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So much has happened since I returned to Gaia. Things were pretty normal when I first came back. Then it really hit the fan again.

I started having to work 50+ hours because so many people were quitting at my work. I'm supposed to be part time. During this my mom's house starts flooding worse than usual every time it rains. It finally gets so bad she just can't stay anymore. Her furniture was getting warped at the bottom, the mold was getting worse, she was washing loads and loads of blankets and towels she was using on the floor. Honestly she should have left a year ago. But she's stubborn. Got to the point she had no choice.

I spent over a month working 50+ hours and helping her move and clean every day. When we were done I rearranged so much at my house to give her an almost empty room to have. No expectation or mention of rent or bill money. Half the closet to herself, a nice dresser. Clean bed. Clean house. Didn't smell like mold. I would've been happy to be here if I was her.

We had tiny issues. It wasn't that bad. I had to rant a little about it but even in my rant I said I was glad she was here. She talks really loud and I had to remind her a few times to keep her voice down. Well one day, I get off work and my bf's mom is in the driveway, so I talk to her. I go inside and look at my phone. I have to keep in on silent at work so I hadn't checked it yet. I had a missed call and 5 texts from my mom. She was mad I didn't text her back. I look at the time frame. 5 minutes. She got mad within 5 minutes. So I texted her back saying you can't get mad at me for not texting back in 5 minutes. She got angrier and said she was coming back to pack her stuff. WHAT??? MOVING OUT OVER THAT?

So I call her, and she yells at me saying how I didn't want her there in the first place and how I always yell at her. I hadn't yelled at her once. I had asked her to lower her voice. That's it. Ironically she was saying I was yelling at her for yelling. xD So it just goes on and on. Me asking her to calm down and her just yelling at me. She gets here and again I try to end the fight. I'm like do you really want to do this? We like you being here, we want you here. Nope. kept packing. I asked her, what are you going to do about your cats? She said kill them. I said WHAT? She said I'm gonna slit their throats. That's when it turned ugly. I told her to get the ******** out. I told her I was done. One of her cats has been in the family 14 years. I love that cat. She finally gets out, us yelling at each other the whole time.

So she's gone, but it's not over. First she harasses me about money I owe her. So I get a cash advance and write a check. My bf drops it off at her friends house. She shows up, gets out of the car, and starts yelling about a bunch of random s**t. My bf leaves and she starts yelling stuff at him down the road, but he couldn't tell what she was yelling about. :/

One day she texts my bf and says, "If Ashley kept me from seeing my dog again she'll be sorry". Her dog which is a pitbull was staying with her friend because my landlord won't allow pitbulls. Well turns out he didn't hear his phone, so my mom thought I somehow talked him into no longer being her friend. Wooooow. Paranoid much?

The new thing, she texts last night and says "If I have to put my dog down because of Ashley she will be more sorry than she's ever been in her life." Again, WHAT THE ******** does this have to do with me?? Apparently her friend has to move and can't take the dog. My aunt told my mom she could keep the dog in the basement. The aunt she's staying with. Apparently that wasn't good enough cause my mom packed all her stuff and left without saying anything and never came back last night. Soooo... I did what exactly? And if my mom puts down her dog, uhm, that's on her? she had a place to take the dog, it just wasn't good enough.

I am one more incident away from getting a restraining order. There's so much that's happened I can't even write it all because it would be a book. And this fight has only been going on about a week.

So for over a month I was pretty scarce cause i was helping my mom every freaking day. And now every day is some kind of drama that has me stressed out and wasting all my time. I just want it all to be over. I have been mentally and physically abused for 29 years and I'm done. I want to have a happy life and I will never do that with her in it.

She actually is hard of hearing, but not bad. She keeps the tv or radio just a little louder than I like but not blaring. You never have to repeat yourself unless she's just distracted. So I know she isn't deaf. She can't play that s**t on me. xD

Yeah, I realized she has to have drama. So I'm just getting her out of my life.

She came to my aunts wedding that she changed her mind about going so many times I forget. She didn't say one thing to me, thankfully. I've been wanting to get rid of the young cat cause it's too much for me to handle. So I got ahold of my gma to see if my mom was even going to want her back, and she wouldn't give an answer. So I invited her over knowing she didn't have a car and my aunt would have to bring her. Really cut down on the tension, let her visit the cats so she'll stop raging over me and I ask her in person. It went well but she wants the cat back so I'm stuck with it still. xD She needs to try harder to find a place. I really don't think my mom will harm the cat other than maybe smaking her when she's insane but what can you do. She's just gonna get another cat if I don't give this one back. Make another cat insane.

After she came over she sent me a text thanking me and saying something about a colonoscopy. I said you're welcome and hope it goes good. She texted me like 2 other times and it wasn't something you like had to reply to so I just didn't. xD Haven't heard another word for like a week, thank goodness. I'm glad she's not like piping angry at me anymore but no, we are not gonna be friends again. I finally hit my limit after 29 years of bs. xD