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Dear Aludra,
Bad things happened and Camlann says we are going to go find Castor and he is going to make me a knight. I told him there were people who I wanted to be there, so he is lending me his ring to send this. If you still want to come, can you please meet us at the Times Circle Fountain when you get this? We'll be there soon.
Thank you for everything. I'll see you soon.
Love,
Astrophyllite
Bad things happened and Camlann says we are going to go find Castor and he is going to make me a knight. I told him there were people who I wanted to be there, so he is lending me his ring to send this. If you still want to come, can you please meet us at the Times Circle Fountain when you get this? We'll be there soon.
Thank you for everything. I'll see you soon.
Love,
Astrophyllite
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Hvergelmir-
Please come to the Times Circle Fountain as soon as you can.
-Astrophyllite
Please come to the Times Circle Fountain as soon as you can.
-Astrophyllite
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Dear Hvergelmir,
I’m so scared, Hver. I’ve been scared for a long time, ever since I went into the rift with Ate and wanted to kill her and maybe before that, even. I’m so scared of what Chaos is making me do and I’d rather die than have to live with it anymore and I-
I gave a civilian my weapon. She called me a monster and I gave her my club and asked her to kill me and she was going to do it, she was going to do it if Camlann didn’t stop her and I was going to let her. I don’t want to ever be a general and I know, I know I’m getting close, and if I keep filling my quotas and doing what I’m told they’ll do it and then - I would want to be someone’s Avalon. I would want to be smart and strong and brave. But I’d probably be someone’s Bischofite instead and I can’t do that I can’t be that I don’t want to be that.
I’m with Camlann now. He leant me his ring so I can send this letter, and the last one. He says he is going to find Castor and make him make me a knight and that I’ll love it and I hope he’s right.
I hope there’s not so much chaos in me that no one can get it out. I want to be a knight and wear a pretty dress and have magic and be GOOD, but I’m so, so scared. I’ve thought such terrible things about Ate and Adonis and I think I understand what was wrong with Bischofite, how he was so cruel, because it’s happening to me too.
Love, Astrophyllite
(PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE COME TO THE FOUNTAIN, PLEASE, I CAN’T DO THIS WITHOUT YOU I’M NOT BRAVE ENOUGH.)
I’m so scared, Hver. I’ve been scared for a long time, ever since I went into the rift with Ate and wanted to kill her and maybe before that, even. I’m so scared of what Chaos is making me do and I’d rather die than have to live with it anymore and I-
I gave a civilian my weapon. She called me a monster and I gave her my club and asked her to kill me and she was going to do it, she was going to do it if Camlann didn’t stop her and I was going to let her. I don’t want to ever be a general and I know, I know I’m getting close, and if I keep filling my quotas and doing what I’m told they’ll do it and then - I would want to be someone’s Avalon. I would want to be smart and strong and brave. But I’d probably be someone’s Bischofite instead and I can’t do that I can’t be that I don’t want to be that.
I’m with Camlann now. He leant me his ring so I can send this letter, and the last one. He says he is going to find Castor and make him make me a knight and that I’ll love it and I hope he’s right.
I hope there’s not so much chaos in me that no one can get it out. I want to be a knight and wear a pretty dress and have magic and be GOOD, but I’m so, so scared. I’ve thought such terrible things about Ate and Adonis and I think I understand what was wrong with Bischofite, how he was so cruel, because it’s happening to me too.
Love, Astrophyllite
(PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE COME TO THE FOUNTAIN, PLEASE, I CAN’T DO THIS WITHOUT YOU I’M NOT BRAVE ENOUGH.)
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Dear Avalon,
I know you won’t get this.
You would be so disappointed in me.
I tried, Avalon. I tried so hard. I told myself that I was perfect and pure in Metallia’s service but I’m not strong like you. I’m scared. I know that if I let them make me a general I would have the chance to be perfect and strong like you and teach someone else to be perfect and strong too, but I also have the chance to be like Bischofite and be sick and cruel and I CAN’T DO THAT. I’ve been having such dark, angry thoughts lately all about hurting people and I don’t want to have them anymore.
I would rather be dead than be a general. I can’t be perfect or strong like you and I’m so sorry. I’m going to go become a knight and maybe I’ll forget all about this. Maybe I’ll forget all about you. And that would make me SO SAD. I don’t want to let you be forgotten but you’re dead and I’m alive and selfish and weak and I have to take care of myself first.
I’m sorry to have let you down.
Love,
Astrophyllite
I know you won’t get this.
You would be so disappointed in me.
I tried, Avalon. I tried so hard. I told myself that I was perfect and pure in Metallia’s service but I’m not strong like you. I’m scared. I know that if I let them make me a general I would have the chance to be perfect and strong like you and teach someone else to be perfect and strong too, but I also have the chance to be like Bischofite and be sick and cruel and I CAN’T DO THAT. I’ve been having such dark, angry thoughts lately all about hurting people and I don’t want to have them anymore.
I would rather be dead than be a general. I can’t be perfect or strong like you and I’m so sorry. I’m going to go become a knight and maybe I’ll forget all about this. Maybe I’ll forget all about you. And that would make me SO SAD. I don’t want to let you be forgotten but you’re dead and I’m alive and selfish and weak and I have to take care of myself first.
I’m sorry to have let you down.
Love,
Astrophyllite
