand around her starseed and pulled, gasping in agony as she wrenched it from her chest.
It pulsed softly in her hand, a swirl of purple and black and lilac.
Maybe… maybe if she’d just given her own soul to him… maybe he would have lasted longer. Maybe if she’d done better he would be okay. Maybe if she
A wail built in her scream torn throat and she curled over her soul, sobbing. She trembled with each sob, the wail growing louder and louder.
It was too much it was all too much why couldn’t she stop screaming
Why why why had it gone so wrong? Why had Heliodor attacked her? Why had that one princess tackle Jet? Why had a group of senshi and knights be the line between everything and Faustite? Why had they failed? Why why wh y why why why why
“WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY!!!!”
Her voice cracked as the wail turned into a scream again. She couldn’t breathe she couldn’t breathe stars above she couldn’t breathe
It was all wrong it was all wrong it was all wrong
Her voice gave out and she coughed, spitting blood on the concrete.
There was nothing, and yet everything, in her chest. Anger. Guilt. Agony. Grief. Ice. Fire. Everything. Nothing. All at once.
Somehow, her starseed got back inside her chest. Somehow, her breath came easier.
Somehow, Mizuki pushed herself to her feet.
Somehow, she took a step forward. Then another. Then another.
A body fell, then another. A third farther down the alley.
A bar went silent as she drained the energy from the patrons, a nightclub missing persons here and there.
Mizuki kept walking forward. Kept moving. Kept one foot in front of the other. The sun began to rise as she kept walking.
No thoughts. No emotions. Every thought. Every emotion. Left, right, left, right, left right left right left right…
Left. Right.
Left.
Right.
Left.
Right.
Nothing. Everything.
Everywhere.
Nowhere.
All at once.
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