First off, let me say how happy I am
for you to have found someone like that. ^-^
Ok, in my eyes, you are not a coward. To love someone
so much that you'd push away your own desires is very admirable.
From what I read, it seems like your family knows that you want to be male,
yes? To me, putting up with people who don't want to tolerate someone else's
personal choices is brave enough.
(I am sorry that you only have
your boyfriend as support though, if you need to rant you can rant
to me. ~Is a creepy stranger~)
Anyways, I understand you want to make life easier for him, but
I'm sure he wants you to be happy too. It is not my place
to choose for you or to tell you you're wrong or right. o_o
If you're happy with the way things are, leave them be.
If you are not, change them.
Either way, from what I've read, it seems your boyfriend
will be there and support you all the way.
P.S.- If you're scared of losing him, talk to him about the
possible changed and express your fear to him.
Sorry if this made no sense, my English has been HORRIBLE
these past few months.