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Posted: Sun Nov 19, 2017 1:20 pm
She'd chosen a nice little cafe for their date that day, one that would be just busy enough to keep attention off of them, and give them some privacy. Because she was nervous. Ridiculously nervous. And just a little terrified. She loved Albert, loved him dearly, but she also knew her heart would never be only his. It had taken her a year of talking with her therapist to get to the point where she accepted that side of her, and she wasn't letting all her progress go down the drain.
And the first step was communication.
When she spotted Albert's mop of curls, she waved from the table, trying to not let her nervousness show. She could do this. She just hoped Albert accepted that she was polyamorous, and that wasn't changing.
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Posted: Sun Nov 19, 2017 2:15 pm
Albert had been very careful to avoid anything with pumpkin spice ever since his experiences near Halloween - he was never trusting the stuff again after spending a day as orange as though he'd walked out of a Willy Wonka movie. So instead, after he walked in the café and nodded to Khaida, Albert ordered a white chocolate mocha. Drink in hand, he made his way to her table and smiled at her. "Afternoon, Kaida. You wanted to speak with me?" Hopefully it wasn't about anything bad...
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Posted: Sun Nov 19, 2017 3:18 pm
She nodded, small smile on her face as she toyed with the rim of her mug. "I did. I don't think it's anything bad, and I hope you don't, too. It's just...something that's a part of who I am, and I wanted to talk about it before it might get really awkward or cause tension or anything bad." She took a sip, letting the chocolate and caramel in her mocha soothe her a bit.
"Are you familiar with polyamory? Not polygamy, that's a whole different can of worms. Just polyamory." That was a good question to start with, right? She wasn't entirely sure, since Albert was the first relationship she'd really had since coming to terms with how she loved.
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Posted: Sun Nov 19, 2017 5:26 pm
Albert sat down and sipped his drink thoughtfully as he thought over her words. "Loosely," he admitted, thinking over the word and what it likely meant for both Kaida and himself- while trying very hard not to fall into one of his overdramatic tizzies over what might very well be nothing to worry about. That being said, he did have some idea where this conversation was going, now that Kaida had brought up what she had... an idea - but he wasn't certain, and until he knew what she was asking of him, he'd stay quiet and simply listen.
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Posted: Sun Nov 19, 2017 5:53 pm
Okay. That...made it a little easier. "I am polyamorous. And before you panic, mon minou, it doesn't mean I love you any less. I still love you a great deal, and I don't see that changing any time soon. I also know that you won't be the only person to wiggle into my heart, either. Most of the time, when I fall for someone, it's a crush. Or it's something entirely platonic. But..." She gripped the cup of her caramel mocha as if it helped to anchor her.
"I don't want to cheat. I refuse to cheat. I've been cheated on, and it was one of the worst feelings I've ever experienced. So...I thought it might be best to talk to you well before anyone else wiggled in. I guess my first question would be...if you still wanted to be with me, knowing what you do? If you do...well, we can go from there. Figure out boundaries and ground rules and such. Because if we stay together, you have a say in things, too." She really, really hoped that didn't sound as awkward as she felt.
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Posted: Sun Nov 19, 2017 10:45 pm
"Ah, I see." It was really the only thing that Albert could bring himself to say at first. After all she had both reassured him and... managed to confuse him a bit. Not necessarily because he was unable to understand what she meant, but rather because some of it did hit a bit closer to home than he'd quite realized it could. He sipped his mocha again, aware that it was probably scaring Kaida half to death that he hadn't said much more yet, but he was thinking, and he had to finish his thought process before he dared speak further. There was, however, one reassurance he could get out of the way quickly. "Of course I do, Kaida. Honestly, I may not be old but I'm not so young and hot-blooded as to condemn you for something you can't help. I'll simply have to be satisfied with whatever pieces of your heart you can spare for me."
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Posted: Sun Nov 19, 2017 10:54 pm
Well...that was a better answer than she'd hoped for. She did wince a bit at his last words, however. "I...I suppose this was quite a bit to pile on at once." She was not going to fall back into old thought patterns regarding herself. She wasn't. But jeez, she felt bad for making him feel like it was just pieces of her heart that he got. Even though....maybe that was true? She didn't really feel like she was only giving pieces of her heart to the people she loved, though. "I'm not sure 'pieces' is the right term, especially with how much I love you. Cat sweaters, suits, fuzzy coat, and all."
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Posted: Sun Nov 19, 2017 11:34 pm
"Kaida," Albert began, and then sighed. He set his cup down and reached across the table for her hand, if she was willing to take it. "I did not say what I did to hurt you, and I'm sorry it came across that way." How could he put it without hurting her? Without giving in to that little voice inside him that wanted to be hurt and jealous over something he was lucky to have experienced at all? "All I intended to do was to tell you I've no intention of trying to chain your heart, my dear. You wouldn't be youwith it trapped, and we both know that."
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Posted: Mon Nov 20, 2017 10:17 pm
Kaida took his offered hand once her own cup was set down, squeezing as tightly as she dared without squishing. "I know. I just...I really don't ever want you to feel like I love you any less than someone else. You are...you're amazing. You're smart and witty and charming and awkward and wonderful and frustrating, all at once, and I feel so lucky to have you in my life." She gave him a smile that was cavity-inducing levels of smitten. "Avec toi, je suis moi."
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Posted: Tue Nov 21, 2017 7:50 pm
"It's alright, Kaida," Albert said, clinging to the hand he held in his own as he regarded its owner with a sad, thoughtful expression. "I may not fully understand, my dear, but that is only because I have enough difficulty understanding my own heart, let alone anyone else's. But never think that a lack of understanding means a lack of acceptance. I could never claim to love you, my lady, if I could not accept something that makes you who you are."
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Posted: Wed Nov 22, 2017 11:53 pm
Kaida couldn't help the giggle that escaped her. "Emotions are hard. That's why I have a therapist." Among other reasons. But them talking, right then and there...that was a good start. And the sigh of relief she let out was audible. "I won't lie...I was a little scared. But...one step at a time, hm? And any questions or confusing things, I am happy to answer or clear up to the best of my ability."
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Posted: Thu Nov 23, 2017 1:44 pm
"I'm certain I'll have quite a few for you, once I can think of them," Albert said softly, as he continued sipping his drink. He was nearly halfway finished with it already - and luckily, no sign of illness or unpleasant skin-color changes. It might just be an ordinary beverage, what fortune! "But for now... perhaps it would be best to try to relax a little? You've no doubt worried yourself almost to the point of illness, given how troubled you look when I first came in."
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Posted: Wed Dec 20, 2017 9:09 pm
The pale-haired woman giggled sheepishly. "Guilty as charged. I love you a lot. But yeah...it's time to relax and enjoy ourselves and each other's company!" She leaned over to place a kiss on his nose. "So we got a new sound tech at work. She's absolutely adorable, and half of us dancers have adopted her already."
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Posted: Wed Dec 20, 2017 9:56 pm
At the mention of Kaida's work, Albert felt his face heating up into another blush and he was quick to hide his face behind his coffee as he squeaked. Just the thought of Kaida in that outfit - or... well, mostly lack of one, if he was going to be honest - was enough to turn him as red as an entirely awkward tomato. "Did you, now?" He asked, and hoped he didn't sound quite so... squeaky... as he felt. "She must be quite endearing to have charmed you all so thoroughly."
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