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Kindra hadn't been sleeping well, oh she'd gotten enough to make sure she didn't have dark circles under her eyes anymore but no matter how long she stayed in Trine she didn't think she could ever get used to the heat at nights, some were chilly and she preferred those nights.

She'd been sitting up herself, a glow dim but giving enough light to see by without disturbing Narisa on the other side of the room, poring over some maps of the areas around Trine, trying to decide where she'd take Suunath when Cephieth rose, Kindra knew it had to be soon because the other Gold was slightly older than Suunath but from previous talks with Narisa she knew Cephieth hadn't risen yet. Although she wasn't really paying much attention to any other dragon except her Suunath, well, not close enough to tell if the other young Gold was ready to rise yet, she didn't think it would hurt to be prepared beforehand, rather than only having perhaps a few days to find a spot to take Suunath to. Since who knows, the other Gold might be one of those that gives NO warning whatsoever before suddenly glowing and blooding her kills.

She was studying a particular area that looked interesting when she heard the shifting from the other side and Narisa's voice rose, suddenly loud in the room despite the woman keeping her tone low.

"Freaked out doesn't even begin to cover it" she sighed, putting the map down and turning to face her friend. "I wouldn't know about true preparing my end, Kheth and Suunath were the only Golds back home at the time, well ... you know why" she sighed and rubbed her face "That sharding fool of a Bronzerider can only tell you so much, you've probably had more training than i did before Abigail's coma" She paused as she thought back to Suunath's Flight. "I'm Holdborn... and well ..... as much as i try i can't be 100% comfortable with Weyr life and i'm glad Suunath doesn't rise as often as a Green"

She considered Narisa for a bit, thinking about trying to reassure her but Kindra was nothing if not blunt, plus Narisa had seen her after Z'fer had left the room, she and N'mol the only two people who had ever seen her so vulnerable. "It's terrifying .. it's like your gold has suddenly changed completely from whatever reason they had.. to nothing bur rage and lust and the urge to kill and eat, then you have to get your thoughts to yourself, impose everything you have to make her just blood it ... nothing i've ever done has really been harder because you've got to force your will onto her but al she wants to do is tear and rend and kill" She closed her eyes and rubbed her face a little "Then when she was flying, it's like being on the back of her when she's flying but it's different, it's almost as if you merge and it's YOU flying, you get less aware of the people around you and you're mostly just HER, like... the you, down on the ground is a sort of daydream" she smiled a little "It was amazing and terrifying all at the same time, She's all lust but wanting to force the males chasing to prove themselves and you're trying to hold onto some of yourself as well"

Her eyes darkened a little as she remembered the last part "When she's caught.. for a few moments you lose yourself in your dragon's emotions, there's no You or Her... there's just .. well the both of you but you're not separate anymore" she cleared her throat and took a sip of the water set on the small table at the end of her bed "i remember fighting Z'fer because he wasn't who i wanted, oh i accepted him eventually.. but then.. you know all that" She took a deep breath "It wasn't really all that bad but something i'd prefer to forget" she sipped her water again "Narisa... find someone you would accept before it happens.... so you don't have regrets afterwards" she said, her tone, her eyes full of complete honesty and conviction, she didn't want Narisa to have to suffer regrets like she had.