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He hadn't meant for things to escalate in such a fashion, but as the door slammed announcing his brother leaving the house Ashta had to fight the urge to punch something.

If you are so worried about her welfare why don't YOU marry her!?

His brothers words rang in his mind, it had pierced his heart. He couldn't admit to his younger brother that he was in love with his fiance, not when Kyruie was finally showing signs of shaking his drug habit. A woman would do him good, keep him on the straight and narrow and regardless of what Ashta thought soon Kyruie would be stronger than he was all the intensive training was paying off. Keeping his brother from going to visit their 'charge' as well from having no time to sneak off to do bad things.

Rubbing his face he looked up at the ceiling before sighing. Ashta was doing his best to keep himself in check when around Sriina. But seeing her so often...having to push that fake smile around their parents while with Kyruie frustrated him. Ashta had a hunch that his brother was more into men than women and perhaps he felt that such tastes had been influenced by his slave master...so he had counted this arranged marriage like a blessing in disguise. Only to find out it was torture for everyone involved. Well everyone besides the oblivious parents.

Alone in the house he grabbed his cloak and holstered his swords before leaving the house. Without realizing where his feet were taking him he found himself in front of Sriina's house, he had already knocked on the door before he could figure out a reason for why he had come here.

Standing outside he was still wondering if there was still a chance for him to leave..or hope that no one was home the door was opened and he was standing there staring at Sriina. He marveled a moment at how pretty she was, and how even as kids she had always been cute but time had really changed her. Though he supposed idly that time had changed everyone rather drastically.

"Ah..sorry to bother you like this.." Ashta muttered looking down at the ground so he wasn't just staring at her. "Do you mind if I come in?" He prompted awkwardly, why was he here? Was he instinctively following his brothers words? Checking up on his brothers fiance? With ulterior motives? No no...he was just here to check on her.

Wait..what ulterior motives? His face flushed slightly as he realized his train of thought had slipped into cheating territory. Ah no...that wasn't right.

There was that moment of pause, he had asked if he could come inside and she was allowing him to. So why was he lingering in the door way? Taking perhaps too many extra seconds he then strode inside, this was the first time he had been in her house and he gave a glance around before noting the book.

"Ah..I am sorry am I interrupting you?" He inquired feeling stupidier as the minutes past on. He wasn't a pubescent kid,but a adult he should be able to have a conversation with Sriina right?

"I..well I am not sure..Sriina, do you think ..how I am teaching Kyruie is right? I mean..." a hand came up to his face as if he now cursed himself for saying anything at all.

Rubbing the back of his neck he watched her place the book down he noted a small chance in her tone. He really was stupid wasn't he? Bringing up his brother which was obviously a ..touchy subject to everyone as a whole.

"I'm..sorry...about..everything." Ashta manages as he moves to sit down, "I know my brother..is a pain..distant..." Trailing off he wasn't entirely sure why he brought his brother up again. What was he trying to do? Convince himself that Sriina was a good match for his brother? Remind himself that he wasn't allowed to have feelings for her?

"Tell me...honestly...you don't love my brother do you?" Ashta murmured looking to the floor as he couldn't imagine the expression she would have on her face with this question.

Watching her he felt his hands twist around each other, why did he feel so relieved to hear her say that? That she didn't love him. But then..this was a marriage of convenience then? HIs parents wanting to have Kyruie settle down and move on from his terrible past...he should be routing for this. He too wanted his brother to move on with his life...so why did he find the words so bitter in his mouth?

"ah.."

That was his response...he couldn't think of anything else to say and he was starting to have doubts about why he came here. What was his purpose? Was he so spurned on by his brothers exclamation he had to come and reaffirm his feelings? Perhaps..and he wasn't liking what he realized. He was angry at his brother because he was getting what he could not...

Standing up he moved back towards Sriina, it was strange to be faceing her like this, swallowing he reached a hand up to cup her cheek. His fingers were rough from training and strong but her held her very gently.

"Sriina..if things were different..maybe..."

Ashta's brain screamed at him, told him that this was a bad idea and he should remove his hand from her skin immediately. If he didn't want to get hurt...to hurt her he needed to walk away and NOW. Yes his brain and his body acted out of unison. Instead of moving his hand away he found himself staring into her golden eyes before he leaned over and lightly placed a kiss on her lips.

The kiss sealed his feelings for her. His resolve. He loved Sriina he didn't care that she was betrothed to his brother in fact it spurned him to want to cherish her move in his brothers stead. Kyruie didn't love her, but he could.

Moving his head back slightly after kissing her, he found himself wanting more. His free hand came to seek out one of her own, as if his fingers were hoping to intertwine with hers. Leaning in he went for a second kiss, this one less tenative but he was ready for her to push him away.

Ashta was expecting her to shy away to push him away but he was surprised to find her kissing him back, closing the gap. It was so passionate and he knew it was wrong so why did it feel right?

Moving his hands to cup the back of her head he returned the kiss wanting to kiss every part of her body, wanting to...

Well perhaps not in the foyer or her house..

Separating from the kiss, as if coming up for air he gave her a look suggesting more than just kissing. "Lead on.."

It was quite an experience, he had loved every moment of it, the intensity the way they twined their bodies together. Though it had felt like it lasted for quite a while they were done. He had an arm wrapped around her shoulders bringing her in closer (if that was even possible) as he leaned to kiss her temple.

"Hmm?" He inquired sleepily as she spoke his name, right now he wasn't worrying about anything. His mind was calm his body content he was just so happy that Sriina felt the same way he did that little things like the fact he just slept with his brothers fiance seemed minuscule. Ah...why did he have to let that niggling thought into his brain?

Looking down at her his face flushed. He literally just betrayed his brother by sleeping with his fiance. Regardless of the fact that neither of them loved each other...it was for the good of his brother that this union was made in the first place. With a free hand he covered his face and leaned his head back against the pillow. What had he done?

"I...I.." He didn't even know what to say, it was too soon to ruin this moment.