[Blessing] Better than Me [Mercy/Lull][Fin!]

[Ruriska]

He hated her. Hated her kindness. Hated her beauty. Hated how she made him feel. At first he had wanted to destroy her. To crush her. But then he had faced her and that desire had crumbled like an unsteady riverbank beneath his hooves. So he had pretended instead. No Mercy had put on an act better than he had ever had in his life. This time it didn’t falter, not like it had with those others does. They had known him for what he was. They had seen his innate cruelty. This one, this Paradise, would know nothing.

Tonight he would go back one last time. Then he would run until he no longer felt like a monster. But for now he rested on damp swamp ground, fury clawing at his heart. Oh, how he hated her.

anemosagkelos

 

[Ruriska]

A voice tore him out of his daydream of pummeling Paradise into a bloody, unattractive mess. His head jerked up and he blinked owlishly at the mare; his gaze moving slowly from her to the Owlcat and then back again. Interesting. The buck stood, rising to his hooves with a deep sigh.

“No. It’s not.” He stared at her, managing curiosity and hostility in the same expression. “It’s No Mercy.” He couldn't be bothered pretending for this one. He had done enough acting. While he made no move towards her, there was a stillness to him that suggested he could easily slip into violence.

anemosagkelos

 

[Ruriska]

"Want…?" He echoed and frowned with a childlike confusion. There had been anger a second before, for being laughed at, but that was gone now as he puzzled over the question. The way she spoke made him feel as though she had arrived for a specific purpose and expected a real answer.

What did he want? A lot of things. Most of them shallow. Deep down however, in the places he hated to look, there was the desire to have someone who understood him. He wanted to not be quite what he was. He wanted happiness. Yes, there were a lot of thing he wanted. But he would never have them.

"Nothing." He replied sharply.

anemosagkelos

 

[Ruriska]

His nostrils flared and all of a sudden No Mercy was afraid of this strange female with her unflinching stare and her questions. "Who are you?" He demanded, trying and failing to meet her gaze. "I want you to go away, that’s what I want." If he was honest with her about what he really wanted, it would mean being honest with himself and that was not something he was capable of handling.

He shifted uncomfortably, seeking an answer that would make her leave. Mercy doubted she would go anywhere until she was satisfied. "I want them to understand." He finally blurted out. Who them was and what exactly he wanted them to understand he didn't elaborate on.

anemosagkelos

 

[Ruriska]

Oh.

He’d heard of those.

When she mentioned a doe, No Mercy visibly flinched. Could she see into his head? Could she see how much he both desired Paradise and desired to hurt her? He lifted his head defiantly. "There’s always a doe." He thought of Cornice and Prowl. They had spurned him. He had shown them who he was and they had turned away in disgust.

"I won’t really hurt her," he admitted, expecting this legendary to understand exactly what he was talking about. "I just want one night. She’s different from the others."

anemosagkelos

Sorry he's so difficult. xD

 

[Ruriska]

anemosagkelos

<3

"I didn’t come to you. You came to me." No Mercy said, looking confused and a little desperate. He was doing his best to understand what she wanted from him. But his own nature was blocking his attempts to answer her questions properly.

"She’s not… I don’t…" He had offspring out there already. He barely knew them. Those he did know seemed to have as many issues as he did. If Paradise had his children, would they be the same? "Can you make them not like me?" Mercy asked, hissing out the words if they pained him.

This would be the first and last time he would ask for such a thing. This was the only gift he would ever try to give to any of his offspring.  

[Ruriska]

anemosagkelos

"Yes, yes. That will do." No Mercy gave a satisfied hiss. It felt as though he had done something good. Something right.

He studied the Legendary before and then suddenly closed his eyes, shutting her away. "You should go now." Mercy would remember this Legendary. He would hold onto his gratitude and hold the memory of her like a trophy.