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Posted: Wed Dec 12, 2018 10:05 pm
Quote: The Holidays are supposed to be a time for cheer, and yet there's something strangely dismal about tonight. You're out by yourself and you pass by a building completely coated in a strange sheet of ice. When you catch your reflection, you're trapped reliving your loneliest moment. The illusion can last for as long or short a time as you like, but the hollow sensation lingers even after the memory fades. What memory did you find yourself reliving and, now that it's over, what are you going to do to shake this mood?
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Posted: Wed Dec 12, 2018 10:15 pm
Harley was pretty bundled up for the winter wonderland escapade her and Helen were about to embark on. The plan was going to be a stroll through lighted up neighborhoods, Hot cocoa or coffee, hit the cafe's later for snacks or something.
Maybe do some shopping? The 18 year old had a pretty limited allowance though so she couldn't spend TOO much. She should probably look into a job or something. Maybe Helen had an idea? Harley could work the next summer before she started....
and she dreaded the word....
College.
She shivered as she adjusted her scarf around her neck and playing with her gloves. Helen should be on her way soon and she could harass her best friend for heat.
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Posted: Thu Dec 13, 2018 6:21 pm
Helen was running just a wee bit late, through no fault of her own. There'd been an issue with the Uber she'd ordered to pick her up. Apparently he'd slipped on a bit of black ice and then gotten stuck in a snowbank on the side of the road. At the time he should have been arriving she was getting a text telling her he was stuck, and only then did she notice the dot on the app map hadn't been moving. The second Uber had had better luck with the roads and ensured her she wouldn't be being charged for the first failed pick up, which was great, but by her calculations she was running a good ten minutes behind. Groaning in frustration the woman sank down in the passengers seat and hastily shot Harley an explanation and an apology and told her to hang tight and that she'd be there soon. In the meantime she got to listen to her driver singing old Katy Perry, which...actually wasn't that bad. I kissed a girl, and I liked it.
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Posted: Thu Dec 13, 2018 8:02 pm
The text message pinged on her phone, and she studied it before sending one back. She couldn't blame uber drivers for the crazy weather. Destiny City had been experiencing crazy weather all over. She gave a smiley face to her best friend slash kissed while drunk. She wondered if Helen thought about it like she did?
Probably not, after all, they had been drinking.
She kicked her feet, spraying some snow up into the air and shuffled around the spot to keep her warm. In a small walk, she turned the corner to look around and see what was around when her gaze caught in her reflection on the side of the building. It was weird cause it looked like ice over the building, but it wasn't where all the snow fell anyways?
She touched it when something happen and she wasn't at the block anymore. She was at home.
It was her 16th birthday, after they had all discovered they were senshi. Her small group of friends should've been there but....there was no one. It was so vivid, she remembered. She was sitting at the counter of the kitchen, looking at her smart phone. No text messages, no birthday wishes. Not even friends on facebook had posted and she wondered if she messed up her own birthday.
There was no presents from her parents, no cards from her aunts and uncles. It had been the weirdest birthday and she knew only later that it had been one of the toughest years for her parents. They had been throwing their mail away without paying attention, they had been working heavily. Her friends had been busy with school or didn't care. Even Helen had been busy during the day, and had only been able to text the next day to tell her she would make it up.
The absolute lonelieness of that night emptied out her heart and she clutched at her chest, dragging herself to the snowy sidewalk, small tears forming. She had been abandoned, just for a day, an important day. A coming of age day. It hurt to remember that she wasn't able to be with anyone.
It hurt that nobody even tried to be with her.
she kept clutching at her heart, willing the feeling to fade.
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Posted: Sun Dec 16, 2018 12:35 pm
"Thanks again!" Helen called it through the open window of her Uber as they were pulling away from the curb and waved, already heading down the sidewalk to meet Harley around the corner. The driver nodded to her as he passed, chuckling and waving, then drove off down the street. Sneakers slipping a bit n the icy sidewalk Helen jogged to the corner and around it. Harley was standing about half way down, but there was...something wrong, and Helen put on an extra boost of reckless speed. "Harley! What's wrong?" She damn near fell as she reached her, but she managed to regain her balance as she slid to a stop beside the other girl and caught her shoulders. Her initial impulse was to pull her close, but she didn't know what was wrong, and she didn't want to risk hurting her further some how, so Helen hovered anxiously in front of the other girl, crouching down so she could look up into her face. "Harl? Hey, are you okay?" Please be alright.She didn't want to think about what would happen if she wasn't. Harley was...well, she was important. More than just a best friend or a partner. So much more. More than she knew.
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Posted: Sun Dec 16, 2018 8:06 pm
It was like watching the night on repeat, as she stared into the icy wall. She almost didn't register Helen's voice as she called out to her. It wasn't until Helen's face was in front of hers that Harley blinked and the memory faded.
Though the feeling that it brought did not and she could feel some tears slipping down her cheeks. Words almost failed to escape from her and she brought her hands up.
"I...I..." She didn't want Helen to see this, though she trusted her with her life. She just didn't want to be weak in front of the other woman. She was Harley, not some cry baby. Confident, knew who she was.
Did she know who she was? Wasn't she always a bit lonely? Filling the void by going to clubs and parties and pretending to care about people she'd never see again? Was it all because she had one night alone and she couldn't get over it?
But it wasn't always one night.
"I'm fine. I'm fine." She wiped the tears away, and smiled at her best friend, though not fully. "Just had a really weird flashback. I'm chill now, we should do things." Keep her busy, think of other things.
Anything but that night. Her hand took Helen's, wrapping in her own.
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Posted: Wed Dec 19, 2018 9:10 am
There were tears on pale cheeks before Harley seemed to register that she was there and brushed them away. Pulling that familiar steady confidence back around her and smiling a smile that didn't quite reach her eyes. Reassuring g to see, but not fully, and Helen was still worried as her best friend took her hand and she straightened up. "Are you sure you're okay? What kind of flashback was it?" The club? The kiss? No, that was silly, right? If Harley felt that strongly about it, good or bad, she'd say something, right? It nagged at her, gnawwing away at insecurities and hopes and that place in her mind that Harley occupied always. "Do you...do you still want to hang out?" Whatever the flashback had been, if it was that, it'd made the silver haired girl look like she was in pain, and Helen didn't like that at all.
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Posted: Wed Dec 19, 2018 10:32 am
She didn't want to worry her best friend, but it seemed she done so either way. She didn't feel uncomfortable around Helen, and to think the woman thought she might think that, concerned her.
She mulled on telling Helen, before shrugging. They were best friends, sometimes a little closer, if Helen remembered the kiss during the club. She wondered if Helen thought about that too.....
"Of course I wanna hang out." She turned and took her best friends face in her hand, squishing cheeks together. "I had some funky moment looking in that building and just like....I saw this time I was completely alone." She let go of Helen's cheeks.
"I hated it. Hated being alone. Abandoned really....Pretty dramatic." She flipped her hair over her shoulder, "But I'm not alone. You're here with me, and we're gonna go on a date and do s**t. I'm okay Helen...." She smiled at her, "Because you're with me right now...."
A small voice asked that Helen never leave her again, even if she never had.
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Posted: Wed Dec 19, 2018 5:08 pm
Bright eyes widened as cool hands cupped her face, pressing into her cheeks enough to make her lips pucker, and she stared down at Harley, the skin beneath those soft hands heating up from just that simple contact. Ever since they'd kissed on her birthday it seemed like any little thing was enough to send her pulse racing, and it was getting harder and harder to hide the effects Harley had on her. But the flashback, the nature of what the other girl was saying was sobering, and Helen frowned down at her, palms itching to reach out and pull her into a reassuring tug. "D-date?" The word squeaked out, and Helen kicked herself mentally, aware of the color rising up in her face, spreading across the bridge of her nose in a way that had the very faint smattering of light freckles standing out in contrast. "I mean, yeah. Yes. We're going to do s**t. Whatever you wanna do."
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Posted: Thu Dec 20, 2018 9:28 am
It was kind of adorable that Helen, normally so grumpy and frumpy face, would blush looking at her. But she was letting go, cause she wanted to return to Helen's side and wrapping her arm in the older womans.
"Yeah. Date. We're gonna have dinner and what not. But I would like to walk around and see the lights...." She gave Helen her best puppy dog look. Walking down the lighted lanes of other peoples houses were fun.
"Oh...Whatever I wanna do then?" Harley's eyes fluttered at her best friend, as a mischievous smile replaced the pain of loneliness portrayed moments before.
She was always one to bounce back quickly, wasn't she? Helen made it easy to do.
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Posted: Thu Dec 20, 2018 6:51 pm
Date. The word played on repeat through her mind as Harley linked arms with her and started them walking down the frosted sidewalk. Even asking didn't exactly clear up the context with which Harley was using the word. A date could have just been a night out with a friend, which they'd done on many, many occasions in the past, but Harls had never referred to any of those instances as dates. So then what did she mean? If she meant anything at all. Maybe it'd just been the first word that'd come to mind. Maybe it'd been carefully chosen. Maybe that kiss in the club had meant a little more than a bit of drunken exploration. It did to Helen. The overly thoughtful expression lingered for a long moment before she realized Harley was batting long lashes up at her and she blinked, startled, before smiling softly down at the other woman. "Of course."
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Posted: Wed Dec 26, 2018 10:24 am
"Fantastic! I've heard there is a winter carnival in town. We should go eventually." She rested her head on her friends shoulder instead.
"How about today, we go see a movie or something." Anything to take the memory of being alone away.
She refused to look back at the glass ice wall. No. It was time to move forward. She had better things to focus on anyways.
"I'll treat for the movie. Will you get the popcorn-" The girl smiled, looking down at their joined bodies.
yeah, she had things that were better to look forward too.
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Posted: Wed Dec 26, 2018 10:56 am
"I saw some fliers for that earlier this week, I was gunna ask..." The warm smile lingered as she felt Harley's head resting against her shoulder, and she shifted just enough to curl her arm around the smaller woman's back, holding her close. Wandering around a crowded, cold carnival was not something Helen would usually have considered going to, but it did seem like something Harley might like, and even before her birthday she would have gone if Harley had wanted her to. Now? Well. Now there seemed to be more reason to anticipate Harl's potential wants and desires. Or she hoped so, anyways. Hoped she wasn't reading too far into things. "Sure, that sounds great." A movie date, maybe dinner afterwards, and after that? Who knows.
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