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Posted: Sun Nov 21, 2021 6:51 pm
The Dark Kingdom was as grim and foreboding as the last time Vyn found himself there, only this time he was prepared for it, so he wasn’t quite quaking in his boots.
As simple and uncreative as the name “The Dark Kingdom” often seemed, it was also rather apt. Sometimes, Vyn thought, the simplest things were all that were necessary.
“I’ve brought some things for you.”
He arrived loaded down with reusable canvas bags. (It took no more than a single shopping trip for him to loathe the plastic variety many of the Earthlings seemed so fond of — or, if not fond of, at least resigned to. Vyn would not resign himself to them. They were awful, as were many of the wasteful things the Earthlings had created for the sake of convenience.) He felt bold for bringing anything and shifted nervously beneath their weight, but he couldn’t arrive empty-handed when the Commodore was staying here alone.
Was he treated well? Did he ever have company? Did the Queen stop by whenever she wanted for continued negotiations, or did they coexist but rarely mingle? Was the Commodore eating enough? Resting enough? These were questions that plagued Vyn’s mind constantly, though he knew the Commodore was perfectly capable of looking after himself. He was, after all, the Commodore. He didn’t need a nervous Cadet hovering about, nosing into his business.
“Aliez has taken up cooking, so I brought along some of his more successful dishes,” Vyn explained. “He might be horrified if he knew that, but… well, I thought they were good. I’d never embarrass him by bringing the things he’s burned.”
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Posted: Wed Nov 24, 2021 7:17 pm
Lyndin had taken over the living room on the bottom floor for whatever project he was currently engaging in; though he hadn’t broadcast how worn down his body was, the fact that he was taking it easy and actually resting sometimes was indication enough that he knew he’d pushed his limits. It appeared as if he was sleeping on the couch, or at least napping there, but he obviously spent the bulk of his time working. He’d collected the scattered debris from the explosion, and already had an array of inventions and tweaks he was working on. He had three computers set up, and five monitors, though they’d been acquired here on Earth and had been subject to his improvements. There was a pleasant hum in the room, and while The Dark Kingdom held up to its name, he’d bathed the living room in a soft glow. It didn’t quite feel like home, but it was something close to it. “You are very kind, Vyn. I appreciate it. I have rations but I am looking forward to something else.” He set down the tools he was working with and offered a hand to help with the bag. “Please pass along my gratitude to Aliez as well. Has he been following recipes or creating his own?”
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Posted: Thu Nov 25, 2021 10:11 am
Vyn often found himself incapable of looking the Commodore in the eye. The Commodore’s notoriety was intimidating, even if the Commodore himself was markedly less so, kind and patient with the Cadets even when they gave him reason not to be. The Commodore was a hero to their people. More than that, he was the hero of all of Vyn’s childhood dreams. Now, his dreams consisted of falling asleep against the Commodore’s shoulder, with the Commodore’s arm around him.
It was all incredibly overwhelming.
Which meant Vyn spent most of his first few moments there staring around instead of looking directly at the Commodore.
“Following recipes,” he answered, allowing the Commodore to take one of the bags. “I think it soothes him to have a set of directions to follow. I don’t know if Aliez would ever be adventurous enough to create his own.”
Nerves made Vyn ramble. He might have tried to paint Aliez in a better, more complementary light if he could think through his hero-worship enough to process more than the first thoughts to cross his mind. Not that he thought there was anything wrong with Aliez’s methods when it came to food, but… friends looked out for each other, and looking out for each other generally involved singing each other’s praises around their superior officers.
But Vyn couldn’t sing Aliez’s praises about everything, which was part of the reason for him being there in the first place.
“I actually… speaking of Aliez…” Vyn couldn’t help but cringe. He did feel bad for it, but it needed to be said. “I actually wanted to talk to you about him, because… There’s not really any nice way to put this, but I don’t know how he got through combat training.”
That wasn’t entirely truthful. Vyn knew exactly how. He’d helped Aliez, would have dragged him through it if he had to.
“We’ve been training together and… He’s awful with a blaster, Sir. I don’t know how else to help him. I think he’s ashamed of it, and I know he’s afraid you’ll send him back home if he fails. He tries, but he can’t even remember to turn the safety off half the time. If he keeps going on like that, he’s going to get himself—”
Vyn cut himself off abruptly, wide eyes locked on the floor. Just thinking the word killed was enough to dredge up all the painful memories of their fallen comrades.
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Posted: Sun Nov 28, 2021 7:24 pm
Briefly, Lyndin had paused while he unloaded the bags. He had listened closely but it seemed like he felt some comfort in staying busy, too. He put away some of the groceries, but before he had finished he turned to Vyn. “He’s lucky to have a friend like you,” he said. It wasn’t said just to comfort Aliez, or to be any sort of lip-service. He seemed convinced of this. “I’ve always thought that. I appreciate the closeness you two have. And, I appreciate you sharing those concerns with me. I was worried, too. But he has a good heart, and he’s very clever. I wouldn’t have brought him if I thought he was going to fail. But, I understand being worried about him. Blasters aren’t for everyone. Maybe we’ll see if there’s something else he can carry around, instead.” He knew Vyn wasn’t here to talk poorly of his friend, he could see by the way he seemed to be treading with caution that he appeared worried, like he was afraid to say the wrong thing. “Is that what you were going to suggest, or were you thinking something else?”
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Posted: Wed Dec 01, 2021 9:21 am
Normally, Vyn had faith in every word that fell from the Commodore’s mouth. The events of his life up until recently had given him no reason to question the Commodore, and after the battle, he’d seen enough of the Commodore’s earnest dedication to their home, to their people, and to the Vanguard to put any doubts he might have acquired to rest.
Yet for some reason, when the things the Commodore said pertained to him, when they could be classified as praise or compliments, Vyn couldn’t make himself believe any of it, even if that praise was what he aspired to earn.
He blushed and accepted it without an audible denial, because that was the polite thing to do, but he shook his head, too, because he didn’t think he’d done anything to deserve it. Then he blushed even more, because what if doing so made the Commodore think he was fighting for compliments and reassurances?
“I…” Vyn paused to clear his throat, staring at the floor in a way he hoped seemed respectful instead of avoidant. “Yes, if he could have something else… I don’t know if he’d listen to me if I suggested it. He wants to improve, but… I do think he’d benefit from something more tailored to his skillset.”
What that might look like, Vyn had no idea. He was fond of the blaster himself, couldn’t imagine giving it up for something else.
“Thank you, Sir, I… I know, being on Earth, with everything that’s happened and the state of our world, you have other concerns, so I hesitated to add another. We should be as self-reliant as possible, and…”
Vyn’s eyes trailed around the room, from the floor, to the computer monitors, to the couch, where his gaze suddenly locked, then slowly widened with a mix of concern and a vague sense of horror.
“Sir… have you been sleeping on the couch?”
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Posted: Sat Dec 04, 2021 7:25 pm
Lyndin glanced up and though he didn’t seem guilty, he seemed to be prepared to accept something like reproach. “When I sleep, yes.” But it was a thought he dismissed quickly, not because he wanted to belittle Vyn’s concern or avoid the subject but because he had other things on his mind. “The Vanguard is my primary concern while on Earth. Velencya is managing without us for the time being.” There was no question that he was probably equally concerned about Velencya as he was the Cadets, especially because he wasn’t there, but the Vanguard was the one dealing with unfamiliar territory, unfamiliar people, unfamiliar war. “If you have a concern, or a thought or worry or complaint, I’d like to hear it as soon as you’re ready to share it. Nothing from you is too small for me. Being self-reliant is important but I don’t want you to ever feel like you have to hold anything back on my account. I want to support you and see you thrive. I’ll talk to Aliez soon and we’ll see if we can’t figure out something more appropriate for him. Something he’s more comfortable with.”
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Posted: Wed Dec 08, 2021 10:26 am
Vyn would never find fault with the Commodore. Certainly he could determine that the Commodore was as flawed as anyone else, but if Vyn didn’t think himself worthy of the praise he sought, he thought himself even less worthy of contradicting the Commodore or lecturing him about… well, anything.
Still… the couch.
“When you…” he muttered, voice weak.
When he slept implied he might not always rest when he needed to.
For a moment, Vyn looked faint. The part of him that was mission oriented and obedient went to war with the part of him that cared for the Commodore as an individual rather than as a commanding officer. The Commodore was still recovering. As important as his research must be, surely he knew taking care of himself was just as necessary.
He is the Commodore, Vyn told himself. He is centuries older than you and will do as he wishes no matter what you say.
Vyn swallowed, and held his tongue until he could wrangle his brain onto a different topic.
“Thank you, Sir,” he said, relieved at least that the problem of Aliez would be tended to. Aliez would listen to the Commodore, if no one else. “I also brought…”
From another bag, Vyn retrieved something far less important than food. At long last, he’d completed his gift for the Commodore — a perfectly constructed crown of flowers, made with lush, synthetic blooms of vibrant purple. Compared to his first feeble attempts on the field during their first sunrise, this crown was lavishly arranged and impeccably crafted. It was an honor to present it to the Commodore, though a part of Vyn felt foolish for doing so.
Another flush heated his cheeks.
“I’ve been making these since we arrived,” he began, shifting his weight from foot to foot before he forced himself to straighten. “I know it might seem frivolous, but I’ve made one for the others. Even…” Even for their dead, who would never wear them, but he kept them on display in their honor. “Well, I… I thought you should have one, too. The flowers are synthetic, so they won’t decay. I chose Irises, which… according to the humans, they symbolize wisdom, hope, trust, and valor. I thought they would suit you.”
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Posted: Sun Dec 12, 2021 9:07 pm
Lyndin heard the inflection in Vyn’s voice, the uncertainty. He noted the way Vyn looked like he could have turned sick. His movement slowed when Vyn produced a flower crown. Only a second passed before he’d made up his mind. He moved from the bags he was emptying and stood before Vyn to examine the flowers. “You’ve gotten very good at this,” he noted. “I am honored by your selection. It does seem frivolous,” he agreed, “but I can’t call it such if it makes you happy. I’m grateful, I like it very much.” He only looked at the crown; he made no effort to accept it. Instead, he stooped just slightly, and bowed his head while he waited for Vyn to place it for him.
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Posted: Wed Dec 15, 2021 10:13 am
Vyn could have fainted.
Carefully, as if one wrong move might ruin the moment, Vyn lifted the crown and placed it upon the Commodore’s head. In doing so, he could not avoid touching the Commodore’s hair, which sent his heart racing because… well… this was the Commodore, his childhood hero and, in their King’s absence (and arguably in his presence), the leader of their people. As much as Vyn tried not to let his admiration get the best of him, there was nothing quite like touch to get him carried away.
His face was so hot it might as well be on fire. His heart sped so fast he thought it might burst. Something fluttered around in his stomach, squirming through his insides and tying his nerves into knots. Vyn swallowed, then took a deep breath, anything to maintain control, to suppress these silly emotions none of their people would benefit from.
But if he didn’t do something, he thought he might be sick from it all.
So Vyn, in a moment of pure spontaneity, threw his arms around the Commodore and hugged him.
It was the most wonderful as well as the most humiliating thing he’d ever done. Vyn let himself savor it for precisely three seconds, then immediately let go and took a step back, putting a more appropriate amount of space between them.
“Sorry,” he said, wide-eyed at his own daring. “I…”
He didn’t know how to explain himself, so he simply stared at the Commodore and allowed himself to admire the way he looked with the crown on his head. “I hope I don’t seem self-serving by saying so, but it really does suit you.”
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Posted: Fri Dec 17, 2021 8:35 pm
Lyndin was, admittedly, a bit surprised by the sudden embrace; he stood to his full height when Vyn released him, one brow slightly arched. “Well, I would hope so. I don’t think it’s self-serving at all, you should celebrate. You’ve proven your hypothesis correct.” This wasn’t some experiment, but he was glad that Vyn had found some success, or at least, satisfaction that the end result was as expected. Lyndin wasn’t much of celebrating, but he understood and appreciated the importance of making sure that the Cadets were taking adequate time to be proud of themselves and their accomplishments. So, Lyndin crossed the distance Vyn had put between them and resumed the hug he’d broken. It was not a crushing hug, but Lyndin put effort into making sure Vyn felt at least a little squeeze, though he left an opening so he could again break the hug when he was ready. “Thank you. This is a wonderful gift. I am proud of you, Vyn. For this, and more.”
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Posted: Sun Dec 19, 2021 1:09 pm
Vyn was not going to cry, even if a part of him wanted to. From happiness? From embarrassment? From grief? From all of the above? Vyn could not decide. Since arriving on Earth, he often found it difficult to interpret his own emotions.
The Commodore was hugging him, and Vyn, helpless to do anything but give in to what he desperately wanted, wrapped his arms around him again and returned the Commodore’s embrace.
By human standards, Vyn was not short. Even by Velencian standards, he wasn’t so diminutive as to stand out as especially odd, but the Commodore was taller, stronger, grander, so impressive Vyn often took to marveling over his own good fortune, that he got to spend any time at all in the Commodore’s presence. Vyn’s head came to rest against the Commodore’s chest, and though the heat in his face did not diminish (if anything, his flush grew hotter), he allowed himself a moment to listen to the Commodore’s heartbeat.
Another three seconds, and he would let go. That was what Vyn told himself. Then the three passed, and he decided to be greedy, taking three more. When those three passed, he thought another five would be acceptable. Then four more, to total fifteen.
Fifteen seconds in the Commodore’s arms, with his heartbeat in one ear and his voice in the other.
Finally, when Vyn could not let himself be greedy any longer, he broke the hug. It was a slow effort, almost halting. The Commodore was warm and familiar in a place that seemed so cold and strange.
Through his embarrassment, Vyn managed to work a smile onto his face.
“You’re welcome,” he said, pleased to have earned the Commodore’s pride, even if he couldn’t make himself believe that he deserved it.
Then, Vyn took a breath to prepare himself for honesty and said, “When it comes to the problem of Velencya and Velenia, I know I won’t be the one to find a brilliant solution. But if I can protect the others, if I can take care of everyone, and you… even if you don’t need it, I… I think I can be satisfied with that. Everything might not have gone to plan, and there’s already been so much pain, but… being entrusted with this mission has still been the greatest honor of my life.”
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Posted: Wed Dec 22, 2021 8:02 pm
Throughout the hug, Lyndin had never faltered; he held onto Vyn for as long as he wanted, as long as he needed, and he didn’t put much distance between them even when the embrace was broken. “You are too humble,” he said, not quite chastising but giving him a look. “You’re very clever, Vyn. We don’t know what’s going to be the solution we need. You might yet be the key, yet. But there is a great honor in protecting others, I think. You’re very brave, and you have a strong spirit. We’re lucky to have you. I’m lucky to have you here, too.” He planted his hands on his hips and glanced at the couch. “I suppose I can make a bit of an effort to rest a little more. I’ve been a little focused on a few of my projects. But I’m nearly finished with them, so I’ll get on a better sleep schedule afterwards. I don’t want to concern you with my poor habits.”
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Posted: Wed Dec 29, 2021 10:23 am
Vyn wanted to believe every word that came out of the Commodore’s mouth. Normally he would. The Commodore had never lied to them. Omitted some things? Sure, yes, of course; as Commodore he was privy to more information than a mere Cadet. But lied?
Even desired praise was difficult to accept. Vyn smiled because he loved to hear it, but struggled not to squirm in place when the unfavorable thoughts continued to take root. He didn’t deserve so much kindness. What had he done to earn it?
Vyn kept those thoughts to himself. He’d taken enough of the Commodore’s time, burdening him with emotion when there was so much to be done.
Instead, he let himself smile. He let himself revel in the Commodore’s warmth, in his continued closeness. He let himself be happy, let himself admire the Commodore up close — his bright eyes, and his soft hair, and how the crown of vibrant flowers seemed to highlight each feature. He let himself feel relief, and show it, when the Commodore seemed to indicate that he would rest properly soon.
After the hilltop battle, they all needed it. The Commodore most of all.
Touched that the Commodore would make the effort to ease his concerns, Vyn breathed out another satisfied, “Thank you.”
Gratitude was all he could express.
Anything more and he might go red in the face again.The Space Cauldron Fin! I would've kept it going, but for my own sanity I need to close some RPs out, and this was one of the easier ones to figure out a closing post for. emo But Vyn is definitely going to want to check in on the Commodore again in future. heart
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