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Posted: Sat Jun 28, 2014 2:34 pm
( continued from here )
It wasn't certain how long he'd been out here on the training field; if time had passed at all or if he'd just imagined it. He didn't normally wear a watch, and his phone was somewhere in the recesses of his coat, Gale lacking the actual energy to try and find it. He'd woken up, very briefly, only to notice that he was now cold, and that his hair was sticking damply to his forehead, thanks to the fact that he'd been sweating earlier.
At least, he thought dimly, Jack hadn't come looking for him. He'd gotten away, crawled behind a practice dummy, and was now lying here in the grass without much in his head beside a horrible, nauseating dizziness and bruises that had not yet faded encircling his throat; not to mention the memories fresh inside of his mind.
Gale closed his eyes and let himself slip back into the throes of unconsciousness, because that was easier than having to face the reality of what he'd done.
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Posted: Sat Jun 28, 2014 3:42 pm
It wasn't that uncommon to find someone lying down on the training field. Usually it just meant that someone was either resting or slacking, and depending on circumstance should be left alone or given a gentle kick to get them back off the ground. But the figure half-visible behind a training dummy was lying worryingly still, and behind a dummy was a hazardous spot to pick for a rest. Jordan circled back to find out what was going on. He was first shocked and then worried to find that it was Gale, and that Gale looked more unconscious than asleep; when he crouched down to check on the younger man, he spotted the bruises. Gale must have lost a spar, and with a particularly vindictive person. Gently, he shook Gale's shoulder. "Gale," he said. "Hey, man, you can't fall asleep out here. C'mon, wake up."
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Posted: Sat Jun 28, 2014 5:27 pm
At first he didn't notice the footsteps drawing nearer, or even hear the sound of his own name. But the gentle touch of someone's hand shaking his shoulder was enough to make him stir, a flinch passing over Gale's face briefly as his eyes flickered mostly open. It took him a moment to recognize the face of the person leaning over him.
"Jordan?" he muttered, dazed and relatively disoriented. He tried to push himself upright, memories seeping rapidly back into his mind, and a swell of nausea hit him, Gale clapping a hand over his mouth to in an effort not to throw up all over the man beside him.
"What, er...are you doing here?" he asked, voice slightly muffled; and he tried very hard to ignore the way his fingers trembled against his face.
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Posted: Sun Jun 29, 2014 4:52 am
Jordan helped Gale sit up, frowning with concern. "Careful," he said. "Did your head get hit? Who did this? I was coming down to train," he added, "good thing I saw you before I started in on that training dummy. That could've been uncomfortable." He peered carefully at Gale's eyes. If the other man had been knocked out in the wrong way, he might have a concussion. Even if he didn't, they needed to get him to the infirmary. "Think you can stand?" Jordan asked. "If not, I'll carry you."
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Posted: Sun Jun 29, 2014 8:07 am
Who did this was a very good question, and also one Gale wasn't entirely certain he could answer; not because he couldn't remember, but because he didn't want to remember. He kept his hand over his mouth a moment longer until he was certain he wasn't going to throw up all over Jordan, and then lowered it, slowly curling his shaking fingers in his lap.
"I didn't hit my head," he answered, wincing a little as he attempted to stand up. His legs felt horribly unsteady beneath him, but he managed it, swaying slightly.
His hand went to his neck again, which was throbbing painfully.
"I...can walk," he said, though it seemed not entirely certain. He took a hesitant step, and when he didn't collapse onto the ground, took another.
"I might need a little help, though," Gale said, a little shakily.
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Posted: Sun Jun 29, 2014 10:11 am
Concussion shouldn't be a concern, then; Gale visibly fought back nausea, and Jordan frowned, concerned. "How bad is the pain?" He got up when Gale did, watching him closely. Gale seemed shaky, clearly hurting, unsettled by whatever had happened. He hadn't answered the question. Either he didn't remember who'd done this to him, or he didn't want to name his attacker. A private conflict of some sort? Or had he been taken by surprise? The latter seemed more likely to Jordan; from what he knew of Gale, the younger man was a calm and steady person, and he had a hard time imagining him involved in something that would have escalated to this kind of violence. As Gale wobbled, Jordan slipped an arm around his shoulders carefully. "Here, lean on me," he said. "Let's get you to the infirmary. Painkillers, if nothing else."
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Posted: Sun Jun 29, 2014 1:13 pm
"My neck," Gale mumbled, as red flooded his cheeks, and he could still feel Jack's hands around his throat, fingers pressing in, digging into his skin, cutting off his air supply - but he could also feel his own hands doing the exact same thing as Jack's, and the nausea rose again, Gale pushing away from Jordan just in time to turn and empty the contents of his stomach onto the training field. He bent half over, then sank to his knees in the grass, hating how humiliating this was, how wrong it was.
"...sorry," he said, after a moment, wiping his mouth on the back of his hand and feeling horribly pathetic. But at the very least, it was someone like Jordan that had found him, and not Jack or Otto or even Stormy, because he still wasn't entirely certain how he was going to face her.
"Sorry," said Gale again, and rubbed at his brow, pushing himself vertical again. "I'm all right, I'm just...a little..." A faint smile touched his lips, though it contrasted with the paleness of his face. "Well, you can see already, I had a bit of a...conflict."
An understatement. Gale added, a bit belatedly, his voice hoarse, "Painkillers sound like a good idea, though."
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Posted: Sun Jun 29, 2014 2:43 pm
Jordan looked away politely, trying not to listen; he hated vomiting himself, in part because it felt awful, in part because of the loss of control, and he never liked having anyone there when it happened. Once Gale had finished, he offered his support again. "Your throat must be pretty banged up," he said neutrally. "Rough spar?" he inquired cautiously as they started off again toward the infirmary.
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Posted: Sun Jun 29, 2014 2:56 pm
Gale slid his arm around Jordan's waist and followed along beside him, grateful for the assistance and the nonjudgmental tone of Jordan's voice. He made a little sound, something between a grunt and a hiss, and absently touched his fingers to his neck again.
"...something like that," he said quietly. "It...got a little out of hand. More than I've ever let it before."
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Posted: Sun Jun 29, 2014 3:15 pm
"Happens sometimes," Jordan said, and left it at that, though he gave Gale a curious glance. If Gale felt like talking about it, he would, and prying was often the best way to get someone to clam up.
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Posted: Sun Jun 29, 2014 3:21 pm
Gale was silent for a few moments as he dragged his limbs through the grass. Jinhai was unusually quiet inside of his head, which was never a good sign, and Gale let out a little sigh.
"Have you ever..." A long pause as he struggled for the right words. "...have you ever had the urge to...kill someone? I mean," Gale amended, "A human. I know we're told to kill creatures, or the Horsemen, or anything that poses a threat, and I know sometimes we say stuff like 'oh I'd I'm going to kill so-and-so,' but..."
He trailed off, not quite certain he wanted to finish the rest of his sentence.
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Posted: Sun Jun 29, 2014 3:32 pm
"Once or twice." Jordan didn't clarify who or why. "The thought ... wasn't a particularly comfortable one." The realization that he was capable of that kind of thought had been unsettling; the realization that it didn't disturb him as much as he thought it probably should had been worse. He slanted a sideways look at Gale. Perhaps they all had that carefully obscured depth of violence, the capacity that few people liked to admit was present.
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Posted: Sun Jun 29, 2014 4:50 pm
The fact that Jordan had had similar thoughts, regardless of situation, was somewhat reassuring, though Gale couldn't get the feeling of his hands around Jack's neck out of his mind; the pure, unadulterated anger that had swept over him, obscuring any of his rationality.
"...how did you deal with it?" Gale asked hesitantly. "I mean...you're a pretty level-headed man, you've been here as long as I have. How do you...get rid of that sort of feeling?"
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Posted: Mon Jun 30, 2014 10:07 am
"I have a vivid imagination," Jordan answered dryly. Then, a little more seriously, "I haven't yet been in a situation where I had that urge while the person in question was directly in front of me." In this world, he didn't add. His other had not always restrained himself, and he didn't like to dwell on some of the dreamlike memories he had inherited when the fragment integrated itself into his mind. "I'd like to say I'd walk away, but the opportunity hasn't arisen."
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Posted: Mon Jun 30, 2014 10:34 am
Walk away should have been an easy solution; it was something that he had done already in the past, and was something that he usually did. He was not a violent person by nature.
At least, he hadn't thought so.
"What...if it's too late for that," Gale mumbled, staring down at the ground beneath their feet. "What if...the opportunity's there, and you know you should walk away, and you know that you're about to do something really, really stupid and you...do it anyway."
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