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PostPosted: Tue Oct 07, 2014 10:40 pm


I don't really know what category this would fit in since it's a little bit of a rant along with seeking some advice, so I put both into the title. I hope that is okay. Also, I am really sorry if this gets too long for you to read.



Anyway, let's start from the beginning:

First thing, I am a Christian who was born male. Ever since I was young (early elementary I think), I didn't know what to do with my gender title. All I knew was what I liked. And what I liked was whenever me and my siblings would play dress up, I would sometimes put on one of the play dresses and spin around in it. I used to love doing that. We even had a wig that we used to take turns wearing, though it was really old and not very well taken care of. We were kids after all.lol Anyway, whenever my mom found out that I was doing that, she quickly put a stop to it. She would always say that boy were not allowed to wear girl's clothes. I had asked her why one time and all she would say was "Because it's what the Bible says." Back then I didn't want to upset my mom, so I stopped wearing the dresses. Eventually we stopped playing dress up and we got rid of them all.

Because of those times, however, I had started to think that I wasn't supposed to be near female clothing. For the longest time I truly believed that if I even grazed a blouse that it would somehow attach itself onto me and I would be wearing it the rest of the day (I had, and still have, a VERY wild imagination). That fear stuck with me until I was about 6th or 7th grade and finally realized that THAT was not the case. That's also the point when I started to sneak around and try my mom's and sister's clothes on when they weren't around.

From this point till now, I had tried my hardest to figure out what was happening to me. By this point I was saved and I knew that what my mom said about guys not wearing girl's clothes and vise versa really was in the Bible. I was, however, confused on whether or not it was important since the schools that I went to had Womenless Beauty Reviews (Guys dressing up as females and strutting their stuff like a real beauty pageant). My mother kept on saying that it was wrong to participate in, even going to the point to where she forbid me to even go see one, so I tried my hardest to ignore the feelings I was having. However, they soon started to seep into my dreams. I started dreaming about being caught in female clothing and no one really caring. I dreamed that I had a spell cast on me to prevent people from seeing me as anything but a girl. I even had a dream once that I had made a deal with a demon in order to be able to hide in plain site and to make everyone think I was a girl with pink hair (though I think that one was me watching too much anime late at night).



Anyway, to make a long story short, after looking into my life, I believe I am a MTF Transgender, but my emotions keep on colliding with each other. Part of me knows that what I am doing is not what a quote/unquote "True Believer" of Chris should feel, but the other part of me finds joy in being able to feel the long hair against my face and the feel of the dresses and skirts and other female clothing. I even like getting dolled up even though I haven't had much experience with that. I just want to know what I should do. Should I go with what I know to be what a Christian should be like, or do I go with what my heart feels and tells me. I am just so confused and I can't take not knowing anymore. I just want some clarity in this enormous fog that is my life.
PostPosted: Wed Oct 08, 2014 11:42 am


Imma tell you what I think about the whole matter because I kinda have a similar issue. I was "born" in a religion that is not Christianity, then I secretly became agnostic then atheist and have been for maybe eight years, and recently I have been (also secretly) dabbling into Christianity and I like what I see so far.

The following is my own personal interpretation. I am not talking from any kind of solid ground whatsoever.

I know there are some Bible verses (in Leviticus I think) that anti-LGBTQ people use against us, but I personally think that religion should be more spiritual than some paper, you know? God made us, and He made us the way we are (in our case, Trans). We know that this is not an illness. We are not "sick" people who need a treatment (show me someone who got treated).

I think that God made us the way we are and He loves us even when we sin, but we are not sinning! I don't see anything in the seven sins or ten commandments that says anything about any LGBTQ matter, because there are many other things that matter more than that. I think God wants people to be kind and peaceful and do good unto others and the world, so as long as you are not hurting anybody I think you are all good.

Plus, if you break one rule but follow the rest, so what?
"There is not a righteous man on earth who does what is right and never sins." (Ecclesiastes 7:20)

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PostPosted: Wed Oct 08, 2014 3:26 pm


I say go with what your heart feels and tells you to. There are actually those out there who are in your same situation, yet they manage to be in the religious following and they are true to themselves.
PostPosted: Wed Oct 08, 2014 4:56 pm


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I agree with you. How I see it, the Old Testament is more like a collection of stories that is to help you, not something to be followed to the T like the New Testament. And in the New Testament, there is nothing I could find about it. So I'm just going to go with what I believe God is telling me.

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PostPosted: Thu Oct 09, 2014 8:57 am


Egotistical Nymph
I agree with you. How I see it, the Old Testament is more like a collection of stories that is to help you, not something to be followed to the T like the New Testament. And in the New Testament, there is nothing I could find about it. So I'm just going to go with what I believe God is telling me.


I haven't really read the whole Old Testament but I did skim through it. It seems that most of it is "storytelling" more than actual ideas to live by (compared to the gospels and Proverbs for example).

Besides, come on, God doesn't hate anybody 3nodding He told us to love even our enemies, and surely He loves all his creation.
PostPosted: Thu Oct 09, 2014 9:26 am


In and out for the moment, and I haven't read the full thing yet, but you should absolutely send me a message and we can talk about this more.

I'm a seminarian graduate looking to be a pastor one day. There are so many ways to be a faithful queer christian (or a person of any faith) it's just a matter of finding the right materials and people who understand.


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PostPosted: Thu Oct 09, 2014 4:29 pm


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I agree with you. How I see it, the Old Testament is more like a collection of stories that is to help you, not something to be followed to the T like the New Testament. And in the New Testament, there is nothing I could find about it. So I'm just going to go with what I believe God is telling me.


I haven't really read the whole Old Testament but I did skim through it. It seems that most of it is "storytelling" more than actual ideas to live by (compared to the gospels and Proverbs for example).

Besides, come on, God doesn't hate anybody 3nodding He told us to love even our enemies, and surely He loves all his creation.


Right. And some of those stories have actually be confirmed. They just didn't cover much of the details on the history channel.
PostPosted: Thu Oct 30, 2014 1:33 pm


Hi, just wanted to poke into the matter. (-:
Personally I don't think your gender identity should rule out your religion, faith or worldview whatsoever. I heard of woman who worked as a priest before transitioning so by all means, being trans and being a good Christian do not contradict each other.

Realizing who you really are, be it by showing your faith, sharing your ideology or being true to your identity, is sure to have a positive impact on you. And the people around you will also notice it.

And yeah, since Christians think God created humans, then he made some of them trans too. It's all about this bigger plan which mortals like us can't quite comprehend, maybe it's a test, or a journey to the real person who we are supposed to be.

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PostPosted: Thu Oct 30, 2014 9:22 pm


Riivaaja
Hi, just wanted to poke into the matter. (-:
Personally I don't think your gender identity should rule out your religion, faith or worldview whatsoever. I heard of woman who worked as a priest before transitioning so by all means, being trans and being a good Christian do not contradict each other.

Realizing who you really are, be it by showing your faith, sharing your ideology or being true to your identity, is sure to have a positive impact on you. And the people around you will also notice it.

And yeah, since Christians think God created humans, then he made some of them trans too. It's all about this bigger plan which mortals like us can't quite comprehend, maybe it's a test, or a journey to the real person who we are supposed to be.


Okay, who are you and how did you get in my brain? Cause you basically quoted what I tell myself when I start feeling down.
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