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 Posted: Mon Aug 24, 2015 5:02 pm
Amytis was lost and alone, and it was...hard to talk about it with people. But she knew she needed to - feeling miserable wasn't getting her anywhere, even if it felt like all she was capable of doing.
But she knew there were other people she could talk to - Damocles had spoken of a Captain named Fangite, whose lover was lost to the Rift, and well...she sort of hoped he might understand what she was going through. Even though Chariklo was still alive, Arilee was gone, and it wasn't like they could be together when they were on opposite sides.
She had sent a message through Damocles, asked Fangite to meet her on the roof of an apartment complex not far from the one where she used to live. The Senshi of Karma waited there, fidgeting nervously.
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Posted: Mon Aug 24, 2015 9:42 pm
Fangite didn't think he owed Damocles anything. The Dark Mirror wasn't exactly his friend. He was Gabriel's. Des only knew him in passing. But Damocles had insisted, urged, begged and pleased for Fangite to listen and at least consider meeting with the Super.
Given his ******** up with Gabriel? Just maybe he owed Damocles that much.
So he went, choosing to leave Airi to his own devices. He did not care if the youma stayed home, roamed the streets, or ventured back to the rift. The Captain landed quietly. He was quiet happy with how much of himself was hidden by his uniform. Hell, even his glasses helped to block the bags under his eyes. Though he still probably looked just as miserable as he felt, despite everything.
"You're Amytis I gather.."
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Posted: Mon Aug 24, 2015 10:02 pm
Amytis quailed a little, because this Captain was...well, with his face almost completely covered, and so much of him hidden, hesort of intimidated her. But she pushed a smile onto her face, even though she was wringing her overlay between her hands with obvious nerves.
"Um, yes, I am. And you...must be Fangite, then." She was silent, for a long moment, but oh, she shouldn't waste his time. "I, um, heard that you...lost someone. Recently. Someone close to you. I..." She swallowed.
"I know it's not the same, but my fiancee purified and I was wondering if. I don't know. Maybe we could talk."
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Posted: Mon Aug 24, 2015 10:32 pm
Oh. So this was why Damocles wouldn't tell him what the topic was about. Fangite sighed quietly. He should have realized it sooner.
She was nervous, he noted. But she would have little reason to worry. Fangite didn't have the energy or drive to potentially pull anything off tonight. It was just suppose to be a talk after all. "I would appreciate it if you kept that to yourself, and didn't go about telling others of the things I have lost." He said as he pushed the hood off his head. The face mask would stay till he got tired of it. "It's not exactly But, yes. I have lost someone. This isn't the first time either..." Again, something he didn't like talking about. He didn't even like thinking about it.
"My... someone, as you so put it, was encased in crystal. Somewhere in the rift. He'd been helping me with acquiring a youma." By helping, Fangite most likely meant spearheading the whole thing instead of letting the Captain just go at it. But it was that mentality that had landed Natron in his.. predicament. "He is as good as, if not, dead." Amytis had gotten off lucky. "Your situation, is similar to a friend of mine. Though both occasions are also different."
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Posted: Mon Aug 24, 2015 11:27 pm
Amytis nodded, rapidly, and then realized that her nerves had to be on full display and so she took a long breath and let go of her overlay, doing everything she could to calm herself down.
"I won't," she said, her voice soft. "I don't even...I mean, it's hard enough..." She stopped and stared at the ground, feeling guilty. What right was it of hers to make him talk about this? He had to be hurting, and here she was, dredging ti all up so she could dump her pain on him too.
"I'm sorry," she said softly. "I'm sorry you lost him like that. It's...it's definitely not the same at all. I mean, I can...go to Chariklo, I just...have to find out how to purify." She bit the inside of her cheek. "I guess. But you...I'm so, so sorry, I don't know what I'd do if she were just gone."
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Posted: Tue Aug 25, 2015 1:33 pm
"It's not worth it." Fangite said suddenly. "Purifying, I mean. It's not worth it. You may think it is, but trust me. It's not." Fangite seemed to stare past her, at nothing.
"I don't know how to fully explain it, and honestly, I hate even remembering these things but... There was a time, maybe it was a dream, or something. The Negaverse was winning. You get the idea. My... other, had disappeared and I had no clue. So, after a while I just began to zone out. I was basically a zombie. Eventually I just gave up. Some Knight crossed my path and offered to 'save me'. I didn't care. As it turned out, my friend had purified. He just never came and told me. So I spent the entire time denying it was him, until it was too late." The dreams or whatever they were, kept him up some nights, still. After a year. "I didn't like what had become of me. What I was doing, who I was. I knew it wasn't me, even if I didn't know much else."
Fangite finally pulled the face mask off, letting it hang around his neck as he finally seemed to come back from whatever reality he had been in. "I don't know how it is for Mirrors. Honestly, I don;t have connections with them. Damocles was a connection through Na- ... My friend. But you have to remember something. In purifying, and corrupting into another faction outside of the one you start in, you're giving part of yourself up. Whether it's your civilian memories, or your powered. My other friend, the one I said your situation was closer too, he ended up causing the forced corruption of his boyfriend. However, at the time, My friend didn't know that his boyfriend was even involved. So by the time Kerberos drained him, and he found out, it was too late. Now? That man remembers basically nothing. He knows Kerberos' name, along with a few other memories and people. But that's it. The memory thing affects more then just the person involved too. Your Chariklo may be there, but whoever she was, isn't. Is that what you want?"
"Let me ask you something." He said, turning to her. "When you think of this person. Who is it that you loved? Was it Chariklo? Or was it the human side. Who did you spend the time getting to know. Because whoever you pick, the other side... They're two different people. Hell.. some might say that the other side isn't even 'real'."
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Posted: Tue Aug 25, 2015 8:00 pm
Amytis blinked slowly. It sounded like he was speaking from experience, but that couldn't be --
Oh. Oh, yes it could. Because he had seen the future too, and his had been even worse than hers. Her heart dropped into her feet. She couldn't even imagine that...and if his person had been a Negaverse officer, that meant he had lost memories. Chariklo didn't seem to have, but...
And there was someone else, too, brought into the Negaverse by mistake and lost to someone who lived him dearly. Amytis bit the inside of her cheek. Even if by going over she would be going to Chariklo, what else would she be giving up?
She wouldn't be Avacyn anymore. Her mother, her sister, would both be lost to her forever.
"I loved both of her. I love both of her." She corrected herself. "And I think she remembers me. She...asked for me. My civilian self, not Amytis. But...." She swallowed. "I just want to be with her again, is that so wrong? If you'd known where he was, would have gone to him sooner?"
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Posted: Tue Aug 25, 2015 9:43 pm
"I honestly don't know... By the time that knight found me. I was ready to give up. I didn't want to remember him anymore. But that wasn't an option.. I couldn't lose everything. Or at least so I thought... Someone said I collapsed soon afterwards. I didn't remember much of anything when I woke up... Much like my friends lover... I don't think that's natural for a purification. But in purifying... I was lost to those who still needed me on the side of Chaos, and I was lost to them." Not that Kerberos had seemed to mind, he'd found the Knight almost instantly, and so began.. that string of events. "I was lost to myself. I was nothing more than a doll to anyone. And I was okay with that Amytis. I just followed others around, and let them do with me as they saw fit."
Fangite rubbed at his face. He was tired. Oh so tired, despite how often Alex was letting him sleep in. "I think, if I knew, I would have tried to stop him. We both had people within Chaos who needed us, and the like. Even if Chaos wasn't the best for us. I don't know how I could handle knowing I left them behind for one person ya know? I mean.. I get that that one person could be the one... But, is it worth it to give up everything.. for one thing?"
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Posted: Tue Aug 25, 2015 10:59 pm
Amytis nodded, slowly. He was right, in a way - was it really worth it for her to trade everything she had, everything she had built, for one person? Even if it was someone she loved, very much. But ti was also someone who had left her behind, abandoned her.
"Thank you," she said, "for talking to me. You've given me a lot to think about." And then she stepped forward, and gave the Captain a quick hug. "I hope your someone isn't as lost as you think he is," she said, and then she turned, and leapt to the next roof, on her way home.
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