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 Posted: Thu May 18, 2017 6:05 pm
Tweedle-dee-- back with his brother, Tweedle-dum--
Damn, that's dark.
Get back, get back-- back--
Get back, get back-- back--
[ He can see the sun through the water, and then he can't.]
[ The water feels warm and then it feels cold and then it doesn't. ]
I never wanted you--
[ The sun is so warm here. It's so warm. Here. And then not. ]
[ Not. ]
[ Not. ]
[ He's not. ]
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Posted: Thu May 18, 2017 6:10 pm
Go to the place where time became divided--
[ He remembers. Fingers curled in a shirt. ]
[ He remembers. Sand on his jeans. ]
[ He remembers. Pitching something out to sea. ]
[ Crunch of bone. Get off of him. But that isn't why.]
Get back-- Get back-- back--
[ Why.]
[ Why. ]
[ Why. ]
And weave the threads of time back together again.
[ Threads. Thread. The thread. ]
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Posted: Thu May 18, 2017 6:16 pm
  .ODIN CYPRESS
// He'd been stuck. Trapped. Watching. Begging, even. But Odin knows he ain't him. Not here. He can tell just as he lifts his left hand to see a blackish hues lurking on his fingers. It's spreading. He ain't the same. Not the same as when he asked Serenity for this. So when he moves forwards, lurking back to Julian he curls his hand in swiping it against Julian's neck. Slamming the mage from his sitting position and forcing Julian's back into the sand. And Odin holds Julian there. Sturdy. Heavy. But not violent. Not violent after Julian's positioned how he wants. At first he kneels over the mage, but then, slowly, his head drops until his forehead is pressed against the sand just beside Julian's shoulder.
"You shut the ******** up n' you listen."
// He spoke into the sand just besides the boy.
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Posted: Thu May 18, 2017 6:34 pm
[ Sitting. He's sitting. In the sand. Not in the water. Not on the couch, with the
plate of spaghetti in front of him, some strange lightning bug telling him he has
to eat or die, when they both know that's what he's aiming for. Why he can't
leave. Why he was fished out of the sea looking like a corpse. ]
[ Then warmth of the sun is above him and he's on his back in the sand. Heavy
weight holding him down. Limbs still tingling like they're asleep, he doesn't thrash
like he wants to. Needs to. Not again. Not again. Not again. ]
[ His eyes are glazed. Film of grey over gold. He can't see more than just a
hazy neutral smear, and the weight on him, the sudden strike that drives him
to the sand, is terrifying. There's ink welling to his palms, and one comes up
like it means to push against the body above him, or force black ichor into the face of
the attacker that he can't even see. Probably Hale. Who knows. Maybe another
lackey. Somebody with a bite that blinds. ]
[ But it's not. It's Odin. He'd know the voice anywhere. And so he hesitates.
Tense. Waiting because there's no other option. He can't struggle free. Can't
see to get away even if he could. ]
[ And he knows. Knows who did this. Knows how he got here. ]
"So she's giving you presents now?
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Posted: Thu May 18, 2017 6:38 pm
.ODIN CYPRESS
"I lied n' she ain't never gonna trust me again."
// Odin admits, the fact that he'd already broken all the promises he had been desperately throwing in Serenity's direction.
"N I ain't got time. I dunno if here goes towards my counter. I'm outta time."
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Posted: Thu May 18, 2017 6:44 pm
"Right."
[ He certainly doesn't seem surprised that Odin lied. Why would he be? ]
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Posted: Thu May 18, 2017 6:59 pm
.ODIN CYPRESS
"One in one hundred."
// His hand loosens around Julian's neck.
"She said the meta generated one number between one n' a hundred. N that's how long it'll take to purge me. Won't tell me what number. How many left I got."
// He grabs Julian's arm, sitting himself on his knees as he tries to pull the ink mage closer to him.
"She don't see me makin' it."
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Posted: Thu May 18, 2017 7:04 pm
[ Confusion chases across his features. It doesn't quite get to his eyes, which
are dim. Unfocused. His other arm flails as he's pulled upright. Disoriented. ]
"And then what..? You just.. don't exist?"
[ It sounds like he doesn't quite believe it. But there's a tinge of worry. ]
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Posted: Thu May 18, 2017 7:19 pm
.ODIN CYPRESS
"N' I'm done."
// He states, his arms finally able to wrap around Julian's waist as he tugs the kid in towards his body, his head digging against Julian's hair. His proper hair. Not the short s**t Odin had been having difficulty getting used to. Hugging, almost. Maybe.
"Ain't no fixin' s**t. Ain't sorting mistakes. No second chances."
// He's breathing a bit harder than usual. It's audible.
"N I ******** up."
// He states.
"I ******** up and it's too late. I ain't..."
// His head turns, his cheek being the point-of-contact digging into Julian's hair now.
"I never wanted you."
// That sentence again.
"But I needed you n that's why I found you. My life ain't start until I got you."
// Because all Odin's learned was that he isn't a piece of Lyrca. He's a piece of everyone he's come in contact with. A piece of each person who's been building him up and tearing him down.
"I ain't me without you."
// It's the simplest way for him to put it.
"An' once I'm gone you take care a Lyrca. I'm a piece a her even if she don't know it yet anymore."
// He's clearly getting himself worked up. His mind racing over a million matters he meant to handle before he's gone, now unable to do any.
"I were gonna take you home. I dunno why this ended the way it did. It weren't goin' that way. But I'll find you. No matter what other worlds there are or where we end up I'll find ya. I ain't letting any ghouls touch you in cannon n if they do I ain't leavin'. I ain't. I'll go through it too but I ain't leaving you. I'mma stop it but if I can't I ain't runnin'."
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Posted: Thu May 18, 2017 7:53 pm
[ He isn't sure what this is. Why Odin is doing this. Why Odin does anything, ever. ]
[ He thought he knew, at one point. But that was just Julian fooling himself.
Making things up to keep himself from falling to pieces. Ignoring reality the
way the brain blanks out details to keep things from being to horrible. Too
painful. ]
[ Serenity did this. He knows she did. People think they know, but they don't
really get it. How cruel she is. How horrible. How she hobbles her creations
and expects them to keep walking anyway. This. Putting him here. Making
him hear it again. It's vicious. ]
I never wanted you.
[ He's tense in the cage of the blonde's body, forehead against Odin's shoulder
like it's too heavy for him to lift. He can't see anyway. No reason to look up.
And that's cruel too. Because here Odin goes spilling his guts, and Julian
can't even look at him. ]
[ The azurette is silent. For a long stretch, silent. Like he was for so long.
Just listening. Odin already said he lied. This could be another handful of
them. It probably is. Or maybe this is the thing his mind has manufactured in
its last seconds. Maybe his lungs are full of sea water, and he's still pathetic
enough to cling to something like this as everything shuts down. As he fades. ]
Love of mine. Someday you will die.
But I'll be close behind.
[ He's dead, or he's dying. That's what this is. That's all this is. And maybe
that gives him the permission to be pitiful. ]
[ So he shifts, just slightly. Arms curling, light, but reciprocal, around the larger
frame. Someone not there. Someone he's pretending. Like he always was.
That's all he's ever done, so why not now? Why not at the end? Why not tell
himself that he was something, that he did matter, that Odin gave a damn?
Some people believe in God. Think they're going to be enfolded in some kind
of soothing light. Julian is just sad and insignificant enough that he settles for
being maybe hugged. Told that, after everything, Odin doesn't want him to
suffer. Won't let him suffer alone. ]
[ It's a pretty lie. ]
"Just.. stay here. With me."
[ His voice is small. It doesn't bite. It isn't sharp. No, this isn't anger. It's a different
stage of loss. He's bargaining. ]
"I won't.. snipe at you, about before-- I won't hurt Hale-- I'll.. I can fix it.. I'll fix it.. So just.. Please."
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Posted: Thu May 18, 2017 8:07 pm
.ODIN CYPRESS
// Stay. Stay until the end. Watch it all burn before them. Stay until he's gone. Odin shakes his head.
"Can't."
// He doesn't have to put a second thought into it.
"You gotta go back to yer body in the meta n I gotta go back to Lyrca. We ain't supposed to be split up like this from our real selves."
// Odin glances out at the water. His voice is oddly steady as he goes quiet a moment, a hand raising to knock some of his tears away.
"It's corrupting my brain. Makin' me violent. Fighting for all I'm worth before I go or somethin'."
// He pulls Julian in a little tighter.
"If I ain't go back to her it'll get me here too."
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Posted: Thu May 18, 2017 8:18 pm
[ It can never be easy. That's the rule. His face is against Odin's shoulder, and
his eyes are wet, but there's no change in his breathing. No sobbing. Julian has
known how to cry silently for a long time. ]
"I.. can't go back there. He's not me anymore."
[ Hasn't been since Serenity split them. ]
"She always says there are no happy endings. And she's right.
Because she makes it that way. This is as close as we get, isn't it?"
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Posted: Thu May 18, 2017 8:24 pm
.ODIN CYPRESS
"That is still you. You needa watch over Lyrca for me. It ain't healthy bein' split"
// He tries to explain.
"N she ain't ruin nothing. I did."
// He can't put the blame on Serenity for this. Not this tme.
"I ruined our happy ending."
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Posted: Thu May 18, 2017 8:35 pm
[ It isn't healthy. Julian actually lets out a helpless little laugh, the sound jarred
out of him by how prim that is. As if the azurette was ever healthy to begin with.
Some headcase rape victim with no sense of self preservation until he was al-
ready cracked beyond repair. But being separate from his body-- that's the un-
healthy part. ]
"..I wasted a lot of time, saying nothing. Maybe if I hadn't.."
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Posted: Thu May 18, 2017 8:41 pm
.ODIN CYPRESS
// Odin didn't laugh along, still too busy hiding tears. Holding them back.
"Nah. Ain't yer fault. Don't even go there."
// Odin gasps in an inhale he couldn't stop. His shaky sob coming through.
"You ain't alone once you get back there."
// He forces out.
"Might not even remember this."
// Since Serenity had told Odin a thousand times before that he was too late. His Julian drowned in the ocean. That Zach was the one who helped him grow a backbone and become a person. Julian might be a mess, but all Odin's been told was that Julian will get better once he finally lets him go. Now Odin doesn't have the choice to be selfish anymore.
"S-so do it for me."
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