January 14, 2016
Dear Senshi Journal,
This is Etamin again. Not a lot of battles lately. Not unless you count the major battle my family has been battling for three years- coming to terms, with Dria's disappearance. In fact we have different battles that we are battling for different reasons. For me, of course, I want to see her again, I'd do just about anything. Yet, my battle is just a battle for answers, is she alive, and okay? Is she dead and gone? Whatever happened?
Mom is learning to accept that Dria is not coming back no matter what she does. She also must learn that we all must deal with the grief in our own ways. My way was to lose my mind to the dark path, until I realized that finding the answers would make me sane; at least for a while.
Dad. I haven't quite figured out his battle. He seems to have accepted that Dria is dead. He also seems to understand that Mom needs church and I need answers, and that we all need family. That's why he and Mom have decided to bring Dani home and to invite Aunt Claudia to live with us for some time.
Dani. Danielle , our my younger sister, was nine years old when Dria went missing. Dria and I were eleven. When I later lost my mind in grief, Dani was sent to live with Aunt Claudia and has lived with her for the last three years. Dani, I remember she used to like big cats, and playing board games. She was sweet. I wonder what she is is like now.
Dad brings sad news about her. She needs healing as well. Apparently, Aunt Claudia didn't tell her the whole story, and she doesn't remember much either. What she knows is this: three years ago, Dria pulled some crazy stunt on an airplane, and I flipped out. Supposedly this is why Dani was sent to live with Aunt Claudia, and she views it as a punishment. Oh Dani; how wrong you are. She blames us for her losing time with our parents. We all need healing. On the other side of my life Deme is a great friend. I hope I can keep him in the D Circle when Dani comes, if there would even be one. Maybe we will even find Dria, and there a 4D Circle - 4D, that's good. Sigh. I'm hoping to meet other good friends too. Sailor Osiris and Sailor Etamin should be a team.. I should bring that up. Which speaking of the war, I think that the Order Side needs a leader and bad. Not saying who it should be. I'm definitely not qualified, and I'm really not sure who is, being still rather new and all. Well maybe not, it was June of last year when my Awakening took place, July, August, September, October, November, December, Janurary - wow, has it been seven months already?
Hmm I bet it would have been awesome if Dria could have been a Sailor Scout with me. Sigh. Well, Dani might become one; after she gets over her anger that is. I've heard it mentioned that Scouts can be younger than 14, they are just a different kind of Scout, a "Chibi" Sailor Scout. It would be awesome, if we could go patroling together, older brother showing his younger sister...
But what would her Sphere be? Dolls? Something no one guess - Ice or Nutrons? Or something close to her, Jaguars? I don't know. Maybe something Egyptian! Then she, Deme and I would really make a good team. Well here's to that....

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