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I have huge depression like I bitterly think every night about ending my life huge depression. And then my dad just this year get's diagnosed with Alzheimer's (Losing of memory) now on top of that all my older brothers and sisters (3 brothers, and three sisters) are all finally visiting us constantly which just makes dad worse with Alzheimer's as he isn't use to it all. And with that all to help him cope with it the VA (My dad was in Vietnam (yes he's that old I'm only 23 and the baby of his kids.) gives my dad about only 12 new pills to a man who hates pills and has about 12 already.

Now I don't know if you all know this but the worse thing to do with people with Alzheimer's is argue with the person (makes them get more memory loss) and lots of my older siblings have this one issue of thinking it's their way or highway which causes my dad and them to constantly argue. Worse then that all my older siblings don't listen to me minus Tina but Tina only comes by with her job that once a blue moon joke here so I never get to talk to her.

Meanwhile her Twin Claudia is only useful for taking over the TV, and eating junk foods, and the whole entire fridge of food about each one of her visits, and dad with Alzheimer's does the same for eating part so they fight over the TV usage when Claudia is here, and Claudia annoys us both over food.

Jim my older brother who helped raise me along with mom and dad and John as a younger toddler and baby only before he left for college thinks he needs to control all of the things dad does which makes him angry.

John is Huge Depression himself and just lost his wife finding out she was a gold digger last year and most of his money and possessions, now he is remarried and adopted two kids doing fine.

But all in all I am here 24/7 with dad and all these things don't help. (To be continued family showed up...)

Sounds super rough. Have you thought about getting in home health aid for your dad? I understand the Va is crap but talking to a social worker would be a good idea. A healthy environment is best to to help him retain his abilities. Seems your siblings are not helping him at all. That's sad and I do feel for you. The stress and depression thing is very hard to deal with. I have my own home life stuffs so I feel ya. Hang in there.

Oh yeah having crappy living situation will TOTALLY make it all worse. Glad you might be getting out. I'm in a similar kind deal. I need to leave but I need help to do so. And yeah... None of that so it totally sucks.

Keep on trucking ahead. It will work out. And keep being "insane" The best of us are anyway wink

I am also a Slytherin so the sunny outlook of mine is going to shock people of youtube when I pop out with my Slytherin tie on in the far future when life gets better for me hopefully. xd