All his life he had strived to be perfect for his mother. He had wanted her approval and more importantly her love. When she just used him and hurt him he had closed himself off until he realized that his father had actually wanted him or would have wanted him. The affection from at least one of his parents was helping xevikan bloom into his own self. So he wasn't sure on this decision. A child was a big step and he wasn't sure he was fatherhood material. Then again who knows if that was real the case or something his mother had instilled in him. However he felt like he needed a better reason than just " well I want to prove my mother wrong".
..which was not his reason at all.
He wanted a child because he wanted to prove that he could take care of another being. He wanted the love and support a child would give and he wanted a family. One that he knew was his that would expect him yes to be supportive and always there for him but at the same time himself. Someone who would maybe show him how a child was supposed to grow up. Of course he meant to wait until he found a significant other but he suppose he had caught the baby fever. With the spring time there seemed to be babies everywhere. Of course it wasn't guaranteed that this mixer thing would work for him but at least he tried and would get a sense of what to expect in the future,
