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Posted: Fri Apr 03, 2015 2:02 pm
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This was the day.
It was a long time coming, but it still seemed so fast to come. It would be better for them both for him to do this, but he still felt like the bad guy. To make it easier, he laid out a bowl of Cami's favourite snack, and poured her a nice drink. He set down her favourite cuddling blanket beside him, and then he waited for her to arrive.
He paced the apartment, going over in his mind what he wanted to say; how he would say it. How to let her know, without making her feel kicked out, that it was time she moved out.
It was best for them both, he reminded himself. He needed to re-learn to adjust to living on his own. Relearning how to be his own person. Relying on Cami's warmth and passiveness would not help him. He'd fall into the same routine.
He prayed he was making the right choice.
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Posted: Fri Apr 03, 2015 2:13 pm
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Posted: Fri Apr 03, 2015 2:26 pm
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Posted: Fri Apr 03, 2015 3:05 pm
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Had it been less personal Cami would have helped him realize what could be done better. 'Don't take this the wrong way' was not a good way to start. 'Not right away' gave someone an infinite time frame in which to take advantage of the situation further. She'd also tell him how the eye contact was a great step forward and how she was proud of him for telling her this, even if it had taken time to do so.
But it was so heart-wrenching and personal that none of that mattered. Camille's smile froze on her face as her eyes went wide, showing far too much of her sclera for anyone's ability to think she was alright. "But you are." Her accent got thick as well, so thick that it was like molasses in her mouth, making her words into a Caribbean slurry that was almost impossible to understand. "A light push is just the same as a kick." Unnamed emotions that were too tangled and jumbled to make sense right now bubbled up as she fisted her hands at her sides.
Cami was never very good with anger based in pain. This time, at least, she wasn't crying. Progress was her pacing around the room trying to put her thoughts in order as she flicked a glance up to Otto every now and then.
Then, like something had ground the gears in her body to a halt she stopped. It was comical how mechanical the movement was and how she nearly tipped herself over with the abrupt motion. "But I promised I wouldn't stay when you asked me to go. That it wouldn't be a problem. So it won't." Hands uncurled at her sides, fingers flexed, but she couldn't look at him.
Maybe wouldn't.
She would have gone for her things, gone for the door, but her legs wouldn't move. They were just there with Otto looking intently at Cami while she looked resolutely at her own feet, willing them to just work.
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Posted: Fri Apr 03, 2015 3:20 pm
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Posted: Fri Apr 03, 2015 3:26 pm
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God but she wished she could make the joke about him worrying. Logically it was a good thing for Otto to know what he wanted, what he needed, and to take the steps towards that. Even if it meant pushing her out of their, no, his home. He'd worked to get this place and make it his own. She was nothing but an advantageous squatter who had wanted a home like she'd always dreamed about having as a child. But she wasn't a child. She was a grown woman who was trying to make something it wasn't.
Splash.
There was no staying afloat now. Eyes still a little too wide she looked up at the mention of her name, fumbling into her pocket to seem like she was actually mid-thought. "I should start making arrangements. Mimsy might be willing..." She trailed off, prodding uselessly at her cell phone with its ridiculously bright and colorful case. "Foolish." An absent murmur under her breath as she turned it over, thumb running over the rhinestones set in one of the decora pieces.
Maybe once she'd been strong, or at least had been able to construct a facsimile of a strong person, but it had been broken down long ago. When she'd been told to let go and trust. Now Cami was frozen and didn't much know what to do because she'd put too much in the pot to pull it out now. "Otto..." She looked at him now, a little lost, because unlike before this was final. She knew on a visceral level this would not be her home again.
"What do I do?"
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Posted: Fri Apr 03, 2015 3:32 pm
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Posted: Fri Apr 03, 2015 3:49 pm
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Posted: Fri Apr 03, 2015 4:02 pm
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Posted: Fri Apr 03, 2015 4:07 pm
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Posted: Fri Apr 03, 2015 4:24 pm
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Posted: Fri Apr 03, 2015 4:32 pm
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Posted: Fri Apr 03, 2015 4:40 pm
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