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 Posted: Sun May 12, 2013 10:06 pm
I had a rather liberal upbringing & followed different philosophies I picked up here & there growing up before I truly found Jesus & knew for sure that I was saved.. I turned to books on tape about positive energy authored by "energy psychologist" by the name of Judith Orloff & learned things from some new age sources that felt comforting, freeing & empowering to me thew some tough times + I've always been the sensitive type who is a hopeless romantic, likes sappy love songs, fairy-tales & Disney movies, cries while watching commercials with sad abused animals that need help, and seems to soak up other peoples emotions & "vibes" like a sponge & gets all sorts of "intuitive" feelings about stuff for good or bad that are right most of the time about what I should or shouldn't do, how someone feels about something, how strongly they feel it, if I can or can't trust a person & even has dreams that predict stuff before it happens... basically I identify myself as what Judith Orloff calls an "intuitive empath" something I am not ashamed of & have tried to use as a strength/tool to help myself to understand the world around me & get threw life while helping others to understand themselves, overcome their own problems & come out of their shells & embrace who they are.
Here's where the confusion & problems begin though: My boyfriend comes from a family of uptight Baptists who raised him to believe that "the heart is wicked" as it says in the bible & that you can't trust it because it can misled you & send you down the wrong direction twords a road of painful mistakes & sins that aren't worth the risk of following it for the instant gratification of the moment & the chance it might be right... Honestly I want to fit in & I do believe (& had for a decent while before meeting my boyfriend) that there is a God who sent His Son Jesus Christ to die for us & save us from our sins & that He hears our prayers & answers them...
...but as much as I don't want to ruffle feathers by not trusting His word completely in favor letting my emotions guide me in place of God completely... I feel like I need to be true to myself & my "heart" & the feelings attached to it & want to believe that verse applies only to "the lost" & my heart is no longer wicked once Christ has entered into it & that as I've heard quoted by a person interviewed in my positive energy book "intuition is how God speaks to us & guides us" & that when people pray as I've heard them pray out loud in church the words "Lord speak into our hearts & minds & guide us to do your will as you see fit" He actually does and we can can feel it & follow it cuz we just know cuz it just "feels right" when we get on the right path God's trying to steer us down.
Am I right about that though? Or am I wrong? I'm not sure.. cuz on one hand I treasure my feelings my boyfriend & I share & see them as what brought us together & permanently cemented our bond & I feel like I'd be as unhappy & restricted as a caged bird with broken wings, plucked feathers & no voice to sing if I couldn't be free to follow my own heart & trust what I feel... but on the other hand I've also known my share of pain, abandonment & emotional scars from having had mixed results more often having my heart lead me the right way then wrong, but being a doozy of heart-breaker when it did go wrong. Is it perhaps being juggled around back & forth between God & the devil who are taking turns pulling the strings this way & that?
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What makes matters worse is that my boyfriend is also an "empath" having answered yes to all the same questions in the "are you an intuitive empath quiz" in my book as well as having been told by an ex-girl friend that he is an empath.. and he experiences other peoples emotions & can read them the same as I can & pick up on vibes like me, but he's reluctant to embrace his intuition & identity as an "empath" because the girl who told him he was a witch (for real) who told him that empaths are actually part "human & part fallen angel" meaning that demon blood flows threw his veins.. so he thinks that part of him is "evil"... and I feel sorry for him & want our future children to be able to follow their own hearts to what's right, and embrace emotions, intuition, feelings, and talents connected to it without being fearful like him if they turn out like us or even more sensitive. Is that wrong? Assuming the witch was right would it literally breed evil for 2 empaths to mate & then raise the children they bore to embrace their gifts?
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Posted: Mon May 13, 2013 7:40 am
I believe that God does want you to be true to yourself. Being true to yourself is part of being open and having a relationship with God. When the Bible talks about the "heart" they are talking about the seat of the soul. It encompasses both mind and feelings. Going off of feelings alone can lead one down roads they don't want to go down. Like the person that is "following their heart" while staying in an abusive relationship or the person who "follows their heart" in the pursuit of vengeance, it can lead you into some nasty places. Trusting only in scripture without proper understanding leads to madness (Westboro Baptist Church, those people who teach that it's gawd's will to beat their kids). As Paul and Jesus said, the written word does not save. The Bible is a tool but if you don't know how to use it, it's not going to be much help. Be honest with yourself absolutely, but be open minded to the fact that you could be mistaken on an issue, though Christ enters our hearts, we are human and prone to making mistakes. Don't let the fact that you can make mistakes dissuade you though, we have forgiveness as a free gift. If you are trying to do what is right and keep open minded and willing to change if you learn that you are wrong then you have nothing to fear. You can put faith in that.
As for that ex-girl friend who said your boyfriend was a witch or whatever, someone said it was superstitious nonsense. I agree with that person, it is superstitious nonsense and she sounds like a really toxic person. I would not give what she said any credit and I would encourage your boyfriend to disregard her as well.
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Posted: Mon May 13, 2013 10:49 am
rmcdra I believe that God does want you to be true to yourself. Being true to yourself is part of being open and having a relationship with God. When the Bible talks about the "heart" they are talking about the seat of the soul. It encompasses both mind and feelings. Going off of feelings alone can lead one down roads they don't want to go down. Like the person that is "following their heart" while staying in an abusive relationship or the person who "follows their heart" in the pursuit of vengeance, it can lead you into some nasty places. Trusting only in scripture without proper understanding leads to madness (Westboro Baptist Church, those people who teach that it's gawd's will to beat their kids). As Paul and Jesus said, the written word does not save. The Bible is a tool but if you don't know how to use it, it's not going to be much help. Be honest with yourself absolutely, but be open minded to the fact that you could be mistaken on an issue, though Christ enters our hearts, we are human and prone to making mistakes. Don't let the fact that you can make mistakes dissuade you though, we have forgiveness as a free gift. If you are trying to do what is right and keep open minded and willing to change if you learn that you are wrong then you have nothing to fear. You can put faith in that. As for that ex-girl friend who said your boyfriend was a witch or whatever, someone said it was superstitious nonsense. I agree with that person, it is superstitious nonsense and she sounds like a really toxic person. I would not give what she said any credit and I would encourage your boyfriend to disregard her as well. That's some good advice, I'll try to apply it
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