10-29-16

Dear Diary,

It's Dria again. It's amazing, how much a brother's feelings can change towards his sister, in so short of a time. The other day, it seemed we were twins once more; the time we had lost together, no longer mattered. It was like old times- if it could be, what with my missing memories. Our bond was stronger than ever. The next night, some shadow of a nightmare, with his powered up form's face chased me across two miles, until I reached home. Scared out of mind, it nearly broke our twin bond. I am still reeling from it. More on that later. It was no surprise when the night after that, Drew, excited about his day, remembered an out of country we'd been on before the memory loss incident and excitedly asked if I remembered it. Remember it? How could I? How could he say that? When I had..? These last few had been so overwhelming already and that nightmare shadow..? I couldn't handle it. I fled the house, and just kept running, until I could run no more, and just sat on the curb and sobbed. Someone found me and we talked. I went home, feeling better, but not completely. Drew felt guilty about what he said, and he apologized, but he later was very upset with me for running off. I could have been hurt or killed or taken by the Negaverse, the Corrupted Sailors, a Corrupted Cat, or the DMS. He calmed down a bit and then told me, he just had been very worried about me. He had lost me once for four years, he didn't want to lose me again, especially since a good part of me was already lost already. We were twins, and he would always love me no matter what. Today I am home from the hospital with a broken arm- the school bus crashed. Drew is again a little ticked - since I powered up with a broken arm to be able to save lives by removing major pieces of vehicles, so that medical workers could get to them. However, he calmed again, and said that he was actually proud of me for it, that I was a true Sailor Scout at heart. "Now rest that arm. You'll be needed for battle soon enough." He grinned. I grinned back. Tomorrow I return to school, still with a broken arm. That is not what worries me. The nightmare shadow, that had the face of Sailor Etamin - the powered up form of Drew, my twin brother, that hunted me on a dark night - that is what worries me most. What does it mean? What is my subconscious trying to tell me? I have a twin bond with him and yet a nightmare of his powered up form. What that all it was? A nightmare from the imaginations the darkest recesses of my mind? Or is my subconscious trying to warn me? Warn me of what? Did Drew hurt me before I can remember, or did Sailor Etamin?

Fearfully Questioning,
Dria