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 Posted: Fri Jul 25, 2014 3:50 pm
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Posted: Fri Jul 25, 2014 4:08 pm
The myriad of stars twinkled above her, they used to call out to her, to beg for their tales to be heard, but now they were silent, their voices unable to breach the darkness that now fills her heart. What was the point in telling stories when there was darkness in the world that sought to extinguish the light? The tales lie, good does not always conquer evil, sometimes evil is just too strong to be destroyed. In reality there was no such thing as a happy ending, so why continue to spin falsehoods?
Her head turned to look in the direction of the woods where her son roamed. She was not sure if he was asleep or if he prowled the night. The angeni knew that she should not blame him for what happened to her and the removal of her other children, it was irrational, but Harbinger looked like him. The stallion who caused her so much pain, caused her to fracture and no longer be whole. He had aimed to make an Angeni suffer and he had excelled in his torment.
She deserved this, it was only fitting that one so naïve would be woken to the terribleness of the world in such a day. Her gaze returned to the sky, the stars continued to twinkle, to beg her, but she ignored their call. Isabliss the Storyteller was no longer, she was now Nobody, just a shell of the mare she used to be.
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Posted: Fri Jul 25, 2014 5:51 pm
The young mare was super tired from loss of sleep ever since it happened to her. It wasn't anyone's fault really but her own because she was who she was but it still ate at her. Her past continued to follow her wherever she went and swallowed her whenever she met someone new. Sadness, guilt and anger were overwhelming her mind, body, and soul. Sayoko had lost Akira somewhere, she wasn't sure where at exactly but she was sure the little bear would find her again eventually. She needed some time to herself for a while without a grumbling bear nipping at her hooves wondering what was wrong with her.
It was a nice warm night for her to walk around aimlessly, no where to go in mind but she didn't really have anywhere to return to either. The stars twinkled and shined above her head causing her to stop and look up at them in sadness at times. There used to be a time where she would dance and be happy under them. That time seemed like a long time ago, so much so that it almost as if it never even happened. She continued wandering around, lost in her own thoughts until she happened upon another mare staring up at the sky. The mare had a sad beauty about her and it intrigued her to get a closer look. She wasn't the type to intrude on another but she couldn't help but be attracted by the mare's grace and beauty. Why was the mare out in the woods alone staring up at the stars with such a sad and lonely air about her? Sayoko didn't really have much room to talk since she was pretty much in the same boat but she couldn't walk away and ignore the mare.
Fireflies and crickets hurried out of her way as she slowly moved forward towards the mare. She didn't want to scare the mare since the woods were mostly quiet. Her long black braided mane trailed beside her as she moved softly and slowly through the grass. She was never in a rush to move anywhere anymore, not just because she didn't want to hurt nature but she didn't have anything to look forward to anymore. Because of her past and what she had done, she made herself the lonely mare she is now in the woods. She wanted the naive happiness and the thoughts that nothing bad would ever happen to her. Sayoko wanted that time back in her life but she knew it was long since gone and she would never experience it again. Ideally she would be lucky to make a friend let alone try to find love again. She hated the idea of love almost, a happy ending and love winning over all the bad were lies for her. She used to believe that love and happiness could win against anything but she was the loser. Love made her weak and she was blind to what was taking place before her very eyes.
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Posted: Fri Jul 25, 2014 8:11 pm
Someone was there, walking through the darkness, even if they tried to be silent, the forest still revealed their journey. Isabliss did not turn to look, she did not care about who came, and it could be her son for all she knew. Where were her other sons? Her lovely sons, Wystan and Alistair. Their father broke her heart many years ago, and she had found light again, but this time, Harbinger’s father did too much damage to even consider being whole.
The steps were silent, controlled but heavy, they were not that of her young son. Slowly Isabliss turned her dead gaze toward the creature who walked toward her. It was a mare, nothing terrifying about her, Isabliss had to push down her disappointment. Was she hoping that it was Sikine? Coming to bring her children back? She had to stop hoping, she would never see her children again.
Isabliss stared at the new mare, her gaze unblinking. She did not want to deal with another soquili, making friends was such a waste of time, since it would only lead to disappointment.
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Posted: Fri Jul 25, 2014 8:57 pm
Soft green eyes peered at the other mare, wondering just what her story was and what brought her here. "I think I know your story." Sayoko spoke the words softly after standing there for a while and thinking on what she could possibly say to the mare before her. She seemed to have almost the same air as herself but it was a lot more thicker and there seemed to be more mixed into it. "I think I know your story because we seem a like in the way that we carry sadness, loneliness and anger. I can't say I know everything that happened to you but I'm sure it had something to do with love be it friendship or deception of a loved one." She hissed the words loved one and because they left a horrible taste in her mouth. Since she had her run in with the deceiving emotion and those who made her feel it, she didn't have hope for it existing anymore. "If that isn't what happened to you, please correct me."
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Posted: Fri Jul 25, 2014 9:13 pm
Anger threatened to come and lash out at the mare, how dare she assume that they were the same. They were not; the mare did not have the same manipulations played upon her. Quickly as the anger came, it vanished. She could not bring herself to care enough to even feel anger, to feel anything but the black abyss that was her soul. Isabliss continued to stare at the mare, her expression blank and unfeeling. It would be polite for her to return a greeting, to interact, but what was the point? What was the point in all of this? The Angeni turned her gaze to the sky, no longer seeing the stars above her, but the memories of her past. Lies flowed like honey from the mouth of Sikine, he spoke of promises, which were broken once her belly swelled with his spawn. He was a monster, outside and in, and yet she had hoped to change him, to show him that there was good in the world, she loved a monster. Her grey eyes turned back to the light purple mare with the black braids, “You know nothing.”
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Posted: Fri Jul 25, 2014 9:21 pm
"If you can judge me and say that I know nothing then the same could be said of you." She figured she was probably over stepping her boundaries and was pushing herself too far. "I know what it feels like to have promise with someone only to have them ripped away and turn into something completely different. I know what it is like to come back from that only to have almost the exact thing happen again. Used time and again from hope and love just to be left alone and empty." She was being overwhelmed with the sadness again and she just wanted to sink into the ground and disappear. "I know what it is like to want to disappear and not even bother anymore." She had no idea why she was even bothering with the mare before her but there was something keeping her here. Sayoko just couldn't walk away because she didn't know what would happen when she did.
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Posted: Fri Jul 25, 2014 9:58 pm
Was she supposed to feel chastised? Or humbled at the other mare’s words? Isabliss stared at the mare, it seemed she had witnessed some hardships as well, was that supposed to make Isabliss feel comradery with her? If the Angeni still laughed, she would find it laughable. Her wings twitched, this was getting annoying, and she did not want a council session with an unknown mare. “You know nothing.” She repeated her words, she was not sure if the words were for the purple mare or for herself. “Then you know that I wish to be alone.” Her voice was flat, toneless. “If my life is as bad as you believe it to be, why do you think telling me your tale will make me better? Or that we have similar events that have transpired in our past.” Isabliss looked at the mare, “You cannot know what I feel, you may have had a similar experience, but that does not mean you know what I am feeling and the reasons why I have my pain.”
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Posted: Fri Jul 25, 2014 10:19 pm
"Do you really wish to be alone?" Sayoko felt like she was kicking herself while she was down because it was like she was speaking to herself. "Your right I don't know what your feeling or why you have pain but you seem like your suffering just like I am." She was starting to feel like she was being backed into a corner. She had never met another who had the same sort of emotions as herself, she had no idea how to deal with it. "I hate feeling the sadness, loneliness and anger all the time. I don't know how you feel but you can't feel good either." Sayoko had no idea what she was doing or why she was doing it. Maybe she was just trying to reach out to another like herself and see if it helped her feel better. But so far all she was being met with was almost nothing from the other mare. "I'm sorry if I'm bothering you and if you truly want me to leave then I shall pass on but I'd really rather stay to talk to you." She cringed on the inside because that meant getting close to someone and opening up again. However, she wanted to get close to this mare, she wanted to know more about her story and what happened to make her like this. She only hoped that the mare wouldn't tell her to leave because deep down she was really curious about her.
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Posted: Fri Jul 25, 2014 10:27 pm
“I am never truly alone.” She was constantly with her memories, if they continued to haunt her, she would never be free or alone with her own thoughts. “At least you feel those emotions, the sadness, the hate, even negative, they are still emotions. I do not feel anything. It is much easier this way. The darkness of my heart is a comforting companion, who understands me better than I understand myself. I have been enlightened so to speak.” Why did Isabliss not tell her to leave her sight? The words were right on the tip of her tongue; it would be so easy to speak those words, casting the mare into the night. But Isabliss did not speak those words. Perhaps the mare would guide her deeper into darkness, where she would not even have the spark of hope that continued to flicker in her breast. She wished that it would be extinguished; it was hard to have Hope when there was nothing surrounding her but despair.
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Posted: Fri Jul 25, 2014 11:01 pm
Something inside her seemed to come to life when the mare started to speak to her. The mare was actually communicating with her and Sayoko was almost getting hopeful that there could be hope for her yet. "I don't believe you." She was honest and upfront with the mare in not believing that she feels nothing. "You must feel something because otherwise I wouldn't be here. By that I mean I had to of come here for some reason..that is what I believe in. Things happen for a reason, I believe we were meant to meet." She wasn't too thrilled with the idea at the moment but the more she thought about it, the more it made sense to her. "You can call me Sayoko and I'm not going to let us drown." She wanted to give the mare a smile but she didn't have any smiles left. It was something she still had to work towards and had a long way to go.
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Posted: Fri Jul 25, 2014 11:10 pm
Isabliss merely shrugged at the other mare’s words, “You do not have to believe me, but at the moment I speak the truth or I should say I would rather feel nothing because the pain is too much to bear.” The words of the purple mare were preposterous, if things happened for a reason, then she was hurting for a reason and her suffering was only a stepping stone for a greater path. She did not believe it. Sikine had removed such fanciful thoughts from her head. “Ah, Fate, Destiny, ‘Things happen for a reason’; you know that it is all just a lie, concocted by some leader wanting to control the masses by making them believe they have the terrible life they have for a reason.” She had once believed in Fate, in Destiny, and the words the mare was saying, but she was naïve then and would not listen to those words now. The Angeni stared at the mare; she did not want to know the mare’s name, for now the mare might consider them friends, “Why do you care?”
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Posted: Fri Jul 25, 2014 11:31 pm
"But once the pain is gone then there has to be happiness again right?" Sayoko had no clue what emotions even were really, they definitely broke a soquili quite easily. "I'm not sure why I care.." She trailed off because she couldn't answer the mare's question and it bothered her a great deal. "I'm lost, confused and looking for someone to find hope with I suppose..I want to hold on to the tiny bit of light I have left that it is better on the other side." Her ears laid back and she lowered her head, her light green eyes watching the bugs move through the grass. She was feeling raw and exposed before the mare, like her heart was displayed upon the grass and it could be trampled upon more or it could be placed back inside. "Others will tear you apart but you know what the pain is like...I am thinking you might be the one I've been looking for but I might be wrong." Sayoko was beyond scared and filled with so much sadness she didn't know how to deal with it, should she turn off all the emotions like the mare did in front of her?
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Posted: Fri Jul 25, 2014 11:43 pm
“No, once the pain is gone, there is nothing but nothingness. It is a numb feeling that takes hold of your body. Nothing can touch you; you are free of the hindering emotions others feel. You will not feel jealousy, anger, or passion. They are such trivial emotions and the nothingness makes them disappear.” Her grey eyes watched as the fireflies danced around the purple mare, the beauty of the night sickened Isabliss, it was as if it wanted her to feel something, but did the world not get it? She did not want to feel anything. “And you think that another completely broken being will be able to put you back together again.” She looked away and spoke into the night air, “Word of advice, accept the emptiness and the pain, being put back together is not worth it. You will think you are whole, but one person can find that chip and completely break you again. It is better to remain broken.”
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Posted: Sat Jul 26, 2014 7:59 pm
Sayoko listened to her every word, almost hanging to them as if her life depending on it. "I can't accept the emptiness and the pain..I just can't accept them." Her ears were still laid back but she didn't have the energy to stand anymore. Sayoko had to lay upon the grass and ground, the cool ground cooling her warm body. "I don't want to be broken forever, I may be broken now but I can't believe this is how it is forever." She spoke her honest feelings, she wasn't sure of a lot of things but she did know and understand that one thing. In her mind, the mare's words continued to circle around in her head about how after the pain there is nothing. Somehow the words made her feel uneasy and uncomfortable with herself and uncertain about what her future may hold.
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