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[R] It's All in How You Mix the Two (Auguste & Matteo)

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Felyn


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PostPosted: Tue May 14, 2019 5:37 pm


felyn
“Stop right there!”

s**t, s**t, s**t.

The sound of his own feet was thunder in his ears as Matteo bolted over a low wall and hit the ground running like a bat out of hell. He was faster than the old shopkeeper with his rotund belly and greasy, slicked back hair but that didn’t mean one of his sons wasn’t going to come barreling after him any moment. It wasn’t just speed that was going to help him evade this and he ran without looking back, weaving in and out of people on the sidewalk.

He could hear them gasping and yelling as someone less graceful tried to do the same thing around him.

It made him smirk as he took a sharp corner and bolted down a street that lead toward the downtown marketplace. The stalls were busy enough, usually, that he felt like he could blend into the crowd. At least if he could just get out of his black hoodie, maybe, and take down his hair and just… blend into some other scene like he had been there all along. He opted to rip his hoodie free, bundled up the bottle he was toting in it, and toss it over a bush as he passed; he didn’t look back, he didn’t want to know how close they were or if the bottle had shattered on some unexpected root or rock or whatever.

He pushed into the crowd with ease and immediately began a speedy dart for the busiest, most packed section near the jewelry and handcrafted cosmetics. It was only then that he glanced back over his shoulder to see Wally’s oldest sons closing in on the marketplace, looking confused enough to tell him that he had lost them for the moment. It wasn’t good enough, though. They were hotheads with more brawn than brains and they were probably gonna stalk around like angry silverbacks until they wore themselves out. He reached up into his hair and pulled the tie free so that waves of dark locks spilled around his shoulders.

Now he just needed an alibi…

He shifted closer to the stalls, looking for anything he could use to hide himself or occupy himself with, when he saw a familiar pale, sleight man. The walkway a*****e.

Good enough.

“Hey, don’t freak out,” he slid up to him, sinking a hand into his without question and lacing their fingers together. His chest was heaving and he could feel his pulse in his neck, thumping wildly with every deep breath he took. The glance over his shoulder didn’t show any sign of the men but he couldn’t be sure. “Just stand here, would you? And try not to b***h too much.”


kuropeco
Auguste, for once, didn’t have Pasha with him. He had decided to take a trip to the marketplace without her, though it still felt strange to do anything without his companion these days, considering she was practically the only thing he spoke to. Lorne and Nadia were busy with wedding things, and while Auguste couldn’t blame them, it did make one feel a bit lonely.

But he couldn’t rely on his dog forever, And the marketplace was a good enough option to be able to get out and wander around a crowded place without actually having to interact with too many people. Auguste had never minded crowds; there was something soothing about being surrounded by all the noise and laughing and milling about, something that made him remember he wasn’t back on Thrymr, secluded and away.

He was standing in front of a stand that had homemade jewelry made from wire and rocks, Auguste peering at a tall rack that housed several different types of earrings. He was debating getting something for Nadia as a gift; maybe she’d like some of the turquoise ones. They would match her personality, at the very least, and her hair.

He had just unhooked a pair from the rack and was holding it up to his face to look at more closely when something - someone - bumped into him, arm to arm. Then there were fingers curling through his, sliding together with their palms pressed together, and Auguste’s head jerked around, eyes wide and startled, instinctively giving a jerk of his hand.

“Que diable - “ The French exclamation left him before he could stop it; Auguste’s brain worked better in his native language, instinctively grasping at the familiar syllables.

Then he realized who it was and stared more.

“What are you doing?” he hissed. “Let go!”


felyn
“No, shut up,” the words were pointed, but low.

A pair of dark eyes swiveled down to meet the startled ones looking up at him. Behind them, he could hear one of the men.

“Where the ******** has that piece of s**t got to?”


He was talking to himself, Matteo could tell by the angry way he was growling curses under his breath. If Auguste didn’t realize the two were connected immediately, the way his body went rigid and his fingers curled tighter was enough of a sign. Around them, he noticed people turning to cast angry, annoyed glares at the man in his wake or putting hands over their children’s ears.

“Just… stand here and try not to draw attention to me.”

He could feel his heart thundering in his chest - he should have been afraid, but he wasn’t. There was a small curl at the corner of his lips that suggested maybe, just maybe, what he’d done was more about the chase than the loot. Truthfully, Matteo always felt most alive when adrenaline was pumping through his veins. If he could outsmart these lugs then he knew the tequila would taste even sweeter. Victory was a fine chaser.

A hand reached out to pluck free a crystal flower and, like any other lover, he turned to hold it up against Auguste’s pale hair - it was oddly affectionate from an outside perspective, even if his eyes were empty and devoid of an attachment up close. It twirled in his fingertips.

“It matches your eyes.” Well, it was almost nice. If bland.


kuropeco
Auguste’s mouth opened in outrage at being told to shut up, an indignant shade of red flooding his cheeks - but he didn’t get a response to actually respond with this outrage, because there was a hissing voice somewhere behind them that sounded, to Auguste’s mind,somewhat less-than-friendly. And one look at the way the other was stiffening beside him, grip tightening on his hand, made it almost immediately clear that the two things were related.

Auguste was regretting coming outside.

“Are you on the run or something?” he asked, voice low, gritted between his teeth. “Because if you are, I’m not going to play these sorts of games with you.”

He wanted to wrench his hand free; the warmth of the man’s palm against his own was an unexpected and unfamiliar weight, but something about the furious and venom filled tone of whoever was looking for this guy stopped him from doing exactly that. He wasn’t exactly trusting that whatever had been done was worth protecting, or pretending otherwise, but he knew a dangerous voice when he heard one.

The flower held up to his head made him give a long stare back in return, Auguste’s expression dubious. Out of the corner of his eye, however, he saw a ripple in the thick crowd; a shifting of people as someone tried to shove their way past in what was clearly an impatient and aggravated manner.

Auguste sighed internally.

His expression changed, shifting from something akin to annoyance to something lighter and more carefree instead. Auguste leaned in close, pressing his free hand to the man’s chest, his other curling more securely around the fingers that held his.

“Thank you, mon cher,” he said, in silken tones of sweetness that were borderline sarcastic, but just reigned in enough not to be. “You’re always thinking of me.”

He patted the man’s chest, swaying against him, smiling sweetly, though his eyes were sharp.

“How very thoughtful of you.”



felyn

“Too late.”

It was his only response, once again displaying how much he didn’t care about Auguste’s feelings in the matter so long as his own were justified. The only thing he cared about, really, was not getting punched in the face. If this guy was going to just glower at him all indignant-like then he would take that over meathead behind him.

What he wasn’t prepared for, however, was the display of unnerved affection that suddenly washed over this pretty, pale thing. The blank look in his eyes flickered to a blossoming curiosity and even if he’d tried, he couldn’t stop the way his eyebrows rose a little above his dark gaze. His caramel skin was dark but it didn’t quite hide the heat that rose to his cheeks when the other man pressed a hand flat to his chest. It was more intimate than just holding hands and he was entirely unprepared for it, belying his rough and tumble demeanor just a little.

“Are you French?” It was honestly a little curious, if still his usual, blunt nature. He didn’t want to play this fake game of sweet nothings so he focused on what he could find some interest in. “What did you say before?”

With some effort, he peeled his eyes away from the blue - teal? he didn’t even know what color to call it - eyes that stared up at him and cautiously let them follow the wave of the crowd in the distance. He couldn’t see him directly anymore but he could still see the flow of the crowd as they parted for him and jostled one another to get out of his path. Maybe he was actually going to get away with it.


kuropeco
Auguste still had no idea what was going on; for all he knew, this guy could have robbed a bank and was running from the law or something else wildly illegal. But he didn’t really want to make a scene in the middle of a crowded - and family oriented - marketplace, so whatever reservations he had about helping out the guy who had nearly run him down had been set aside.

For now, at least. If Auguste was going to play his part, he was going to play his part, and if it made the other man a little off his game, well, that was just a fringe benefit and a tiny bit of retribution, even if Auguste wasn’t usually the retribution-wanting type.

Especially since he could see the faint hint of red across those tanned cheekbones. Auguste felt his lips quirk up in a smile.

“Né et élevé,” he said, “Which is to say, oui. As for what I said before…”

Auguste trailed off, patting the man’s chest in what was clearly meant to be an affectionate, soothing sort of way. The sort of thing someone would do to a particularly irate pony that was acting up.

“N'aimeriez-vous pas savoir?”

His mouth was upturned, an amused smile on his face. Auguste’s chest was pressed against the other man’s, and there was something still sharp about his gaze; he was too aware of the people around them, of the possibility of thundering footsteps, or snarling voices.

“Are they gone?” he asked, voice kept in a low murmur, pretending to be intimate.


felyn
“Crees que eres gracioso?”

A brow raised at the non-answer Auguste gave as he countered it. Born and raised in America as he was, his mother’s family were all proud Spaniards. It wasn’t the same as French but it had taught him enough to recognize a romance language when he heard it. Hopefully it just sounded like two people that loved each other speaking in a quiet, private tongue to blissful outsiders - not two unrelated men teasing at each other with different languages.

He made a soft tch under his breath and let his eyes roam over his shoulder, out to the crowd that seemed to have settled back around the men that had passed, absorbing them into the furthest reaches. It seemed like he had disappeared but Matteo was not one to give up his farse too easily - he knew he was not home free, not yet.

The fingers in the other man’s curled a little tighter and he tugged him as he started walking, wordlessly. He just expected Auguste to come with as he moved in the opposite direction Wally’s son had gone, tucked close to the other booths in the section.


kuropeco
Auguste’s brows rose, startled and a little impressed in spite of himself. He hadn’t expected to have another language thrown back at him, even if it wasn’t his own. But all the romance languages sounded similar on a base level, and he knew what the syllables of Spanish sounded like, even though it was strange to hear familiar tones presented in a different way.

“Je ne sais pas,” he said sweetly, still leaning into the other. He couldn’t understand the man, and likely the man couldn’t understand him, either, so really it was just two people not making any sense at all. Auguste had to fight a sudden wild urge to laugh, in spite of his irritation and his exasperation at the whole situation.

Which apparently wasn’t over yet, because Auguste felt the hand around his close more tightly, practically dragging him down the street. Auguste stumbled alongside him, jogging a little to keep up, expression shifting from the playful, almost flirtatious one, to one of annoyance and and then hastily back to one of forced calm.

“Are you going to tell me what’s going on?” he whispered through gritted teeth,, then flashed a charming, sweet smile at a passing vendor, Auguste reaching up a hand to rest on the crook of the other’s elbow, as though they were nothing more than a simple couple taking a stroll. “You haven’t done anything stupid, have you?”

Doubtless he had, but, well, there was always a chance.


felyn
“I guess stupid is a relative term, isn’t it?” Because he definitely had.

Matteo paused at a stall closer to the exit of the marketplace, this one a table covered in homemade goods. There were breads and cheeses, spreads and pickled vegetables, and for what it was worth he actually seemed interested. One hand touched a loaf of challah delicately, then moved on to a round loaf that he seemed more pleased with. With his hand still locked tightly in Auguste’s, he reached into his pocket and pulled out a wallet; it was nothing fancy, but nothing drab.

“Tia, cuanto cuesta este pan?”

An older woman looked up at him with a smile that was pleased, though her eyes did slide sidelong to the Auguste next to him. The smile never faltered though. Whatever she said in response made Matteo laugh and for once, it seemed genuine, lighting his dark eyes in a way that very few things did. She reminded him of his mother, and her family, and even if there were two men trying to find him to pummel his head in, he could enjoy the moment.

“Que hay del queso?”

Matteo’s fingers lighted on a half round of cheese and she just tutted at him beneath her breath, waving at him with her fan playfully. It made his smile linger as he opened his wallet and drew out a few bills, tossing them at her - much to her bewilderment. It was more than she had wanted but he was already tucking his wallet back into his pocket and winking at her as he gathered up the bread and cheese.

“Come on,” he mumbled to Auguste, heading (slower than before) to the entrance of the marketplace. He hadn’t forgotten what the paler man had asked him and as they approached the break in the throng, he turned a dark pair of eyes down at him.

“If I told you I stole a bottle of tequila, would you think less of me?”

Would it matter to Matteo, though, if he did?


kuropeco
“It’s only relative if you’ve actually done something stupid,” Auguste pointed out, resisting a very strong urge to roll his eyes, lips pressing together. “Which I’m going to assume is what you’ve done, since you won’t actually answer the question.”

He didn’t know why he was still going along with this charade, especially considering that he didn’t even know this guy’s name, and the previous encounter had been less than stellar on many levels. But he didn’t want to make a scene, and something told him that they might not be entirely out of the woods yet; and in spite of Auguste’s reluctance and his irritation, he wasn’t about to just throw someone to the wolves.

Even if they maybe deserved it. Whatever it was.

Auguste couldn’t quite understand what was being spoken, but he caught the sidelong glance and curled his hand more securely around the other’s elbow, holding on both there and to the hand that still gripped his. He gave the woman a smile, calm and relaxed, then let his eyes flicker sideways, brows furrowing a little.

He hadn’t expected laughter. To be quite frank, he hadn’t expected any sort of positive emotions from him. The laughter lightened his face, made his eyes a little brighter, smoothing out the irritable expression that had been there before. It made him look younger than he had, though Auguste still suspected he was at least a few years older.

The hand on the crook of his elbow slid away as he was led towards the exit. Auguste caught the dark eyes looking at him, and then frowned.

“That depends,” he said slowly. “What did you steal it for? And did you hurt anyone in the process?”


felyn
“What you’re saying is that you would be okay if I were Robin Hood.”

Matteo’s face didn’t change much, but he looked pensive at the thought. It was another non-answer but at least the look in his eyes suggested that he was thinking - or maybe judging. When he lifted his eyes away from Auguste’s, it was hard to say.

That was when he saw him, the younger and (bulkier) brother of the first lug. He hissed between his teeth and pulled the smaller man against him abruptly, then sank backward between a tented booth and the old oak tree next to it. It cast them in shade and out of sight. He was entirely committed to using the other for his scheming. It seemed a little bit like holding someone hostage but he pushed that out of his thoughts as soon as it arrived there.

He leaned his dark head back against the tree branch - it looked relaxed, like a man stealing a moment with his partner beneath a shady branch, but it gave him a better view of the crowd and, specifically, the broad man shoving his way through it.

“I stole it to drink it, obviously,” he answered at last. In the shadows, his dark eyes were even more unreadable. “And if I hurt them, it was just their brains. Look at that damn gargoyle.”

Nothing was hurting him.


kuropeco
“Sometimes the right thing isn’t necessarily the most well respected thing,” said Auguste, with a look up at the other. “So yes, perhaps I would be.”

But he had no idea and no way of knowing for sure. Auguste felt a sudden jerk as he was abruptly dragged forward, a small yelp escaping him unintentionally, hastily stifled. He’d been pulled against the other’s chest, the two of them stuffed in a not-particularly-wide crevice between a tent and a tree. If he stepped backwards, he’d toppled into the tent.

His hands had risen instinctively to come to rest on the man’s chest, Auguste leaning against him. He peered sideways, squinting around to try and see who it was that was chasing them and saw someone with bushy eyebrows and a scowl that was even more pronounced than the man he was currently pressed up against.

“You stole tequila to drink,” Auguste repeated slowly, still watching the man look around. “Well…”

There was a small pause. Auguste sighed. “Well, it could have been worse, I suppose. I was imagining something a lot more ridiculous, to be perfectly honest.”

He glanced up at his “lover,” eyes moving over the half shadowed face. He couldn’t quite read the expression there; probably it was something negative or scowling, though Auguste was starting to feel some of his own irritation leave.

“If you’re going to make me your partner in crime here, at least tell me your name.”



felyn
It was only as Matteo looked back down at Auguste that he realized what a, well, what an interesting situation they were in. From an outside perspective he supposed they must have looked very well acquainted, what with the way the paler man was leaned into him, splaying hands against his chest. Even in the shadows, his face tinted a little again. It was hard to say, but his chest did seem to be rising a little more pointedly with each breath as it swelled and receded beneath the pale fingertips.

“They’re just fun to mess with,” he mumbled, shrugging a little as he did. Matteo didn’t think he was necessarily evil or bad, at least not in the greatest sense of the word. He was a little chaotic and that was fine in his opinion. The world needed a little more random chaos - and pompous assholes deserved to be outwitted. “And I like Tequila.”

The line of his lips quirked a little at one corner, the first interactive emotion he had bothered to show for Auguste apart from irritation and contempt. He didn’t really get this other man’s deal or whatever - he knew he was French, apparently, and that he liked fluffy dogs. Whatever minute details had slipped out apart from that had already been lost on him in pursuit of his own selfish, antagonistic ways.

“It’s Matteo, Matteo Dsouza.” He paused, leaning his head back into the tree behind him for a moment as he took the opportunity to study the crowd again. “If you report me to the police I’ll know it was you.”


kuropeco
Auguste, for his part, was playing along as well as could be, considering they were both strangers, and he’d been dragged into this unwillingly. There was, at the very least, the knowledge that this hadn’t been some big, dramatic heist, and that all it had entailed was a stolen bottle of tequila. Even if that wasn’t great, it still wasn’t awful, which, admittedly, was where Auguste’s mind had first gone.

His fingers curled against the other’s chest, Auguste still squinting out onto the street, but he turned his head to look at the man as he spoke, his lips pressing together disapprovingly. He thought he could see the tiniest bit of red on those cheeks, but it was too shadowy to tell.

“ ‘Fun to mess with,’ “ Auguste repeated. “It’s fun to run around and get chased by a man who looks like he could probably throttle you with his bare hands?”

He had thought he was relatively good at understanding people, but perhaps not. Something about this guy made Auguste feel vaguely irritable, as though it was a constant itch under his skin.

Matteo. At least now he had a name to the face. Auguste’s gaze flickered over him, the frown still in place, but it lessened fractionally at the rest of what was being said.

“Maybe I should,” Auguste said, just to be contrary, which wasn’t like him at all. After a moment, however, he said, a little reluctantly, “But I won’t. It’s just...tequila. And clearly you’re not actually doing anything with it except running like an idiot.”

He sighed out a breath. “It’s Auguste, by the way. Since you didn’t ask.”


felyn
“He would have to catch me first.”

And Matteo meant it.

When his dark, oily eyes flicked back down to stare at Auguste it was with humor pulling his lips up at the corners. He wasn’t heartless but his emotions were triggered by the strangest things. They were at least still there sometimes, shoved down and conjured up only when he was being foolish enough to keep his demons at bay. It wasn’t worth explaining to a stranger and for the most part, he was finding some amusement in the way Auguste did not seem to understand him at all.

“Ahh, well, as soon as they’re both far enough away I’m actually going to go back and grab it.”

He held up the the ends of the plastic bags he had grabbed with bread and cheese, waving them a little between them.

“Now it’s a picnic.”

The only sign he gave that he was moving again was that his fingers curled a little tighter within Auguste’s and he turned, walking around the back of the tree. From where they were, they had a clear path behind the booths that stretched to the front of the market and he could see the tree he had passed on his way in. With any luck, his hoodie was still there, forgotten and overlooked by everyone.

“If you want to go, you can,” he shrugged, making his fingers jerk a little in Auguste’s grip. “Or you can eat cheese and bread and drink tequila with me. I owe you.”


kuropeco

“Right,” said Auguste, resisting another strong temptation to roll his eyes. He felt that urge a lot around this man - Matteo, that was his name - and he couldn’t quite put his finger on the reason for that, except that everything he did seemed to annoy him unreasonably. Maybe because the last time they had met had not gone well at all. “I forgot you were actually The Flash in disguise. My mistake.”

Matteo’s dark eyes were watching him now, flicking over him. He wasn’t wearing quite the scowl he’d worn before; in fact, there seemed to be almost amusement on his face, though it was difficult to know if that was true or not. Auguste’s frown deepened, more out of bemusement than anything else.

He really just...did not get him. At all.

Auguste eyed the bag in his hand, then felt himself being tugged around to the other side of the tree. His feet followed before his mind did, and only when he felt Matteo give his fingers a little jerk did he realize that he was just going along with this whole thing still.

He should just walk away. There was no point in continuing the charade if it was only going to get one of them in trouble.

Auguste sighed.

“You dragged me into this,” he said, and this time he really did roll his eyes. It still felt like a foreign thing, to be this exasperated; he didn’t understand where the annoyance was coming from, especially considering how empty he had felt for the last year. Most of his emotions had been limited to the most basic of things, flat and hollow. This new irritation was...unsettling. Not quite that, even; confusing.

“So I’m in it to the end, now,” Auguste said. “Lead the way,...thief.”

The last word was said with just the faintest hint of possible amusement.


felyn
Matteo was ready to drop the guy’s - Auguste, that was his name - hand and be about his merry way when he reaffirmed his place as his pretend boyfriend. It made him shoot a pair of raised eyebrows over his shoulder but he just shrugged and looked forward again to make sure he didn’t trip over any of the gnarled, jutting roots of the tree in front of him.

“Suit yourself.”

It was really no skin off of his back if the guy wanted to tag along. After all, he wasn’t the worst company.

In minutes he was skirting behind the tree he had passed on his way in. His hoodie was there, rolled against the bushes that lined the pathway, looking none the worse for wear. It made him smirk as he, at last, uncurled his fingers from the pale man’s and held out the bag of cheese and bread he had bought from the vendor. It seemed he had some consideration over who he bought or stole from, after all.

“Here, hold this a second.”

The dark haired man only waited long enough for Auguste to take it from him before he was inching forward, slowly and surely, to scoop the hoodie up in his arms - the bottle was intact and the liquid sloshed as he drew the bundle up into his dark, thick arms. Coal brown eyes shot back to teal ones as a head jerked, motioning for him to start walking again.

“Come on, let’s get out of here.”



kuropeco
Auguste followed along behind Matteo as they crept along the path towards the tree, his hand still tangled with the other’s. He supposed there were worse ways to spend his afternoon; he could have been sitting at home, staring off into space, the way he’d been doing for the last several weeks. Nadia and Lorne had done their best to make sure he was comfortable, but it still didn’t change the fact that it wasn’t the same anymore. Auguste didn’t know how to be who he’d once been.

Pretending to be someone’s lover was better than sitting on a couch for hours, so Auguste supposed he was at least doing something with his life for once.

Matteo’s stash was apparently where he’d left it. Auguste’s hand felt a little strange after having held the other’s for so long, but he accepted the bag handed to him with a sidelong glance, watching as Matteo bent to pick up his things. Auguste caught a glimpse of a bottle, and then Matteo was looking at him, gesturing for him to follow.

He really shouldn’t, except he had nothing better to do, and he’d already agreed to see this through til the end. Auguste sighed internally and fell into step beside Matteo, still holding the bag of cheese and bread.

“So did you just wake up today deciding you were going to steal a bottle of tequila?” he asked, eyebrows raising. “Or was this a preplanned thing?”



felyn
“No,” he shrugged, falling into step beside the shorter man. “I don’t ever plan anything.”

Then, after a pause, he amended:

“I don’t plan most things.”

A fact, he was sure, that would so totally surprise the man he had nearly bowed over on his skateboard and roped into being his pretend lover for the past half hour. There were worse things he had done to people. At least Auguste wasn’t bleeding.

They met at a junction of pathways and Matteo’s free hand rested on Auguste’s shoulder long enough to steer him to the left - away from where the shop was, away from where they should have been looking for him, and towards the sweet, ripe taste of a heist well done. Ahead of them was freedom, good food, and his favorite Tequila. The sweatshirt was settled over the flat of one broad shoulder and then he was holding up the bottle for Auguste to admire. It was long, nearly tear drop shaped except for the flat bottom, and the liquid inside was almost the color of honey.

It wasn’t just a bottle of tequila. The fine gold lettering across the front and the very simple, clean logo all suggested that was a very expensive bottle of tequila.

“Life is more interesting when you just go with the flow of the world. Today that happened to be stealing a bottle of tequila and eating cheese and bread next to the lake.”

If there was anything Matteo bucked, it was schedules and authority. Rules. Anything that seemed rigid and commanding always made him shy away.


kuropeco
Auguste glanced sideways at Matteo, brows drawing together. The frown was back on his face, though this time it looked less like a displeased expression and more like a thoughtful one as he tried to figure out the context behind what he was saying.

“So...you do plan some things,” Auguste said slowly. “I suppose things like brushing your teeth or going to sleep. But you don’t plan things like stealing a bottle of tequila from a store.”

It didn’t make any sense. Or maybe it made too much sense; that whole live in the moment kind of feeling that Auguste had once known and lived himself, though it felt like another lifetime ago since that had happened - long enough for it to feel almost foreign now. It was a strange and rather frustrating thought, as though it was right out of reach of where he was trying to hold on.

Lost in thought, Auguste almost went the wrong way, but a steadying hand - or maybe an exasperated one - pressed against one thin shoulder, redirecting him the right way. Auguste’s eyes flickered over towards Matteo and saw him holding up the bottle, a ray of sunlight glinting off of its glossy surface. Auguste knew a little about wines, but not enough about alcohol to sustain anything, other than recognize that it looked very expensive just on first glance.

“What if going with the flow results in trouble?” Auguste asked, and it wasn’t technically a sarcastic question, because, in spite of himself, he was curious about the answer. “I mean, eating food and drinking well along the lake sounds very pleasant and all, but…”

He wasn’t sure what he was asking, exactly. Auguste’s look of bemusement increased.

“Do you just not like going by what society deems normal behavior?”

Again, it wasn’t sarcastic or even irritable. Auguste was looking at Matteo with the same concentrated frown of thought as before.


felyn
Matteo sighed, then, and shot an annoyed glance down at Auguste’s pretty teal eyes. He did, at least, acknowledge that he was very pretty - even if his questions and attempts at soul searching were beginning to grate.

“I just do what I want to. Why is that such a hard thing to grasp? Normal, abnormal, bad, good. It’s all ******** relative, Auguste.” It was the first time he had used his name and he put all of his exasperated feelings into those syllables. “You think too much.”

The frown was back on Matteo’s lips as they walked because, despite himself, he was letting this acquaintance get inside his head. The more Matteo thought, the worse his mood usually got, and while he knew it was just a coping mechanism to live in the moment and ignore his feelings, he had gotten pretty damned good at it. Auguste was making him think and he didn’t want to, even if he had resigned himself to the company of the other man for a little while. Hopefully he didn’t regret it. Maybe if he could just get the guy drunk enough to stop caring?

“Here, this way.”

The park path continued on ahead of them but that strong hand was gripping Auguste’s shoulder again and tugging him off of the trail, into a sparsely wooded treeline. It would have seemed worrisome if Matteo hadn’t seemed like he knew exactly where they were going - his dark eyes were focused in a way that said he had probably come here a hundred times before. The sun filtered through the trees and cast everything in a green tint below the leafy boughs but he didn’t pause to admire the scene. There was a small incline and he headed for it, taking the hill with a practiced ease.

“You okay?” he looked sidelong at Auguste, studying him for any sign that the impromptu hike was too much. His free hand reached out between them. “Hold on if you need to.”
PostPosted: Tue May 14, 2019 5:37 pm


kuropeco
The annoyed glance was met with a set of raised eyebrows that clearly indicated Auguste wasn’t about to just stop talking just because it irritated Matteo. He was an inquisitive sort by nature, the sort of thing that was hard to unlearn even with everything that had happened - but where once he might have lapsed into a polite silence and a demure apology for being intrusive, now he pressed forward.

“Pardon me for trying to understand why a guy would steal a bottle of tequila and then force someone to pretend to be his lover and expect them not to ask questions,” said Auguste sardonically. The quip about thinking too much was lethal in its accuracy; he pressed his lips together, shooting Matteo an annoyed look of his own, face slightly pink.

He knew he thought too much. He knew it got into his head, got overwhelming - except he was at the point where thinking too much had driven him, quite literally, to his knees. He had shut down his head, pushed the off button in his mind, and then had let the hollow deadness eat him from the inside out.

Thinking again almost made his head hurt. Auguste felt himself being dragged sideways, pulling him into a thin cluster of trees, which made his frown deepen. It could have been problematic; this was the sort of thing that got people into trouble.

But he trudged on anyway, still holding the bag of food that had been given him. Auguste could feel himself growing a little more winded with each step; at one point he’d been limber and lithe, but he hadn’t danced in over a year and it was beginning to show.

Even thinking of dance made his chest hurt. Auguste glanced up and saw Matteo stretching a hand out to him, the gesture oddly kind for someone who scowled as much as he did. Though Auguste suspected it had less to do with kindness and more to do with the fact that he didn’t want Auguste collapsing on the ground and having to deal with that.

He gave the hand a dry look, but accepted it, taking hold with palm against palm.

“I didn’t realize it was such a walk,” he said. “Are we almost there?”


felyn

At least the walk seemed to have shut him up a little. Matteo thanked whatever higher being existed for that small grace.

“Stop worrying about it so much.”

It was on par with Matteo’s feelings toward everything, at least so far as his talks with Auguste had indicated, and the only real response he gave to how close they were was tightening his hand around the other man’s and pulling him along as they finally, at last, crested the small hill. On the other side, the trees were not quite so thick and it rolled down to an open, grassy space right next to the lake. It was far from the beaten path- on the other side, far across the water, was the gazebo that everyone always flocked to. This little place was hard to see, harder to find, and Matteo preferred this leafy, shady spot to the busy parts of the park where too many people always wanted to ask stupid questions.

The dark man shifted forward and picked his way carefully down the hill (only because he didn’t want to trip his new companion) until they were standing at the bottom in the sparse, dappled shade. When he let go of his hand, it was only so that he could drop to his knees and lean his back against the wood of an old trunk. There were names carved into it, words and phrases and symbols littered up as far as the eye could see. Matteo wasn’t the first person to find it; his brother had actually brought him here a long, long time ago.

“Sit down.”

Matteo shifted where he was so that he could produce a pocket knife from his pocket, along with a lighter. Practiced fingers flicked it open and in no time he was holding a lit flame beneath the blade, sanitizing it since he honestly couldn’t remember when he had last used it and for what. Then he was holding out a palm for the bag of food Auguste was carrying, eyes expectant.

Even if he was sort of a stony, grumpy sour puss, the day was beautiful. The lake rippled with a soft breeze that swayed the leaves around them and the sun, though bright, was not hot enough to make the water’s reflection too unbearable to be next to. It was perfect. If Matteo had been anyone else, maybe he would have been smiling by now.

“Try not to think, just sit down here with me and enjoy the simplicity of life for just a minute. Okay?”


kuropeco
“That must be another one of your mottos,” Auguste said, tone dry. “Don’t worry about it. Just like living in the moment and not having any regrets.’

Auguste, on the other hand, was steeped so far in regrets it felt as though he was drowning sometimes.

He was out of breath by the time they crested the hill, gripping Matteo’s hand probably harder than necessary to keep himself from falling over, his cheeks flushed with the effort of trying to get air into his lungs. But in spite of his apparent lack of physical ability, the place was beautiful; Auguste’s gaze swept across the small, secluded area, the glittering, silver blue lake that had patches of gold from the sun rising and falling gently with each ripple. There were still trees, but it felt open and lovely and strangely sweet for someone who was a self proclaimed thief with a grumpy streak.

As Matteo let go of his hand, Auguste didn’t need telling twice to sit. His legs folded beneath him and he sank down onto the grassy ground, trying not to pant too loudly, because it was ridiculous that someone who had spent his entire life dancing and physically moving was this winded so easily nowadays.

The blade was eyed with vague suspicion. Auguste let his gaze flicker upwards to Matteo’s expectant face, and pressed his lips together; it would have been a disapproving look, had it been anyone else, but coming from Auguste it was more exasperated than anything else.

“Fine,” he said, and handed over the bag. “I’ll just...sit here then, shall I?”

He drew his knees up to his chest, wrapping his arms around them, head turning to look out at the wide, glittering lake.

“I’ve never even seen this place before. I didn’t know it existed.”


felyn
“And here I was thinking you were a slow learner.” It could have been a playful comment, except that he didn’t smirk about it. Honestly, he would have been a lot happier if Auguste took his mottos to heart instead of chiming them back to him but he supposed beggars couldn’t be choosers.

The darker man held the handle of his blade in his teeth and shook out the hoodie he had wrapped his tequila in. Then, carefully, he flipped it inside out and spread it on the ground so that it created a makeshift picnic blanket between the two of them. The tequila was settled down atop it and then he was unwinding the wax paper from the cheese and making even, perfect slices with the freshly sanitized knife.

While he was concentrating, his face relaxed and settled into a peaceful calm. It made him look younger than his usual grumpy, irate expression and honestly, almost boyishly cute under all the dark, brooding exterior he held. For a man that lived by the don’t worry about it motto, he was incredibly sour.

“Yeahp, just sit there.”

He set the cheese down in its wax paper and splayed a row of freshly cut slices atop it, then began unwinding the bread from its plastic.

“Well, it’s sort of the point. It’s quiet and far away everything and hard to see from the path across the lake because of the shade. Even then, most people aren’t willing to tramp through the trees to look for it.” He shrugged. “It’s sorta just one of those places you only find because you know someone who found it already.”

A few slices of bread were laid out next to the cheese and then he was setting his knife down and reaching for the tequila. As he concentrated on unscrewing it, he shot Auguste a pointed glance.

“So don’t go blabbering to other people about it, got that?”


kuropeco
Matteo was given an exasperated look, though Auguste didn’t reply to the slow learner comment, choosing instead to press his lips together and give a shake of his head. That perpetual surly expression on the other’s face was something Auguste couldn’t quite read; and he somehow felt that trying to needle him too much would result in an even deeper scowl, though there was a part of Auguste that couldn’t quite help attempting to needle anyway.

He wasn’t sure why; it nagged at him, a pressing feeling that was taking root in his chest. Maybe it was because he wanted to deliberately push the edge of things that he couldn’t control to see how far they would bend before they broke. Everything else was already at that point, anyway.

When he wasn’t being snide, Matteo was not actually that bad looking of a guy. Auguste rested his head on his folded arms atop his knees and studied him, brows drawn together, letting his eyes take in the strong jawline, the dark hair, the sloe black eyes that were, at present, not squinted together in irritation. He looked both comfortable and relaxed as he cut the cheese into pieces, working carefully and easily; a familiar habit, born out of long experience.

If only he wasn’t so irritable all the time. Auguste blinked back into the present, pushing thoughts aside. He lifted his head, strands of white falling around his hollow cheeks.

“Does that mean you found it because someone showed you?” he asked, and then, after hesitating a moment, reached for a piece of bread and put a piece of cheese on top of it, absently settling it into his hands.

Matteo was given another exasperated look.

“I’m not going to, don’t worry,” said Auguste. “It’s not like I have many people to tell, anyway.”

He hadn’t meant to say that last bit. It had just come out unintentionally, and Auguste busied himself with the bread and cheese, taking a small bite.



felyn
“Mmm,” was the only answer he gave to the question. His brother had showed him, a long time ago, but he didn’t know Auguste well enough to bother telling him that. He didn’t like to talk about Arturo to strangers or, really, to anyone for that matter. It was an incredibly private part of his psyche and even if the other man didn’t know it, just bringing here was already more intimate with the subject than Matteo liked to be with others. He just nodded his head and listened to the way the the seal cracked on the bottle. When the cap lifted, he drew a deep scent of the alcohol and then pressed it to his lips, tilting it back for a quick, satisfied gulp.

It burned, just as it ought to, and then as it settled on his tongue he picked out the smooth oak and the earthy fruit beneath the flavor of the heat.

“Here, try this.”

He didn’t ask - just like he didn’t ask why Auguste didn’t have people to tell. Matteo wasn’t much to care about the feelings or interests of others, at least not when those others had no impact on his life or well being. A dark hand held out the slender bottle to him by the neck while his other reached for a slice of cheese that he settled on top of the bread.

“And don’t say no. You’re here in my happy place, you’re gonna play by my rules.”



kuropeco
All right, so he didn’t want to answer that question. Auguste didn’t press, if only because, by the sound of that noncommittal answer, it was either someone he didn’t want to talk about, or something he didn’t want to talk about, and he was staring to learn that Matteo was not the kind of person one could force into doing anything he didn’t want to do.

Auguste took a bite of the bread and cheese which, in all honesty, was surprisingly good. A soft, buttery cheese that went well with the sort of bread that Matteo had picked out. He hadn’t eaten since breakfast, and while he wasn’t starving, it was nice to just sit and eat something good. Lorne and Nadia would have been proud, Auguste thought, a little sardonically; his eating had diminished significantly since coming back to Earth, his appetite dissipating like everything else.

Auguste lowered the bread and cheese as Matteo offered the bottle, giving it a slightly suspicious look. It wasn’t a question; it wasn’t even a suggestion. It was definitely do this or I’ll do something worse, or something to that effect, though Auguste almost refused just on principle.

“A bit rich of you to make demands when I’m the one who helped you,” Auguste said delicately, but he reached out and took the bottle, tilting it to his lips without hesitation or thought for sharing. He took a swallow, letting the alcohol burn down his throat, but the taste was surprisingly woodsy, a tang of light fruit. Auguste took one other small sip, rolling it on his tongue as he held the bottle back to Matteo.

“Not bad,” he admitted, swallowing. “I wasn’t expecting that. But it’s good. And so is the happy place,” he added, with a touch of dryness. “It’s very nice. Which is surprising,” he added, with a pointed look at Matteo. “Considering.”

Not quite a jab, but maybe a jab.


felyn
“Currently, these are the nicest things I have to offer you as payback. Good food, better tequila, and a nice view.” He shrugged, as if that was a perfectly acceptable trade for stealing someone for an afternoon and potentially getting them in trouble with a couple of ruffians if things didn’t all go according to plan. Things didn’t go wrong, though, so it seemed like a fair trade. “I think it’s a pretty good deal when all you had to do was hold my hand for a little while.”

Matteo took the bottle back and then shifted a little so he could lean his back firmly against the tree behind him. One leg rose and he settled his wrist on his knee, letting the bottle of liquor hang loosely from his hand as he did. His eyes were on the lake, though.

The almost jab reached him and he let both brows raise, though he was halfway through an overly large bite of bread and cheese. He swallowed it and washed it down with another sip of tequila - this time it was a little too deep, a little too much, and he felt the heat rise in his cheeks at the same time that it settled in his stomach.

“Considering what?” he cleared his throat after the words, then leaned his head back to watch Auguste when their eyes met. “Considering I’m an a*****e? Even assholes can appreciate simple, peaceful things.”

In fact, he would have argued that it was times like these where he was more normal than rude. Auguste didn’t have much to compare it to, though, and Matteo wasn’t going to bother explaining things to him that weren’t really any of his business. He could either enjoy the moment or he could leave - Matteo would decidedly not be helping him back up the hill anytime soon, though.

“So what’s your story, then?”

He reached for another piece of cheese, this time without bread, and took a n** of it. It rolled on his tongue behind his lips and he let it melt, savory and buttery, as he watched him.


kuropeco
Auguste gave Matteo a sidelong glance, a look of dry amusement on his pale, freckled face. It wasn’t a look he wore often; it felt almost foreign to even himself.

“Well...it is very good cheese,” he said, with as much dignity as he could muster under the circumstances. “And no, perhaps not. But it still wasn’t exactly how I’d planned to spend my afternoon.”

Not that he’d been planning on doing anything at all. Auguste’s entire plans for the day had involved going to the market, and that had been it. The rest of the time was sort of vague and wishy washy to the point of not quite knowing what he wanted or whether or not he’d have the strength to actually do anything otherwise. So in all actuality, this whole excursion had been more invigorating than he’d expected.

Matteo was sitting slouched against the tree, looking utterly relaxed, minus the look that he was giving Auguste, which suggested annoyance or maybe weariness at Auguste’s continued irritation with him. Auguste himself raised his eyebrows.

“I didn’t say anything,” he said, which was true, if only that it meant he hadn’t said anything out loud. Then he added, “But yes, it does seem a little...at odds with your whole…” He waved a hand in Matteo’s general direction. “Whatever it is you’re trying to be.”

Auguste ate the last bit of cheese and bread and had only just swallowed it when he realized he’d been asked a question; a question he wasn’t even entirely sure of the answer, to be perfectly honest. He pressed his lips together, tongue darting out to catch a few stray crumbs, then held out a hand for the bottle that was still dangling from Matteo’s fingertips.

“I’m...was, a dancer,” he said. “Contemporary. I live with my sister, or rather, my pretend sister, we’re not really related. I used to have a lover. Now I don’t. So on and so forth.”

His hand outstretched a little further. “Not much more than that.”


felyn
Maybe it was the tequila, or maybe he was just relaxing in Auguste’s presence now that he wasn’t running from a couple of thugs or yelling about the unspoken rules of a pathway, but for the first time since they had run into each other, he laughed. It wasn’t a loud, raucous guffaw, but it was a laugh none-the-less. It was like him, muted and dark, and it pulled a half smirk to his lips.

“I’m not trying to be anything at all.”

Why that was humorous, he didn’t explain, but he took a quick sip of the tequila and passed the bottle over without a quip or backhanded comment about it. There was a thoughtful look in his eyes then as he mulled over what Auguste had said. It wasn’t like him to pry so much into someone else’s life but this was how strangers bonded, wasn’t it? And it was a hell of a lot easier to think about whatever he was saying than it was to mull over his own worries. He knew first hand that sometimes alcohol, while relaxing, could take anyone to a dark place if they weren’t distracted well enough.

A dancer? That could definitely be a distraction.

“You’re pretty and all, but you got winded climbing up the hill.” He pointed with his free hand, devoid of the bottle now. “Which means you must have stopped dancing a while ago, right?”

The dark man gave pause as he chewed another bite of cheese, letting his playfulness drain away little by little while he contemplated.

“Did you give up because of this lover or whatever? That seems dumb.”


kuropeco
The laughter was unexpected enough that Auguste turned his head to look at Matteo, his brows shooting up in surprise. Even though it wasn’t the full on, wild, good natured laughter of other people, it still lightened some of the years from his face; still made his eyes seem just slightly less cynical and irate. The smirk added to it, though it was possibly a sarcastic one.

Matteo was so unnervingly hard to read for someone who claimed to be the sort of person who just went with the flow of life. His emotions felt locked down, shut away; and it wasn’t as though Auguste couldn’t relate to that, considering his own situation.

The idea that he was considered pretty made him press his lips together, but it was the rest of what Matteo was saying that made the pink rise in Auguste’s cheeks, a flush darkening the pale skin. “I wasn’t winded,” said Auguste, stressing the word. “And no, I haven’t danced in over a year, if you really must know. I was...out of town.”

On a different planet entirely, but he couldn’t say that. Auguste tilted the bottle of tequila to his lips and took a long swallow, lowering it after a moment and wiping his mouth on the back of his hand. The alcohol burned, through him, coiling in his chest, expanding outwards; he let the warmth of it soothe him, though it had been a long time since he’d drunk anything even remotely alcoholic at all.

There was a moment of silence. Auguste’s slender fingers caressed the neck of the bottle absently.

“No,” he said, and then, “Yes,” because both were true, in a way. He had left, and he had stayed away for a year, and in doing so, had given up his life in the process. “It wasn’t intentional. It was just a side effect of...everything else. I didn’t want to.”

But he’d had to. Because he’d had no other choice.



felyn

Matteo understood better than he wanted to. For a moment, he waffled, then finally sighed.

“My brother brought me here.”

It was blunt and, at first, made very little sense in context with what Auguste had said. He sat forward and craned his head up to look at the tree trunk, pointing out a pair of initials that were next to each other-

A. D.

M. D.


“I used to run. I had a scholarship to DCU as a starter on their track team.”

The hand draped against his knee fidgeted, one finger running beneath the nail of his thumb and picking at an imaginary grit beneath the rim. He leaned back and let his head rest against the tree again, face impassive for a moment as he tried to control the thoughts teaming around in his head. His face felt hot after just a few sips of tequila but he wasn’t tipsy, not yet, but he knew himself well enough to know that the lightweight next to him probably wasn’t going to be able to keep up. Maybe he’d just forget everything he was telling him anyway.

“Arturo joined the marines, then died my senior year.”

With a pointed, annoyed sigh (as if he had not wanted to say any of it at all) he reached out and grabbed the bottle from Auguste’s hand so that he could take another, longer, and probably foolishly deep sip. It burned like a line of fire down his throat and he winced as he pulled it away from his lips at last, hissing dramatically.

“Anyway,” his voice was rough and gravelly from the burn, “the longer you wait to go back the less likely you will. So you should dance.” A pause. “Not… here. Just in general.”



kuropeco
Auguste looked up as Matteo spoke, brows furrowing together; though his eyes followed where he was pointing, up the trunk of the tree until he could see the initials near one of the lower branches. It was a tree already marked by age and wear, but though they were a little faded, the A.D. and M.D. were still clearly visible.

He let Matteo talk, not interrupting. Auguste’s fingers were still absently moving up and down the neck of the bottle, feeling the glass against the tips, cool and steady. Whatever he had expected, it likely wasn’t this; whether it was the quiet, subdued nature of Matteo’s tone or the serious subject that he was speaking about at all.

Then died my senior year.

“Oh,” said Auguste.

He felt, through the beginning haze of alcohol, something in his chest twist. Maybe it was because of the loss he knew too well, or maybe it was because of the heavy, almost exasperated sigh that escaped Matteo the next moment, but something about this particular moment had a tinge of….something to it. Almost something like hurt, but not quite, not there just yet.

The bottle was snatched from his fingers before he could formulate a proper response to being told that his fake lover’s brother had died. Auguste watched him take a swig of tequila, larger than it should be, and then felt a slight flush begin to grow on his cheeks.

He reached out a hand and took the bottle back, pulling it out of Matteo’s grasp.

“I don’t need you to tell me that,” he said, “I know that I might not - “

He stopped, then tipped the bottle to his own lips again. It burned going down, and he wiped his mouth once more on the back of his hand, the flush on his face starting to increase. He was slender and thinner than he should be, with a particularly bad diet - and he never had been able to hold his alcohol well. Things like that affected him almost immediately.

Auguste started again, taking a breath. “I know i might not...be able to start again, I just...don’t know how to start over.”

His chest hurt. Auguste said, “I’m sorry about your brother,” and it didn’t feel adequate enough.


felyn
Dark eyes widened as the bottle was suddenly snatched away again. Was this guy for real? For once, Matteo seemed sort of, well, surprised.

“Hey, take it easy,” he mumbled, even as Auguste tipped the bottle back and took another swig. He didn’t try to take it away again but he saw the heat rising on those pale cheeks and the tongue between the man’s lips sounded heavy when he spoke, like he couldn’t quite grasp the words he wanted.

So maybe he was a bit of a foolish drinker but Matteo gave him brownie points for the fearless way he was tackling the tequila anyway. He was pretty sure he was gonna have to carry this guy back, though.

“There’s no starting over, you know that don’t you? It’s not about becoming what you used to be or being as good or as happy as you were or whatever the hell it is people think they can get out of that brand new me bullshit.”

He sighed and ate the rest of his bite or cheese, savoring it in contrast to the oak tinged fire on his tongue. When he reached for a piece of bread, he very pointedly held one out to Auguste too. Eating was non negotiable - he wouldn’t stop him from drinking yet but he was damn sure gonna put food in his belly.

“You just have to do it. Just dance. Do what feels good.”

The hand holding his own bread shoved a bite into his mouth and he took that time to mull over Auguste’s last words. Maybe a year ago he would have been angry over the unwarranted sympathy but with time (and tequila) all things could be dampened.

“Don’t be sorry for me,” was al he said, right before he leaned forward and extended his hand for the bottle - but at least this time there was a silent question in the gesture.


kuropeco
He had never been good at holding his alcohol. Auguste had grown up in a French household that drank wine at every meal, but his slender, smaller frame and his general lack of a strong body type meant that he easily succumbed to alcohol, especially the harder hitting liquor. Not only that, but he wasn’t a social drinker and rarely ate anything worthwhile these days, which meant the tequila was flooding his system with more speed and more strength than he should have expected.

He could feel it now, warming his blood, his face. Auguste let his gaze flicker back over to Matteo, his lips pressing together, whether out of embarrassment or shame or an attempt not to say something stupid, he wasn’t sure.

“I don’t want to be a brand new me,” he said, a little more heatedly than was necessary. “I just want to - I want what I used to have.”

He’d never told that to anyone, ever. He wasn’t sure why he was saying it now, though he suspected it had something to do with the bottle in his hand loosening his tongue. What he’d used to have, what he’d used to be, the people he had once known - all of that was gone. He couldn’t get it back, save for Nadia and Lorne, but they were about to be married, and then where would that leave him? What place did that take him?

He didn’t know.

“I know it’s bullshit,” Auguste mumbled. He squinted at the bread, then reached out and took it, putting it to his mouth and chewing slowly, though it felt like his fingers were trembling. “I know I can’t have that again, I just...don’t know...how. Not anymore.”

He missed dancing like a physical ache in his chest. That freedom, that glorious feeling of flying, that press of the world disappearing. And he missed the others. The ones he wasn’t thinking about. The ones he couldn’t think about because it hurt too much.

Matteo was given a sidelong look, but he hadn’t grabbed or yanked. Auguste handed over the bottle.

“Why not?” he mumbled. “It’s a sad thing.”


felyn
Matteo eased the bottle out of Auguste’s hand but he didn’t bring it directly to his lips, not yet. After everything that the pale thing had said, the dark-eyed man was leveling a strange, contemplative gaze on him. Truthfully, some little part of his dark, walled off heart felt sorry for him. He knew what it was like to feel like there was nothing left in the world even if he had, somewhat, done it to himself - continued to do it to himself.

“Because sad things will consume you if you let them stay.”

It was better advice than he had ever taken, advice he probably still needed to learn, but Matteo was the direct result of having let something consume him too completely for too long; his scars would never fade, not really. Maybe he could be that wise, older (was he older? He didn’t know) dude that just said some enlightening s**t and helped someone for once. He set the bottle down on the flat of a rock and sighed, letting his eyes drop away for just a moment.

“Look. It’s not bullshit, okay? You hurt. That’s normal. You gotta get that s**t out, though, grab it by the ******** horns.” He shrugged, as if it were that simple, even though he knew it wasn’t. “If you’re mad or hurt or sad you express it. I don’t know what you like about dancing but when I was competing, running felt different to me. I had goals and a finish line to reach.”

He was willing to admit that his thoughts were a little sluggish even if he wasn’t feeling too overcome by the alcohol yet. It made him pause to collect himself, to really decide how he wanted to say this nonsense - he wasn’t accustomed to giving a s**t about anyone and trying to put his own worries and hurt into words was extraordinarily hard for him. Eloquence had never really been his forte.


“When everything happened and I stopped competing, I didn’t run for a long time. Then one night when I felt like s**t I just… got up and ran until I couldn’t breath. No fancy tracksuit, just me and a pair of burnt out chucks. Maybe you just need to find some place to dance, even if it's not like, I dunno, a studio? Start small.”


kuropeco
Auguste missed the contemplative way that Matteo was looking at him, still staring at some distant place on the ground, eyes a little unfocused. The words were sinking into his alcohol filled mind like damp footprints; a steady sinking feeling he didn’t know how to deal with.

Because sad things will consume you if you let them stay.

It felt like his whole life story, exposed, on display for Matteo to see, though Auguste couldn’t make himself focus on the person, only the knowledge that he knew all too well what it felt like to have this sadness consuming him, because that was exactly what it was doing right now. The heavy weight of everything he had been trying to carry alone was dragging him down into the ground, claustrophobic in its suffocating pressure.

Auguste turned his head to look at Matteo, his cheeks still flushed, though not all of it was from the tequila. His own head felt sluggish and stupid, as though he was running underwater, but it was a pleasant sort of heat, a nice sort of buzz that made his head light and his tongue looser. He couldn’t quite figure out why everything was being brought to the surface now, as though Matteo could read right through him.

You hurt. That’s normal.

Something in his eyes stung. Auguste blinked them rapidly.

He wanted to dance. He wanted to feel the way it had felt again, wanted to catch that sense of adrenaline and let it push through him until he was soaring. Dancing had always been the only thing that had ever made him feel truly and completely alive. He had let it be the air in his lungs, the blood in his veins. Not having it - not being able to have it - was a physical lance in his chest.

“There’s a studio,” Auguste said, a little hoarsely. “One that I...I used to go to. I still have a key.”

His eyes fluttered a little, then closed, as though he was sleeping, his chest breathing out.

“I just want to feel that again. Like you felt, running. I want that again.”


felyn

“I mean, the only thing that’s stopping you is you, right?”

A thick, dark brow rose at Auguste as closed his eyes. He wouldn’t see the small glimmer of empathy that the rough and tumble man felt, the way he saw a little bit of himself in the sad, fragile thing. He knew it was just the alcohol making him soft but he was beginning to miss the angry, feisty man that had yelled at him over almost turning his dog into a pancake with his skateboard. It was dumb how emotions worked, sometimes.

His eyes fluttered side long to the bottle of tequila but he refrained - as much as he wanted to swipe it up and knock back another deep swig, he knew he would be plastered too soon and this guy seemed like he was about one sip away from drunk crying next to a stranger. Another day he might have encouraged it, maybe even filmed it and posted it on Reddit, but today he didn’t.

Both long legs pulled up and he settled his other forearm across his knee, much like the first one, so that his long, dark hands hung between them. He was bowed forward a little, as close to Auguste as he could get without simply just scooting over to sit with him. That would have been a bit much for him.

“Say that you could do anything, right now, what would it be? Do you wanna go to that studio and dance? Cause I’d take your little drunk a** there if you wanted to. We can do whatever, Auguste. You’ve just gotta decide what that whatever is - every day is a new one, or whatever the hell that saying is.”

He waved a hand for emphasis, then shrugged.


kuropeco
It was almost the only thing stopping him. The rest was inexplicably an amount of fear that he wouldn’t be able to remember, that he would try and fail and then where would he be?

The alcohol was threading through his veins, rendering him more emotional than he generally was these days, more prone to letting himself feel in an almost laughable contrast to the people who drank deliberately not to feel. It made him feel warm and unsteady and slow and stupid, but also lax enough to let out some of the things he’d kept bottled up for months - years, by now.

Auguste opened his eyes. Matteo wasn’t quite close exactly, but he was closer, slightly, head tilted forward. Auguste watched him from under pale lashes, lips pressed together.

What did he want? What was he going to do right this moment? If he didn’t have to think about it, if he didn’t have to do anything but do, what would he do?

His chest thrummed with something - he wasn’t sure what. Nerves? Anxiety? Anticipation?

Auguste took a breath.

“Yes,” he said, “I want to dance.”


felyn
Matteo wasn’t entirely sure what Auguste was going to say because even for all that they had been playing at being lovers for the sake of saving his hide, the dark man really didn’t know a ******** thing about the petite creature he had sort of steamrolled into spending a day with him.

As he drew a breath and admitted what he wanted, though, it made him smile- well, it made him smirk. It was almost the same.

“Alright, then let’s take you to dance. I guess that’s the least I can do since you agreed to play the part of doting boyfriend for me.”

A hand reached out and gathered up the bread and cheese, shoveling it all back into the bag in an unceremonious heap. Then he was standing, looping his wrist through the bag and grabbing the tequila in his hand. The other held out and down, to help Auguste up.

“Ready?”

At the very least, life with Matteo would not be boring. Dark and quiet and brooding as he seemed, he stuck close to his intentions to live his days to the fullest. Today, it seemed that his best day meant making this sad, pretty man feel a little better. He was okay with that.


kuropeco
His head rose as Matteo began to move around, shoving things back into a bag. Auguste felt a pounding in his heart, confusion mingling with uncertainty, mixing with anxiety; alcohol was making his mind sluggish, and it was taking him a few minutes to actually comprehend what Matteo was saying to him. By the time he managed to put the pieces together, Matteo was already standing, a hand outstretched towards him.

Auguste stared at the hand then stared up at Matteo. His heart was still thudding, and for a few seconds, he didn’t say anything at all, lips parting wordlessly as though he was about to ask why but without actually being able to formulate the syllables properly.

He had a chance. It was an opening. Even if he didn’t understand, even if he wasn’t sure he could, it was a chance, one that he wouldn’t have come to on his own, and one that he wasn’t even sure he would have had the strength to do otherwise.

Auguste sucked in a breath. Then he reached out, took Matteo’s hand, and stood.



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