So this forum is for venting right. Well good. Because well My girlfriend is asleep and I need help and I know some of you are online at least. So here we go.
If you guys don't want this dramatic crap on this page, I'll delete it. I just need assistance and this is the only other place I can really go to right now. If you don't want to deal with my teenage whining and talk about puberty and the hell that is my identity, I suggest you leave now. Look, I'm getting really desperate. Nobody on Tumblr is helping me and everyone I know that could help are asleep. So I really hope that one of you can help me, even if you don't fully understand what I'm going through,
So, if you guys already don't know. I'm probably the youngest, or at least, one of the youngest, in this guild/group. I'm 14. Feel free to comment on that if you want. I know I'm underage. I get it a lot. Well, I go through the wondrous hell we all call puberty and hormones. And guess what hormones cause. My sexual identity issues. For the past year, I was pretty confident in who I was. If you don't know, I fully believe that I'm a lesbian. I know it's a young age to discover it and all, but I disagree((as my girlfriend sort of knew since kindergarten that she liked girls)). I..sort of kinda knew, barely. In the fifth and fourth grade I just kept saying that I wouldn't marry ever because I didn't want to be with boys, and I'm pretty sure the only crushes I had only lasted to a week at the most. Sixth grade was weird cos of these two boys that were nice and all but..ugh. I didn't learn about sexuality until 6th tho, so that might explain those. Anyways, I've been pretty confident. I was super happy as who I was. Until recently. I'm going to tone it down, but let's just say that I have a tumblr and that I decided to finally block every single sexbot that followed me on there for some reason((because why are they following a minor((aka me))??? isn't that illegal???)) and because I have to open the account page to block them, I saw some s**t I wish to unsee. Really gross nasty s**t. Stuff that seemed to have activated the wondrous hell that are hormones, that have now made my mind a living battle ground. I don't know what I am now, simple I want to be what I think I am, which is a lesbian, But my mind, who apparently hates me and my existence, wishes me to be either bisexual, or heterosexual((Please note, if all comes to worse, I will settle for bisexual, but I'd much rather be only attracted to girls. I am not biphobic, I just prefer who I label myself as)). Because you know, "You liking girls could've been a phase" Fun. Every website I pulled up to try to find a solution keeps saying it's either a phase, or that even if you have homosexual thoughts, you could still be straight.
So I'm on the verge of having a bloody anxiety attack because I don't want to be something that ends with my girlfriend and I having to break up. But I cannot fantasize about her anymore and if I can I get weird thoughts. Guys, I really just want to be gay. I know it isn't a choice. But choosing and wanting are two different things, if you don't know. Wanting is desiring something Choosing is picking something, I don't want to suddenly choose my sexuality. I want to be who I think I am. But I don't know why I keep having these thoughts. So if any of you can help me, it'd be really appreciated. I'm being serious. I will be forever grateful for you if you at least reply with something helpful.
I'm honestly thinking of just getting a therapist, but I don't even know if that will help.
Anyways, just please help me. I know some of you are much older than me and probably are much better at this than I am and I just really need assistance before I do something I regret.
Thank you for your assistance, if you do.
Posted: Sun Aug 14, 2016 11:31 pm
lynxbiko
So this forum is for venting right. Well good. Because well My girlfriend is asleep and I need help and I know some of you are online at least. So here we go.
If you guys don't want this dramatic crap on this page, I'll delete it. I just need assistance and this is the only other place I can really go to right now. If you don't want to deal with my teenage whining and talk about puberty and the hell that is my identity, I suggest you leave now. Look, I'm getting really desperate. Nobody on Tumblr is helping me and everyone I know that could help are asleep. So I really hope that one of you can help me, even if you don't fully understand what I'm going through,
So, if you guys already don't know. I'm probably the youngest, or at least, one of the youngest, in this guild/group. I'm 14. Feel free to comment on that if you want. I know I'm underage. I get it a lot. Well, I go through the wondrous hell we all call puberty and hormones. And guess what hormones cause. My sexual identity issues. For the past year, I was pretty confident in who I was. If you don't know, I fully believe that I'm a lesbian. I know it's a young age to discover it and all, but I disagree((as my girlfriend sort of knew since kindergarten that she liked girls)). I..sort of kinda knew, barely. In the fifth and fourth grade I just kept saying that I wouldn't marry ever because I didn't want to be with boys, and I'm pretty sure the only crushes I had only lasted to a week at the most. Sixth grade was weird cos of these two boys that were nice and all but..ugh. I didn't learn about sexuality until 6th tho, so that might explain those. Anyways, I've been pretty confident. I was super happy as who I was. Until recently. I'm going to tone it down, but let's just say that I have a tumblr and that I decided to finally block every single sexbot that followed me on there for some reason((because why are they following a minor((aka me))??? isn't that illegal???)) and because I have to open the account page to block them, I saw some s**t I wish to unsee. Really gross nasty s**t. Stuff that seemed to have activated the wondrous hell that are hormones, that have now made my mind a living battle ground. I don't know what I am now, simple I want to be what I think I am, which is a lesbian, But my mind, who apparently hates me and my existence, wishes me to be either bisexual, or heterosexual((Please note, if all comes to worse, I will settle for bisexual, but I'd much rather be only attracted to girls. I am not biphobic, I just prefer who I label myself as)). Because you know, "You liking girls could've been a phase" Fun. Every website I pulled up to try to find a solution keeps saying it's either a phase, or that even if you have homosexual thoughts, you could still be straight.
So I'm on the verge of having a bloody anxiety attack because I don't want to be something that ends with my girlfriend and I having to break up. But I cannot fantasize about her anymore and if I can I get weird thoughts. Guys, I really just want to be gay. I know it isn't a choice. But choosing and wanting are two different things, if you don't know. Wanting is desiring something Choosing is picking something, I don't want to suddenly choose my sexuality. I want to be who I think I am. But I don't know why I keep having these thoughts. So if any of you can help me, it'd be really appreciated. I'm being serious. I will be forever grateful for you if you at least reply with something helpful.
I'm honestly thinking of just getting a therapist, but I don't even know if that will help.
Anyways, just please help me. I know some of you are much older than me and probably are much better at this than I am and I just really need assistance before I do something I regret.
Thank you for your assistance, if you do.
~pats shoulder~ Sweetheart this is normal. Your story sounds pretty close to my own story tbh. I figured out who i was when i was 15 which is a full blown lesbian. I had a boyfriend at 14 but never had sex cause ew thus lead to us breaking up and then i got my first real kiss from a girl and it made sense..
now seeing things like that on the internet might spark your hormones .. and thats normal doesnt matter it its straight, gay, or lesbian.. the action will cause a stir. (not judging but im hoping it wasnt animals)
im here to talk with yea hon i'll write more but ill let that process first
So this forum is for venting right. Well good. Because well My girlfriend is asleep and I need help and I know some of you are online at least. So here we go.
If you guys don't want this dramatic crap on this page, I'll delete it. I just need assistance and this is the only other place I can really go to right now. If you don't want to deal with my teenage whining and talk about puberty and the hell that is my identity, I suggest you leave now. Look, I'm getting really desperate. Nobody on Tumblr is helping me and everyone I know that could help are asleep. So I really hope that one of you can help me, even if you don't fully understand what I'm going through,
So, if you guys already don't know. I'm probably the youngest, or at least, one of the youngest, in this guild/group. I'm 14. Feel free to comment on that if you want. I know I'm underage. I get it a lot. Well, I go through the wondrous hell we all call puberty and hormones. And guess what hormones cause. My sexual identity issues. For the past year, I was pretty confident in who I was. If you don't know, I fully believe that I'm a lesbian. I know it's a young age to discover it and all, but I disagree((as my girlfriend sort of knew since kindergarten that she liked girls)). I..sort of kinda knew, barely. In the fifth and fourth grade I just kept saying that I wouldn't marry ever because I didn't want to be with boys, and I'm pretty sure the only crushes I had only lasted to a week at the most. Sixth grade was weird cos of these two boys that were nice and all but..ugh. I didn't learn about sexuality until 6th tho, so that might explain those. Anyways, I've been pretty confident. I was super happy as who I was. Until recently. I'm going to tone it down, but let's just say that I have a tumblr and that I decided to finally block every single sexbot that followed me on there for some reason((because why are they following a minor((aka me))??? isn't that illegal???)) and because I have to open the account page to block them, I saw some s**t I wish to unsee. Really gross nasty s**t. Stuff that seemed to have activated the wondrous hell that are hormones, that have now made my mind a living battle ground. I don't know what I am now, simple I want to be what I think I am, which is a lesbian, But my mind, who apparently hates me and my existence, wishes me to be either bisexual, or heterosexual((Please note, if all comes to worse, I will settle for bisexual, but I'd much rather be only attracted to girls. I am not biphobic, I just prefer who I label myself as)). Because you know, "You liking girls could've been a phase" Fun. Every website I pulled up to try to find a solution keeps saying it's either a phase, or that even if you have homosexual thoughts, you could still be straight.
So I'm on the verge of having a bloody anxiety attack because I don't want to be something that ends with my girlfriend and I having to break up. But I cannot fantasize about her anymore and if I can I get weird thoughts. Guys, I really just want to be gay. I know it isn't a choice. But choosing and wanting are two different things, if you don't know. Wanting is desiring something Choosing is picking something, I don't want to suddenly choose my sexuality. I want to be who I think I am. But I don't know why I keep having these thoughts. So if any of you can help me, it'd be really appreciated. I'm being serious. I will be forever grateful for you if you at least reply with something helpful.
I'm honestly thinking of just getting a therapist, but I don't even know if that will help.
Anyways, just please help me. I know some of you are much older than me and probably are much better at this than I am and I just really need assistance before I do something I regret.
Thank you for your assistance, if you do.
Ok dear calm down. It's perfectly ok to be questioning yourself especially at your age. Yes it could be hormones or it could just be a random thing. You don't need to force yourself into one particular label. It's normal to wonder and try things. Personally I'm a lesbian but when I was your age and up to 16 I had 2 boyfriends and yeah I tried it. That solidified me finding out why yes I'm gay very gay. No shame in it. Any basically every lesbian ive ever know has has some kind of effect from seeing sexual images straight or not it just happens. Sure in my case i'd be like dude I wish i had the donger and was doing whatever to the lady lol but again no shame. Don't worry about what you are or what you think you should be.And if your really worried about it effecting your relationship.Talk to your gf. If you guys are in love and everything is good.No need to lose her just because a normal reaction happened.
Posted: Mon Aug 15, 2016 12:40 am
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Posted: Mon Aug 15, 2016 4:53 pm
Right...well I don't know. It just strikes me as odd as to why I'm feeling like this when for the past year and a half i've had crushes on girls and had the balls to ask one of them out((Granted, we're long distance, so it was a bit easier lmao)) But i haven't been kissed by ANYONE yet, and can't until my girlfriend and I meet up, soooo yeah. Long distance struggles. But I do know that I'm not uncomfortable at the idea of being with her, so that's always good.
I'm probably fine, but I get really paranoid easily, and last night was just really bad and I couldnt help but freak out.
Anyways, I can definitely say that this did help me, thank you. I honestly was just having an anxiety attack last night, and I'm still a little unsure, but I'm pretty positive that I am who I think I am.
But yeah I don't listen to Tumblr anyways guys don't worry. I may not have a lot of common sense, but I have enough to know that, lmao.
Right...well I don't know. It just strikes me as odd as to why I'm feeling like this when for the past year and a half i've had crushes on girls and had the balls to ask one of them out((Granted, we're long distance, so it was a bit easier lmao)) But i haven't been kissed by ANYONE yet, and can't until my girlfriend and I meet up, soooo yeah. Long distance struggles. But I do know that I'm not uncomfortable at the idea of being with her, so that's always good.
I'm probably fine, but I get really paranoid easily, and last night was just really bad and I couldnt help but freak out.
Anyways, I can definitely say that this did help me, thank you. I honestly was just having an anxiety attack last night, and I'm still a little unsure, but I'm pretty positive that I am who I think I am.
But yeah I don't listen to Tumblr anyways guys don't worry. I may not have a lot of common sense, but I have enough to know that, lmao.
But thanks guys, really.
XD im glad you dont listen to tumblr! and it will all be fine =3 if you ever and i mean EVER need to talk about whats going on I (we) will be here :3 we've been there doesnt matter the subject... if you dont want it out in the open you can always PM and ill never breathe a word about it to anyone dont worry kiddo we got your back <3
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