[PRP] Ever enough [Helena Augusta x Adalaide]

[~Kiana_Nala~]

Helena as of late had grown rather uncertain about herself and her abilities. She wasn't the best fighter, she had no idea how to use her very minor healing abilities and she just felt like she was lacking in every aspect. It was fitting for the eldest daughter and it certainly wouldn't work if she was ever going to be able to manage the herd in some way. Recently she had heard rumors about a stallion who could teach her how to fight, however, she wasn't sure if she was quite ready to try and chase down that rumor. Helena had never left the safety and comfort of her family's herds. How was she going to manage going away for a few weeks if not longer? Her lack of confidence in her abilities was really wearing her down in most aspects. Helena Augusta wasn't the type to brood over these petty things but when she compared herself to her siblings, parents, let alone the rest of her extended family she felt she didn't measure up. At least not to what she should or could be.

A small flick of her unicorn tail was the only outward sign of her inner turmoil. Should she go? What if she did, then what? How would her family manage without her? Obviously they would survive but Helena was the type of mare who liked to believe she was depended on even if she really wasn't. Then again, that's all she wanted to be, depended on. "Decisions, decisions." Helena said out loud. Her blue eyes looked over the circular grove of flowers in curiosity. Sometimes she secretly imagined herself as one of the flowers growing in the grove. Her imagination wasn't too far off either. Helena stayed where she had budded, unable to move beyond it. She couldn't say if it was out of fear or just shear unwillingness to leave. Maybe it was different reason entirely? Helena just knew that leaving home seemed impossible and now that the opportunity had arrived it seemed like a bad idea. There weren't really many cons to leaving, she knew this full well because she had listed all of the pros and cons for several days now. Helena wondered if she should ask her siblings for their opinions. They were more daring than her, that was for sure.

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JetAlmeara

 

[JetAlmeara]

~Kiana_Nala~

Adalaide was completely oblivious to her sisters turmoil - oh not for lack of caring, if she had known that her sister was suffering so she likely would have stepped in to try and help. Adalaide was simply too busy pondering her own admittedly small problems to pay much attention to the fretting of others. Still when she happened across her sister, who was obviously deep in thought about something Adalaide simply couldn't help but pause in her stroll and head in her direction.

"Helena?" She asked softly as she approached not wanting to startle her sister whose attention was so obviously elsewhere. Adalaide had always been somewhat jealous of her sister...she was the oldest, the one most likely destined to take some sort of leadership role in the herd...which was the position Adalaide wanted for herself, but she had tried very hard to keep that jealousy from influencing her relationship with her sister. She did love her sister...she did. She just..wished she had been her.

Adalaide shook her head slightly, a physical attempt to shake these inner monsters from her mind and place her focus on the here and now. "Is something wrong? You seem unsettled.." She continued as she drew close enough for such quiet conversation.

 

[~Kiana_Nala~]

Adalaide wasn't the only one who found some quality in another sibling that she herself wanted to have. Helena found her sister and brother to both be admirable and at times she wanted to be them. Since she was a filly, Helena had put a heavy weight on her shoulders to be as good of an older sibling to them as she could, as well as a good eldest child to her mother. She'd never have realized though that Adalaide wanted to be more in her position. Today though, instead of thinking about her duties to her siblings she was more preoccupied to her duties as the eldest child. And maybe her own interests. Helena's thoughts were quickly disrupted though by her sisters appearance. She'd been so consumed in own head that she hadn't even heard the mare approaching. "Hello Adalaide." She replied, giving the best smile she could muster at the moment.

When her sister asked her what was wrong she felt her heart sting a bit. She hadn't meant to outwardly show her frustrations, especially to her sister. It wasn't fair to her. "I--was just thinking about how we should have had more training in combat." Helena wasn't sure just how much she should share. Her sister seemed to be off herself, she wondered what the shaking of her head meant but put it off. Maybe it wouldn't be that bad if she shared a little more of what had been bothering her. "Recently I heard a few rumors about a stallion who lives some distance from here who could potentially instruct me in combat. However, I don't think leaving would be a good idea." Helena confessed. If she was being honest, sharing this with her sister actually made her feel a bit better. She didn't like to trouble her siblings so admitting this did tug at her stomach but she shook it off. Her head was hurting from all this contemplating. Maybe this was a good time to bounce the idea off her sister.

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JetAlmeara

Sorry it's not that great. >w<;;