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Camille's nightmares were getting worse. Since she'd woken up alone in the Sahara, naked save for Kidana's totem, Otto's necklace, and her runic pendant things had gotten that much more intense. She still didn't know that her roommate was aware of the fact she had them nearly every night so when the redhead shot awake, utterly breathless, she was surprised to see him sitting up. Normally she awoke to him sprawled out, head on her chest, deep in sleep.

Pushing herself up in their massive bed a hand came to lightly press at the center of his back, rubbing in light circles. "Everything alright?" Likely it wasn't for Otto didn't curl up unless he was in a mood. Moods were all related to something. She welcomed the distraction, welcomed something to think about other than her nightmares, glad that she hadn't awoken covered in blood.

Sometimes, she was afraid she would.

It was unfortunate that normally Cami was too deep a sleeper to be woken by something as quiet as Otto's weight shifting to a sitting position. If he'd started to thrash or yell in the throes of a nightmare, she would have woken up to that, because she'd trained herself to it. Also because Maebe had liked to try and sneak out of bed when she thought everyone was asleep and Cami was having none of that s**t.

None whatsoever.

Looking at Otto in the darkness she sat up further, scooting closer so that she could start to stroke his hair, pressing a soft kiss to his cheek. "Want to talk about it? Or snuggle?" She found a smile, just for him. "Or both?"

How many times had she said that as a child? Brushed off every time she'd said it, it made Cami ultra-sensitive to hearing it from anyone else. Immediately she wanted to summon Kidana and actually did so, using the pale lavender runes of the massive longbow to light the room. It wasn't outside the realm of possibility that there would actually be something (or someone, she supposed) in the room. Finding nothing truly out of the ordinary she let the bow rest against the edge of the bed.

Inspection done she turned back to Otto where he leaned against her. "What feels wrong? Is it just physical not feeling well, like you're sick, or is it...more?" Eyes flicked down to her bow again. The sleepy revenant informed Cami that she didn't feel anything. They were likely safe. "Ki says there's nothing around."

Because she could Cami shifted to wrap her arms around his slim waist, tugging until he was snuggled back against her chest. Her chin was on his shoulder as she lightly rubbed it against his own, trying to surround him with her warmth. They were both a little sticky from nightmares but not in a horribly unpleasant way. Fingers slipped up under his shirt to lightly stroke at his sides as she snuggled him close.

Kidana had returned to her totem, sleeping lazily, lost among the blankets. "Well, you have two options. One, I will cuddle you until we both fall back asleep. Two..." She laughed. "We don't sleep for a bit yet." It was always his choice. Cami was pretty determined to keep the ball in Otto's court as much as possible, never pushing, because he was her best friend. Her person.

There was a very small part of Cami that felt bad she was turning Otto towards thinking the way that she and Maebe did. Thinking that you could lose yourself in someone else for awhile and it would chase away the darkness long enough to center yourself again, finding strength in that peace and moment of utter blank-mindedness. Most of her, however, loved it. Loved that she could be of some use to her best friend, whom she loved terribly, one of her two most important people in the entire world.

It didn't hurt, of course, that it made her feel good as well. That it would allow her to think of something more than her own fears, her own nightmares, her own worries for the future. Fingers linked as she leaned in so that their lips met in a kiss that offered herself up to him. Forget. It said. Think only of this.

Later, the world still blurred around the edges, Cami could see what blanket she'd pulled up around them and it made her giggle a bit. Otto had a fascination with buying blankets of all styles and colors so that all three of them had a blanket that was exclusively theirs. Cami's was the blue and purple one he'd bought her when he'd first given her a bed to sleep in. Maebe's was, of course, pink.

Otto's? Otto's was a brilliant orange that even if they didn't sleep with the lights on they'd be able to see. It was Otto's blanket that was wrapped around them both as she skimmed fingers through unruly blond hair, feeling his breath against her skin as he snuggled in against her. Cami liked to touch, liked to feel the light bumps of his vertebrae all the way down his back. If she'd been feeling playful she'd have pinched his butt.

As it was, she was feeling just a little thoughtful which meant her world hadn't blurred quite enough. It wasn't Otto's fault, though. Blurring was becoming something harder and harder to achieve in the way that drug addicts had to reach further and further away to get their high. The weight on her shoulders was too heavy to just be shrugged off so casually.

"Better now?" Her own problems non-withstanding Cami was utterly concerned with his. Otto was her rock. Her world. He had to be ok.

Affection from Otto always made her smile and now was no exception. His question made her want to evade but it wasn't in her to lie to him. She'd promised that if there was a problem she'd talk to him about it and, now that he was asking, she could burden him with it. But did she really want to? Something flickered in her eyes before she sighed, softly.

"I've been having bad nightmares since the Tower. I don't think it would be so bad to just have this as a recurring nightmare if it weren't every night. Almost the same thing. Every. Single. Night." Her fingers tightened in his hair for a moment, tension rife through her body, before she took a breath and let it go slowly. "I kept hoping they'd go away. I guess they're just...a thing now."