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 Posted: Thu Mar 21, 2019 9:46 pm
Dinara wasn’t as happy as she used to be. But how could she when things at home were so…so quiet.
Kelly had been gone for almost two months now, and while she knew that her sister was doing fine, living in a nice apartment with their brother…she really, really missed her.
Missed them both.
At least it was finally almost springtime again, and it was warm enough to want to be outside.
She was sitting on a bench, fingering her small jar of glitter and remembering the first time she had managed to wiggle the cork out of the bottle and it had gotten into the faces of both her and Kanan…but…the memory made her laugh too and for a moment, she fervently wished that she could have the Jedi beside her.
Idly she pulled the cork from her jar once more and emptied the glitter into her palm and then glanced up into the night sky, picking her favorite star and closing her eyes.
As she made her wish, she blew the glitter into the night, opening her eyes again and giving a very un-Dinara like sigh.
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Posted: Mon Mar 25, 2019 7:49 pm
"Why so glum, Stargirl?" asked a voice from above and behind her. In the tree behind her sat Mourite, head tilted to one side. His hair had grown out a little, a bit shaggier than before, but his marroon eyes were still the same curious depths of red. He jumped down from the tree branch with a soft thud and leaned over the back of the bench.
"You're always so chipper and smiling. It's not like you," he said, making an effort to move a piece of hair out of her face. He didn't like that she wasn't chipper. It worried him, confused him. Dinara was always the same, always chipper, always slightly annoying, always naive. This dark look in her eyes didn't suit her.
He wondered why it made his chest tight to see her like this. Probably nothing.
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Posted: Tue Mar 26, 2019 7:24 pm
Dinara wasn’t sure if she was dreaming or if her wish had honestly summoned Kanan. For a moment she simply stared at him, though her cheeks turned a light pink as he touched her, a strange tingle starting where his fingers brushed her skin.
“Oh, Kanan…it’s nothing…nothing really important. Just stuff at home. My parents kicked my sister out and I suppose I’m just a little lonely without her. And it was really unfair too…she didn’t do anything wrong. Just went missing for a few weeks, she got kidnapped or something and that wasn’t her fault but…”
She sighed and shrugged, leaning back to look up at him, her eyes flickering to his lips for a moment, causing more heat to rise in his cheeks.
“I…I missed you. Have you been okay? It’s been a while. You could sit with me if you wanted to.” Dinara reached out and patted the bench next to her, scooting over to give him more room.
“I don’t have any free chocolate today so…no worries about anything strange.”
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Posted: Thu Mar 28, 2019 12:46 pm
"That's rough. I can relate uh... shitty home life," he said with what he hoped was a sympathetic expression his face. He saw her face flush, and warmth pooled in his chest for a moment. Mourite slipped around the bench and sat down in the space she made.
"You missed me, huh? I've been ok I guess. Doing Ne-- Jedi things," he said, catching himself before he told her what he really was. Even off handedly. He was Kanan the Jedi here, not Mourite the Negaverse agent. Even if... he was Mourite at the moment. He'd kept up the rouse for too long now, couldn't let it fall.
"Have you ever been to the stars?" he asked after a moment, deciding to try to distract her from her life for a bit. Not that he had any idea of how to get there but he was curious. She was a Page of Cosmos after all, that had to mean something to do with the stars.
Right?
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Posted: Thu Mar 28, 2019 5:48 pm
Dinara watched him for a moment, secretly delighted he had sat next to her, and finally took the chance of scooting just a bit closer to him, resting her head gingerly on his shoulder and glancing up at the night sky, intrigued by his question.
“Have I…been to the stars? No, I can’t say that I have.”
He was so cool. A Jedi…even with a…a shitty home life…he was still a Jedi and the thought filled her with such excitement that she didn’t quite know how to deal with it.
“Do you think that I can go to the stars? Because if I could…I’d take you, Kanan. You’d be the only one that I would want to take, honestly.” Dinara let her eyes close as she rested against his shoulder, her heart increasing in tempo as she remained there. “I’m sorry that your life is shitty…that’s…not what I’d want for you. You deserve every happiness, you know? At least. I think that you do. You’re one of the nicest people that I know. And I think you’re my best friend, if that’s not too weird.”
It hadn’t sounded too weird until she said it out loud, but. No take backs now.
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Posted: Wed Apr 03, 2019 9:20 pm
His face fell for a moment. That was sad, that she hadn't been to the stars. He couldn't really focus on it though, because her head was on his shoulder. She was close enough he could feel her body heat against his arms. It took him two swallows and breaths to speak agian.
"I think, yeah you could go to the stars. I think you can figure out how," he said, blinking as she called him her best friend. And nice. He was glad she couldn't see his face, as his mouth twisted into a grimace. If she knew the truth, if she knew who he really was, she wouldn't think him so nice or deserving of happiness.
"Naw, that's not too weird. Yer pretty chill, for a page of Cosmos," he said after a moment, ruffling her fluffy hair.
He couldn't tell her. It would destroy her if she knew. Even if he took her to his Soveriegns and corrupted her. Which was the only way this could go, right? Save her from herself, and bring her into the fold of the Negaverse. The only way.
Right?
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Posted: Sat Apr 06, 2019 8:19 am
A soft smile played about her face as she listened to his words. Felt him playing with her hair. She liked this. She liked this a lot. “Then I’ll work on it, and we’ll go to the stars together. No Jedi should be forced to stay in one place after all! You’re meant to see the stars too, don’t you think?”
Her eyes were closed and she felt…utterly perfect in this moment. Perfect as she sat against him. Perfect as he held her and petted her and…things simply could not get better than this.
“You think I’m chill? But how else are pages of Cosmos supposed to act? Should I be like…up in space lassoing the stars and forming a constellation that looks like you, Kanan? Because. I’m sure that I could. Maybe.” If Dinara could do it, she would. And then her Kanan would always be in the stars.
Her hand moved, searching for his. “…You and me both belong in the stars.”
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Posted: Tue Apr 09, 2019 8:40 pm
He was quiet as she spoke, letting the questions fade into the quiet of the sky. His hand slid down her head to her shoulder, fingers draping over her bodice. Belong in the stars, hrm? If he belonged in the stars, why did the Negaverse fight for Earth's freedom? He seemed more at home here, than the stars.
The stars did pull at him gently, and he shifted again and his hand pressed against her bodice.
And then his fingers slid into her chest.
Mourite froze, stock stiff and eyes wide.
Something pulsed near his fingertips and he wanted to touch it.
But his hand was in her chest.
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Posted: Tue Apr 09, 2019 8:54 pm
Her fingers still searched for his, and for a moment, Dinara felt a slight shiver as his hand moved over her shoulder, then slid down. Her cheeks flushed and she stifled an embarrassed giggle, though the sound froze as there was suddenly a strange almost pain. Opening her eyes, Dinara looked down and saw the strangest sight of Kanan’s hand…inside of her chest.
Not touching her chest.
Not being perverted but…somehow he had reached inside of her.
The page’s heart suddenly began to pound and without any prompting, fear began to swamp her. “U-um…What….How are you…d-doing that Kanan…?”
She couldn’t move. Was afraid to move.
Jedi could reach inside of people? That wasn’t something you learned from the movies…
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Posted: Tue Apr 09, 2019 9:11 pm
He was pulled towards the pulsing beneath his fingers and he shifted again, the pads gently brushing against something firm and solid. It hummed against his fingers and for the brieftest moment, he was tempted to close his fingers around it and pull.
Then Dinara's voice cleared through the fog of Chaos in his mind and his hand snapped out of her chest, thankfully empty. The Negaverse agent was up and several paces away from her in an instant, very muscle tense and on edge.
That was.
Her starseed.
He'd touched her starseed.
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Posted: Tue Apr 09, 2019 9:19 pm
Dinara shuddered at the feeling of whatever he touched inside of her. Again, it was pain, but not bad enough to cause more than a slight wince. It was fear more than pain, though when suddenly he was up and gone from her, she swayed where she sat, off balance from his sudden departure.
Her eyes fluttered of their own will as she tried to catch herself, and when she managed to open them again, she gave a confused look, gazing around until she saw him again. “Kanan…?”
The page’s voice was soft and confused. “…You moved fast…why…Did I say something wrong?”
She was worried and held her hand out to him, as though she could draw him back.
It was chilly without him beside her.
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Posted: Sat Apr 13, 2019 10:03 pm
Mourite let out a long breath, trying to calm the racing of his heart. He almost didn't respond to the name he'd given her for himself. But then she was wondering if she'd done something wrong, and he turned slowly to face her. Dinara had her hand out to him, wanting him to come back to her.
It would be wrong to do so.
He eyes trained on where her clavical would be under the uniform, and hunger pooled in those marroon eyes. The light within her called to his darkness, and he couldn't tell if he wanted to consume it, or smother it in the dark.
He shook himself, looking up at her face with pointed effort.
"No... no, not you. I did not... mean to do that," he said slowly, not closing the distance between them. He didn't know he could even do that, and he did not trust himself right now not to put his hand back into her chest and pull that small gem of a soul out.
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Posted: Sun Apr 14, 2019 7:46 am
Dinara swallowed and finally lowered her hand, wondering all sorts of things when he didn’t come back over. Finally she just nodded and lowered her head to gaze down at the sparkly pastel of her dress. “Okay…well…I’m sorry anyway…”
She was quiet for a few more moments and finally looked up, almost seeming shy. “What…what did you do anyway? Is…that just a Jedi thing? It felt really…really strange.” And a little wrong. And a little painful but…
It was kind of exciting too. Kind of. Though, she wasn’t really a fan of his reaction…but the expression on his face made hers suddenly turn a bright pink. Was he thinking about her? Might he even kiss her? He looked kind of like the boys in the movies when they saw the girl that they wanted…or maybe more like…the evil prince’s in the movies when they first saw the princess of another kingdom…
Regardless, the page felt her heart pumping just a bit faster.
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Posted: Fri Apr 19, 2019 10:15 pm
He worried his lip before speaking. Mourite dared himself a few steps closer to her, but no further than outside of arms length from her. It took all his control to not just shove his hand back into her chest, and ....
Mourite found himself in front of her, close and looking down at her. A hand trailed over her shoulder and rested on her clavical. He drummed his fingers against her skin softly, still looking at her with that same intensity.
"I... am not sure what I did but I... could reach into you, like this," he said, voice low as he slipped his hand back into her chest. He did it slowly this time, savorying the motion and the pulse of her soul against his fingers.
"This... this is your starseed," he said after a moment, gently closing his fingers around it. He didn't really know what he was doing now, or why he was doing this and not running in the other direction. None of this made any sense, and panic was flaring in his chest. He couldn't seem to care thought, not so close to the prize he wanted so desperiately.
Lips brushed against her ear as he spoke. "This calls to me, Dinara, like a siren. This little thing inside of you calls to me.... and I want it."
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Posted: Sat Apr 20, 2019 7:55 am
Soft purple eyes gazed up at him when he moved close again, and when he touched her shoulder, moved back down to where he had…done whatever before, she felt goosebumps trailing behind his fingers.
And then his hand was back inside of her chest, and she bit back a sharp gasp of pain, of discomfort. Maybe it wasn’t…all pain. Not when his lips were caressing her ear and his voice was so soft. So warm.
“My…starseed? Is that because…I’m a Cosmos Page? There’s…there’s a star inside of me?” She supposed that it made some sense, and for a moment she could only nod, trying to shut out the pain that his actions were causing. “…I mean…it can be yours, Kanan…I…I really like you…”
Dinara let her eyes close and she shivered again, her hand groping around for his other one, hoping that he would hold it. Maybe even stroke the back of it with his thumb like they did in the movies.
“If you wanted it…I mean…I wouldn’t want anyone else to have it…if there’s a star in me, obviously it should go to a Jedi…”
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