LONG RANT BELOW! IF YOU GIVE A SINGLE S*** MAYBE
YOU SHOULD READ IT! THEN AGAIN I DON'T CARE IF YOU DO.
So there are a small handful of you that know about the things I've gone
through with my stepdad, especially when it comes to job stuff. So after
getting more gradually more frustrated over the last few weeks I've had a
break down. It started with my significant other asking why does his
opinion bother me so much, why can't I just shrug it off like I do everyone
else that bugs me or just tell him to f*** off. While he was asking me this
I had an epiphany. I can't prove him wrong. THAT'S why it bugs me! He
is expecting me to do the 'normal' thing. 9-5 job, Mon-Fri. Look normal,
be normal, don't be so obvious, play 'my' part. I CAN'T! I know that there
are some of you who don't believe this but not everyone
is cut out for that kind of life. Not everyone is cut out to be normal!
There is no "Try harderto fit in!" for us! This is as normal as it gets for
me! I'm not trying to make myself stand out I just do!
Maybe the real question that should be asked is why the F*** is that a
bad thing? I remember when we were told to think outside of the box and
to be original. I'm so sick of this "if I wanted you to be creative/different
then I would have given you that" attitude that so many ******** people
have! We, the true individuals, are the ones that make society interesting
why should we be punished for it? I'm so fed up with feeling like I'm
worthless because I can't find work and because I'm being passed over
for jobs. My worth will not be measured by how well I fit into society! I am
done with it! I know that I am an amazing friend, I know that I have made
a difference in people's lives. I know that I am worth something! When I
get done being told that I'm worthless though because I can't force
(YES FORCE!) myself to be your bland nine to fiver that has no
distinguishing marks though, it is all I can do to pull my a** out of bed
and try to do something productive.
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