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 Posted: Mon Jun 29, 2015 12:56 pm
❝I was told when I get older all my fears would shrink, ❞
❝ but now I’m insecure and I care what people think.❞
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Posted: Mon Jun 29, 2015 1:51 pm
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x▫ b e c a u s e x t h e x w o r l d x i s x s o x l a r g e ▫
x▫ A n d x e v e r y o n e x i s x s o x v a s t l y x d i f f e r e n t ▫ ┗xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx┛
It was about 7 am when Ezra woke up. He went through his normal morning rituals. Brushed his teeth, took a shower, got dressed, etc. then we went downstairs to prepare breakfast for him and his girlfriend. Of course he knew she had her problems when it came to body image and eating, but he never wanted to admit that she was a full blown anorexic because he cared about her and loved her so much. This morning he decided to prepare something light that way his girlfriend wouldn't be so intimidated. He began scrambling up a couple eggs and popped some toast in the toaster. He avoided making bacon because he knew the fat would worry her.
After all the food was done being prepared he called upstairs to his girlfriend. "Hey! Breakfast is ready! Come eat with me." He set the food on two plates and placed them at the bar with two glasses of orange juice. He then sat down at his plate and started poking at the food. He had a last minute brilliant idea to chop up some fruit and did so, then placed that in the middle of the two plates.
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Posted: Mon Jun 29, 2015 2:14 pm
xxxxxxxxx→ᴘᴀɪɴᴛ ʏᴏᴜʀsᴇʟғ ᴀ ᴘɪᴄᴛᴜʀᴇ ᴏғ ωʜᴀᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ωɪsʜ ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋᴇᴅ ʟɪᴋᴇ .→ ↺ ᴍᴀʏʙᴇ ᴛʜᴇɴ ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴍɪɢʜᴛ ғᴇᴇʟ ᴀɴ ᴏᴜɴᴄᴇ ᴏғ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴘᴀɪɴ xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
ᴄᴏᴍᴇ ɪɴᴛᴏ ғᴏᴄᴜs. sᴛᴇᴘ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴛʜᴇ sʜᴀᴅᴏωs! ↺xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx ↴ ɪᴛ's ᴀ ℓσѕιηg вαттℓє ↴
↯ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ's ɴᴏ ɴᴇᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ вє αѕнαмє∂. ↯
» ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴇᴠᴇɴ ᴋɴᴏω ʏᴏᴜ xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
ᴀʟʟ ᴛʜᴇʏ sᴇᴇ ɪs sᴄᴀʀs. » xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxᴛʜᴇʏ ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ sᴇᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴀɴɢᴇʟ ʟɪᴠɪɴɢ ɪɴ ʏᴏᴜʀ ʜᴇᴀʀᴛ. `•.¸¸.••´´¯``•• .¸¸.•´••´´¯``•• .¸¸.•´••´´¯``•• .¸¸.•´ xxxxxxx Ezra was in the shower when Lily woke up. Well, she could hear the shower running and she assumed it was him. Who else could it be? She pushed off the covers and walked over to her dresser. After waiting until Ezra went downstairs, she decided to take a shower. Except, when she went into the bathroom, she stood in front of the mirror for quite a while, examining herself. She had slept in just a long t-shirt, so now she stared at her bare thighs. Dear God, they're huge. A frown etched itself into her features as she ran her hands along them. Maybe she would go to the gym today. She needed to do something about this. Pulling the t-shirt over her head, she turned on the shower head and patiently waited for the water to warm up. Unfortunately, while she waited, she had a full view of her naked body in the mirror. It was disgusting. She needed to do something, anything.
xxxxxxx Lily had only been in the shower a few minutes when she heard Ezra call her. "I'm in the shower," she called. But honestly, even if she wasn't, she probably would have come up with an excuse not to eat. Breakfast foods were so fattening, and she needed to lose weight as it was. She was aiming to lose at least six pounds, despite the fact she had already lost five this month. It just never seemed to be enough. It was like she would improve on one spot, but then she would notice a completely different place that needed work. Enough was never enough.
xxxxxxx Once she finally felt clean enough, she turned off the shower and dried off. When she slipped on her once tight jeans, she smiled when she felt how loose they now felt around her hips. Maybe she could go down a size soon. She pulled on her favourite wine-red sweater next. It was quite large, and she liked how much smaller it made her appear. She blow-dried her hair next and made sure to take her time, hoping that by the time she got out, Ezra would be done and wouldn't be able to pressure her into eating anything. Just the thought of eating made her feel nauseous. She didn't want anything.
Out Of Chords; Lily is wearing...
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Posted: Mon Jun 29, 2015 5:40 pm
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x▫ b e c a u s e x t h e x w o r l d x i s x s o x l a r g e ▫
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Ezra was poking around at his food waiting for Lily to come downstairs. He ended up eating all of his eggs and a couple of pieces of fruit before wondering what was taking her so long. The shower had stopped 15 minutes ago, and he though the could hear the blow dryer in the background. He sighed and bit his bottom lip. Was she trying to avoid breakfast? Ezra ran his hand through his hair then stood up. He walked upstairs and gently knocked on the bathroom door. "Lily, dear...Please. I want to eat breakfast with you." He said in a sad voice. "It's just eggs and fruit baby. It's good for you. I didn't even cook bacon this time" Ezra stood back and leaned on the wall opposite of the bathroom just hoping Lily would open the door to join him.
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Posted: Tue Jun 30, 2015 9:27 am
xxxxxxxxx→ᴘᴀɪɴᴛ ʏᴏᴜʀsᴇʟғ ᴀ ᴘɪᴄᴛᴜʀᴇ ᴏғ ωʜᴀᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ωɪsʜ ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋᴇᴅ ʟɪᴋᴇ .→ ↺ ᴍᴀʏʙᴇ ᴛʜᴇɴ ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴍɪɢʜᴛ ғᴇᴇʟ ᴀɴ ᴏᴜɴᴄᴇ ᴏғ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴘᴀɪɴ xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
ᴄᴏᴍᴇ ɪɴᴛᴏ ғᴏᴄᴜs. sᴛᴇᴘ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴛʜᴇ sʜᴀᴅᴏωs! ↺xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx ↴ ɪᴛ's ᴀ ℓσѕιηg вαттℓє ↴
↯ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ's ɴᴏ ɴᴇᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ вє αѕнαмє∂. ↯
» ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴇᴠᴇɴ ᴋɴᴏω ʏᴏᴜ xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
ᴀʟʟ ᴛʜᴇʏ sᴇᴇ ɪs sᴄᴀʀs. » xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxᴛʜᴇʏ ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ sᴇᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴀɴɢᴇʟ ʟɪᴠɪɴɢ ɪɴ ʏᴏᴜʀ ʜᴇᴀʀᴛ. `•.¸¸.••´´¯``•• .¸¸.•´••´´¯``•• .¸¸.•´••´´¯``•• .¸¸.•´ xxxxxxx Lily's heart dropped when she heard Ezra's voice. He sounded so sad, and she hated the fact that she was the reason for it. But she couldn't go out there, she couldn't eat. She placed her hand flat on the door, listening to him speak. Oh, God. Hearing him like this, it made her want to cry. She didn't want him to worry about her. She was just fine. There was no reason for him to be concerned, really. She wanted him to stop worrying.
xxxxxxx After a long moment of hesitation, she smoothed out her over-sized sweater and took a deep breath. "I'll be right there, sweetie." She tried hard to make herself sound happy, to make it seem like she was fine, like everything was okay. Unfortunately, it wasn't. She should have known he wasn't going to let this go. With a fleeting glance at the mirror, she knew she was going to have to do some serious exercise after this.
xxxxxxx Running a hand through her hair, she opened the door cautiously in case he was still standing in front of it. To her relief, he was on the other side of the hall. "Hey." She smiled. As unhappy as she was, seeing him did make her feel a bit better. "I'm really sorry I took so long, honey."
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Posted: Tue Jun 30, 2015 8:27 pm
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x▫ b e c a u s e x t h e x w o r l d x i s x s o x l a r g e ▫
x▫ A n d x e v e r y o n e x i s x s o x v a s t l y x d i f f e r e n t ▫ ┗xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx┛
Ezra sighed when she responded. He knew what was going on, she was staring at that mirror thinking terrible, distorted, things about herself. It made Ezra's heart sink because to him, he couldn't ask for a more perfect woman. But she couldn't realize that she was perfect the way she was. She would still be perfect even if she gained 50 million pounds in Ezra's mind. He unconditionally loved her, and it went beyond body image. When she finally opened the door he couldn't help but smile. His eyes light up and he went forward and gave her a soft hug along with a kiss on the top of her head. "There she is. My perfect girl." He said looking down to give her a reassuring smile. He knew this was a big step for Lily. Some mornings she wouldn't come out of the bathroom, let alone even let Ezra see her for hours.
"Come on, let's eat something." He said softly. He started guiding Lily down the stairs then sat down at the bar. He patted the barstool next to him. Her eggs were still warm, but her toast was probably a bit cold. "I can pop some more toast in the toaster if you want a fresh slice." He said. He picked up his piece of cold toast and took a bite. Ezra wasn't picky at all, but he knew how Lily was. He also pushed the fruit bowl a little closer to Lily's plate. "And look. I found some fresh fruit in the fridge and cut it up for us." He knew all the food might be a little overwhelming and he didn't expect her to eat everything (even though he wanted her to). He just wanted her to have many options that way she'd be more likely to eat at least something.
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Posted: Tue Jun 30, 2015 9:32 pm
xxxxxxxxx→ᴘᴀɪɴᴛ ʏᴏᴜʀsᴇʟғ ᴀ ᴘɪᴄᴛᴜʀᴇ ᴏғ ωʜᴀᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ωɪsʜ ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋᴇᴅ ʟɪᴋᴇ .→ ↺ ᴍᴀʏʙᴇ ᴛʜᴇɴ ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴍɪɢʜᴛ ғᴇᴇʟ ᴀɴ ᴏᴜɴᴄᴇ ᴏғ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴘᴀɪɴ xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
ᴄᴏᴍᴇ ɪɴᴛᴏ ғᴏᴄᴜs. sᴛᴇᴘ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴛʜᴇ sʜᴀᴅᴏωs! ↺xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx ↴ ɪᴛ's ᴀ ℓσѕιηg вαттℓє ↴
↯ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ's ɴᴏ ɴᴇᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ вє αѕнαмє∂. ↯
» ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴇᴠᴇɴ ᴋɴᴏω ʏᴏᴜ xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
ᴀʟʟ ᴛʜᴇʏ sᴇᴇ ɪs sᴄᴀʀs. » xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxᴛʜᴇʏ ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ sᴇᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴀɴɢᴇʟ ʟɪᴠɪɴɢ ɪɴ ʏᴏᴜʀ ʜᴇᴀʀᴛ. `•.¸¸.••´´¯``•• .¸¸.•´••´´¯``•• .¸¸.•´••´´¯``•• .¸¸.•´ xxxxxxx Although they'd been together for a while, Lily's cheeks flushed when he hugged her. She wasn't really sure why, but her heart raced whenever he came near her. It was weird, but she wasn't exactly complaining. Perfect. The word echoed in her head. Although it wasn't what he meant, she thought that he found her to be that way because she was losing weight. For a moment, she debated going back into the bathroom. She wanted to stay perfect, and breakfast wasn't going to help that. However, when he smiled down at her, it was hard for her to breathe, let alone run away.
xxxxxxx "Uh, okay." They headed down the staircase together. She plopped down on the bar stool and gazed down at the plate before her. "I... I think I'm okay. No toast." Toast was carbs. Lots of empty calories. She didn't even want to look at it. After assessing all of her options, she decided that the fruit would probably be her best option. There was a lot of sugar in it, a voice in the back of her mind said. But she kept thinking she needed to take in some calories so she didn't pass out once she hit the gym.
xxxxxxx Lily picked up her fork and speared a piece of melon. Hesitantly, she raised it to her lips. As she took a bite, her gaze flickered to Ezra. For him, she thought before chewing and swallowing. The second it slid down her throat, she got this weird feeling in her stomach. The food didn't want to sit, but she knew she couldn't vomit without really worrying him. She forced a smile and pierced another piece of fruit, staring down at the bowl.
Out Of Chords; Lily is wearing...
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