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 Posted: Tue Oct 24, 2017 7:56 pm
Kim was making donuts, or rather had made a nice warm batch of donuts, filled with sweet bean paste. Thanks to Seren she was able to make them and they were not bad at all for a first try at anything not store bought. She carried the plate with the warm pastries down the halls, nearly bouncing and dancing as she made her way back to the room she shared with Terry. Along with the plate was also a nice little message saying that they could move into a house and that Rep would be glad to show them one in their price range. Things were looking up.
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Someone was being a sulky brat in his room. Except by "sulky" it was simply Terry just lying face down on his bed. He was still trying to rationalize to himself that what he'd almost done and gotten himself into was unavoidable but his weapon was not having it. If Kim's perspective was that things were looking up, she was going find Terry looking down. Into a pillow. Not moving save for his slow, deep breaths. He really needed to get his laptop fully runic'd soon. There weren't very many means of distraction that didn't in one way or another send his thoughts to less than pure places.
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Kim danced up to the door and carefully balenced the plate of donuts in one hand as she opened it. She hadn't seen Terry there when she had headed out in the morning, but she was sure he was somewhere doing something not annoying. He was a great guy. She beamed happily as she called out. "Donut delivery!"
Just as she words left her lips though she noticed that Terry was laying on the bed. She frowned a bit and put the plate down moving to perch on the edge of the bed. "Terry? You okay? Feeling sick? Should I call someone?" She really had no idea at all what was going on.
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Normally, Terry would have tried waving Kim off, though by "wave" it would have been more of a limp wrist wriggle at best. But he was feeling too much like a terrible person that he didn't want to be comforted and he hoped he could just pretend he was asleep. Maybe Kim would read the situation as him wanting to be left alone.
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Posted: Tue Oct 24, 2017 7:57 pm
Kim peered down at him, then slid off the bed and knelt beside him. "Terry? If you aren't feeling too happy I have good news. Rep said he would show us some houses. He said we can move into one and it will be just taken out of our pay.." She smiled a little. "Isn't that good news? I made you some donuts. I never made anything before so I am hoping you like them.." She stopped when she saw it wasn't helping. Had she done something to upset him? She didn't think so. With a slight frown she moved to sit on the floor, crossing her legs now and bowing her head. She was baffled.
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The sensation of self-pity morphed and twisted into self-loathing the more Kim spoke. He did, does feel sick. Guilt twisting in his belly as he relived what he had almost done, what he wanted to happen. The concern from Kim and her excitement about their future together was a visceral gut-punch to the Lifer. He turned his head so he could at least look at her. And while he hadn't been crying, he certainly hadn't been able to sleep. He stared at her for what felt a long, long time, but it was only but a few heartbeats before he softly murmured "I don't deserve you."
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Kim blinked in surprise at his words. They were an echo of her own spoken to Seren not that long ago. "No, it's I who doesn't deserve you. I keep thinking you will find someone else more worthy." She gave him a warm smile and leaned over to kiss the corner of his mouth. "So I guess we both have worries." Her eyes sparkled, still not catching that he was feeling bad about something she didn't know. "I was trying hard to find us a good place. I know you are busy with your testing, so I wanted to have it all set up." She smiled and held out the form. "We just need to call Rep for a showing." She then got up and handed over the plate of still warm donuts. "Fresh, but don't anticipate anything amazing." She smiled more, her eyes filled with warmth. "You saved my sanity, I need you to know that."
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He raised an arm, limp as it was, but he raised one all the same, hand gesturing for Kim to join him in the bed. He didn't want to hear any of this but he didn't know how to turn it off. You couldn't just skip through bad moments like you did cut-scenes and awkward writing, so he decided to do the next best thing. Load a New Game file and pretend the old one never happened. "Show me? I'm sure you took selfies. Or was there no dangerous beast nearby to take a selfie with?" he joked, allowing a corner to quirk up in the bare hint of a smile.
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Posted: Tue Oct 24, 2017 8:02 pm
Kim laughed softly and slid into the bed, cuddling up against Terry, her eyes half closed as she made sure the donuts were set somewhere safe. "Mhhh, nah no monsters. Such a dull safe day." She giggled a bit and wriggled close to him. "Plus it was rather insisted that you come along to make some choices too. I did find that they have some nice ones with spare rooms or basements we can make into something nice. Also when we make full hunter, we get to keep the place free and clear."
Kim was glad Terry seemed happier now, or at least not as bad as he was. She wrapped one arm over him, her own smile getting brighter. 'There I saw a bit of a smile, You aren't dying of poisoning at least." Kim then shifted a little. "So a new friend of mine saw you at what she called Dare night."
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"I'm glad I get a say in the place. Honestly I would have gone with whatever you wanted," he admitted. Unfortunately, that passiveness of his was what caused him to get into trouble in the first place, and it was very likely to keep getting him into trouble. "Could we have an attic instead of a basement? I've had enough of being a basement dweller." His monotone had a hint of a lilt. It was a testament to Terry's ability to control his expression that when Kim mentioned Dare night he didn't so much as bat an eye. "Oh? Who's this new friend?"
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Kim thought a moment. "You have a good point. Attic is a better choice! I shall make a note of that." She nodded and smiled brighter. "I need your imput, for things like that. I don't want to move into a place where only one of us will be happy." She grinned a little. "Her name is Seren. She is a friend of Joy's and she just kind of walked past and noticed me making my plushies and came in. She seems nice. She was telling me some of what she saw, though I guess she was occupied by someone that is bigot or something most of the night. Kim shrugged. "I kind of wish I had been there but I guess I missed that memo, it seems like some people had fun, but others got in trouble. Maybe when you feel up to it you will tell me what you did. She says she saw you after and you did training together. She beat you. " Kim laughed a little.
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"It's easy to make me happy," Terry said, "You make me happy." And while he wasn't smiling his eyes were gentle because he meant it. His Sun and her boundless energy brightened his day and he did want to be by her side for as long as she would let him. But a lifetime of biased media and male-dominated content had its ways of skewing his perception and the way he interacted with the world beyond screens.
"Oh, Seren, yes. In my defense, I am Life, she's in Sun. It would be a sad day if the results had been reversed. And I promised to let her play some of the otome games in my laptop. Once I get it runic'd up. I'm scheduled for it now that I passed my promo." He reached to brush a strand of Kim's colored hair, "I told her we could play with her. Don't worry, I'll keep the ero-ge in a separate folder unless she's cool with it." And as the conversation steered towards Dare Night and its activities, Terry thought about what he would have to say about it, "The group was mostly divided. Some were doing cheerleader things, some did break out into a fight, some had fun stripping and changing clothes. I got dared to cuddle with two guys. I should have thought to taken a picture so I could show you but it slipped my mind."
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Posted: Tue Oct 24, 2017 8:04 pm
Kim nodded a little and she shifted again, peering down at Terry before dipping in for another kiss. He was such a bright point in her life. She had never thought she could be so close to someone and feel so wanted. She nuzzled against his neck a moment before giving a little bit of a laugh and peering up at him again, just in time for him to brush her hair back. "Seren is a good person, but hiding the ero games may be good for a first time thing. I don't want her to know tooo much too soon." She grinned and let her eyes half close. "Ahh, cuddling, sounds fun." She gave a little nod. "My boy with two other boys cuddling.." She laughed gently. "As long as no one got too handsy." She arched a brow. "The merch is already mine." She stuck her tongue out. "There are limits in good society and all." She thought back to some of the things she heard of others and rolled her eyes. "Some don't seem to know where boundries lay."
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"Oh? You've claimed me entirely for your own?" The small smile he gave her had the faintest hint of anxiety to it but she was so close to him at that moment he could just write it off as not being fully accustomed to having a girlfriend. And all its physical benefits. "No sharing? Not even a little?" He snuck a kiss in as well, moving from her mouth to her chin to her neck. "And are you all mine?"
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Kim gave a little giggle. "Mmm we are new at this, it is far too early for me to want to share you." She shook her head. "I mean, if I am already not enough for you, doesn't that mean I am not.. good enough?" For a moment there was a queasy feeling in her gut. Was that what he was saying? They had just gotten together and already he was bored with her? Her eyes went a bit wide and she had to fight to keep from cringing in worry. "..." Before she could say more he had kissed her and was moving down her neck, causing her to tilt her head back. "Of course I am all yours. I don't see anyone else who I would want here..."
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Terry was so very tempted to push at it, to maybe in some way sneak in an approval or something that could be construed as permission. But then that hadn't been the problem, had it? That he was in a relationship with this woman and he nearly ruined it because he'd just assumed she was something she apparently wasn't, that was the problem. He had to make it up to her. Even if it didn't happen. Even if nothing went too far. He had to thank Melvin for that next time. Even if the man was probably furious at him, and rightfully so. But that would be for later. He had other pressing matters to deal with. He murmured into her skin, in between kisses and light nips, "I'm sure there are a lot of guys who would love to have you as their koibito. So I'm just going to have to work extra hard to keep you happy with me."
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Posted: Tue Oct 24, 2017 8:08 pm
Kim nearly purred at the attention from Terry, she really was not used to him taking any form of lead, but now that he was she found herself melting and just wanting to see how far he planned to take it. Had she seen into his mind she would likely have been shocked to the core. That he had wanted to be with someone else would have said to her that she was far from what he wanted. To add that it had been Melvin would have to her that she would never be enough. That wasn't there though, he was and she just wrapped her arms around him. "I didn't want the others but I welcome the attention.".
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"Then it's a good thing I'm not the jealous type." And really, he wasn't. Terry had always been more of the resigned to his fate type, easily accepting of his failures and limitations. He let his hands slide underneath the hem of Kim's shirt, moving a little hesitantly in case she wanted him to go slower. His lips kept working at her neck, moving to her collar bone before returning to kiss her mouth. "If you had wanted someone else, I'd just be very sad," he admitted.
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Kim gasped at his hand, her skin colouring more. She didn't stop him though, rather she leaned into his touch whispering. "I admit I am the jealous type. I find sharing a bit hard, particularly my favourite things.". She was nearly purring as she arched against Terry, her mouth seeking his. "I see someone is feeling better." In more ways than one.
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His breath hitched at her touch, still feeling a little bit embarrassed at how easily she could get him going. It wasn't as if he never spent any time becoming familiar with his own body but it felt so different when it was someone else's fingers. That unpredictability and lack of control, damn if it didn't get to him every time. "You always make me feel good, even if I don't openly show it."
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Posted: Tue Oct 24, 2017 8:13 pm
Kim felt her skin heat more and she gave a gentle moan of pleasure before shifting slightly so her hand could trace him gently through the fabric. She was so turned on by just him making the first move. Kim moved her lips to Terry's neck and kissed there before whispering. "I am glad I please you. " She panted softly and sucked on his neck, nipping a bit before licking the n**. "I get worried you don't like me. I don't want to disappoint you." She licked her lips and murmured. "Damn Terry you are so handsome."
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He paused in his kisses to press his forehead gently against Kim's, "You play along that I'm some elitist anime snob who can look down on the tasteless casuals, when you really know me as the terrible weeaboo that I am. And you haven't backed away slowly because you worry you'll get infected." There was a hint of sadness in that last sentence, spoken from experience that had forced him to further hide his emotions and control his reactions.
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Kim burst out laughing. "Infected with what? Terry you are not wrong with your tastes.. I love everything about you. You are fun to be around." She half closed her eyes. "If I ever heard someone say that I would be very mad." She ran her hands through his hair, releasing what she had been holding to do so, before murmuring. "I am the lucky one. You didn't run from me screaming that I was insane, and would get you killed." She tipped her head to the side to kiss him deeply. "You are you... and that is all I ask for."
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It ought to have been guilt that was coursing through Terry, guilt and shame and unworthiness. But try as he might to be that cool, matured man he pretended and presented himself to be, he was still very much that sad, lonely teenager he grew out of only recently. It was desire and lust and utter need to impress himself upon Kim as much as he could. "You promise? No takebacksies," the almost childish fear in his voice was brief before her lips were against his. He twisted his position to have himself in the rare position of top, miraculously not breaking from the kiss more than once. The media made that maneuver look easier said than done.
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Posted: Tue Oct 24, 2017 8:15 pm
Kim was confused by him saying that, and she peered down at him, whispering softly. "Terry it would take a hell of a lot to make me want to ever take that back. I trust you, and you haven't hurt me." When they were flipped over she lay on the bed and looked at him kissing hotly her eyes closed. It had been a little weird to be moved, the bed was not all that huge and he was pretty skilled to make it work. Kim wrapped her arms around Terry and parted her lips, welcoming him eagerly. ---- "Promise me," he insisted in between kisses that were equally desperate and hungry. Perhaps it was unfair of him to use their current position to his advantage but, well, guilt had a way of making a person act unfairly.----- Kim looked even more baffled, and she leaned on his chest, kissing back a moment before, frowning a little. "I promise, but I can't promise I wont be hurt and upset. It all depends on what the situation is. Is that fair?" She was not going to insist that she was not going to be mad at him. Then she frowned more. "Actually, Terry, I don't promise. If I did wouldn't that be like insisting that if you cut my arm off I would have to stay with you?" She tapped his nose. "I promise to talk to you and work out issues, is that cool?" ----- He pulled away but not by too much, trying to give Kim a look that he considered wounded puppy except it probably looked more like a confused turtle. "I wouldn't do-" he cut himself off, because if he had reason to think cutting off her arm would save her, he would certainly force himself to do so. But before he could properly come up with a response, she went on to give him her word of making an effort to work things through. "Cool," he nodded, sounding relieved before continuing to quote a character's catch phrase, "Cool, cool, cool," before resuming their intimacy.
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