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Posted: Tue Mar 12, 2013 7:02 pm
From the moment he had left the Hatching, I'saak had taken refuge with Nicoth, seeking comfort in what was now the only familiar thing at the Weyr. The events of the day, the clutch - he didn't know what to think, anymore. All he knew was that it wasn't what he had expected, and wasn't what he had wanted. And Nicoth had sensed his distress and converged around him in a knot of neck and tail and wings, coiling so close that she was cramping herself as she shielded him from harm. Eventually, though, they had both relented somewhat, and Nicoth had unfolded to let I'saak watch the sky.
It was how he knew that they had come. That he had come.
It was only fear of what he would find on the Sands that kept him back when he saw the formation bursting into the sky from between. Only worry that he would see something he never wanted to see again that kept him from getting up and running when he saw that pale bronze angle toward the ground. J'car. It was J'car. But he hadn't wanted to see it, hadn't wanted to see J'car's reaction to the chaos he could hear, even from his weyr. So he had stayed in the warm circle of Nicoth's hide, listening to the slow, syncopated rhythm of her massive hearts and trying his damnedest to calm himself down.
He wasn't sure how long it had been. Hours, probably. He wondered where the Watch would be quartered. If it would be considered untoward to offer his space to J'car, who had spent so many nights with him before the accident.
Who hadn't seen him for more than a few minutes since the accident. The last time they had spoken, I'saak had told him to forget. Forget about him, about what they had, go back to his weyrmate and his son and not get caught up on what might have been. And yet here J'car was, months later, no doubt having volunteered as part of the envoy of the new Weyrwoman (Nicoth had informed him of the gold's presence, even when he had stopped watching the skies).
It was too much to hope that J'car had come with him foremost in mind. But at the same time... he had missed him.
He had missed him a lot.
Do you want me to speak to Tauvolanth and tell him how to find us? Nicoth asked, her voice surprisingly quiet. She didn't remember the bronze well, but what she had plucked from her rider's mind had left her feeling strangely amenable to him. I'saak seemed to recall them getting along. Nicoth would give it the benefit of the doubt.
"...if you want to," he said quietly, uncurling a little and wincing. How long had he been sitting in this position?
His dragon took the comment as the request it was and opened her mind, seeking out the bronze hesitantly. It had been a long time since she had voluntarily initiated conversation with a dragon. Tauvolanth? Tell your rider I'saak of Nicoth wants him. It was curt, but not unkind, and it included an image of the weyr where they stayed. As friendly as Nicoth had been in nine months.
Done, she said softly, and nuzzled I'saak's hair.
"Thank you, love."
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Posted: Tue Mar 12, 2013 7:45 pm
There were not many dragons who would cuddle Nicoth with impunity. There were not many dragons who would either want or dare to try. But only a few syncopated heartbeats after Nicoth sent the image, a sharding enormous bronze popped out of between above I’saak’s weyr, then circled in to land with a heavy groundshaking thump.
(Tauvolanth’s landings had never been the best. He was an awful lot of bronze, and when he wasn’t carrying a passenger important enough to merit a delicate landing, he tended to just let gravity work in his favor.)
And as soon as he hit the ground, he moved over to the green and the greenrider, crooning a deep bass note so low that it practically vibrated the air, and he nuzzled Nicoth’s side without any apparent concern that she would turn and maul him. Even if she did, he honestly would likely take it in stride. This was Tauvolanth, after all. He tended to deal with problems by sitting on them until they ceased to be problems. (Like that snappy brown from before. It worked, didn’t it?) I’saak in particular got a remarkably delicate touch with the tip of the bronze’s nose, and a hot blast of dragon breath blown on his hair.
Glad to see you’re doing okay. J’car’s finishing up with the Warden and the Weyrwoman, but he’ll be over as soon as he can.
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Posted: Tue Mar 12, 2013 8:11 pm
At the sight of that familiar silhouette, I'saak's heart leaped a little, but it wasn't long before he realized the bronze came alone. He sighed out his breath - which he didn't realize he had been holding - in a single long gust, reaching up and stroking the suede-soft muzzle. "Glad to see you're okay, too," he said to Tauvolanth, speaking to the dragon as easily as he might have spoken to another person. But his voice was subdued. He was okay physically, but he was...not well, emotionally. He hadn't been since the accident.
Nicoth nudged him gently in reassurance before yanking her head up and staring at Tauvolanth with an expression that was nearly insulted. He was nuzzling her - he was nuzzling her without even giving her the proper opportunity to threaten him, first. She should bite him for his impunity -
Oh, stop it. You used to like this. I'saak cut into his dragon's mind quickly, trying to minimize casualties. Nicoth snorted, still staring at Tauvolanth and lashing her tail.
I don't believe you.
You did.
I should bite him.
Please don't, Nicoth. I've had a long enough day already.
It was the weariness in her rider's voice that finally did stop Nicoth, and she huffed quietly, slumping down and curving her neck so she was once again loosely circled around her rider. She would consent to the bronze being near her, for now, for her rider's sake...but she scooted a little bit away from him so their bodies weren't actually touching.
And I'saak closed his eyes and tried to pretend things were okay again while he waited for J'car.
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Posted: Tue Mar 12, 2013 8:24 pm
Tauvolanth snorted at Nicoth before unceremoniously flopping himself down in her wallow; he sprawled out so that he wasn’t touching the green, precisely, but his muzzle was still close enough that I’saak could reach out and touch him as he pleased. We missed you. He’s coming as quick as he can.
It had taken longer than he liked to help settle in the weyrlings, run damage control with the Weyrlingmaster, greet the Warden properly, and do his duty as the Weyrwoman’s honor guard. He hadn’t been expecting to see Warden’s in such miserable conditions as it was. But even if the layout of Warden’s was unfamiliar, J’car had a sense of which way his dragon had slouched off to, and it was hardly difficult to find I’saak’s weyr.
J’car hooked a hand around one of Tauvolanth’s headknobs, and used it as a handhold to hoist himself over the coils of green that surrounded I’saak like a wall of dragon. Then the younger bronzerider settled himself in next to I’saak, leaning his shoulder against the greenrider’s. As if nothing had ever changed between them. As if the past few months had never happened at all.
“Hey. Come here.” And he held out an arm to pull I’saak into a rough hug.
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Posted: Tue Mar 12, 2013 8:45 pm
And then the sound of footsteps. Nicoth lifted her head and growled a little, a warning sound that died in her throat as I'saak put a hand on her. He could feel his heart rate rise with anticipation before J'car was even close - couldn't help himself - and the yawning ache in his chest that he had barely noticed before was suddenly all-consuming. He had been so lonely since the accident - so desperately lonely. He needed this. How had he ever lived without this.
When J'car finally clambered into the increasingly-complex dragon pile and sat down, I'saak barely gave him time to settle in before he had his arms around him. He buried his face in J'car's shoulder and clung to him like he might disappear at any second, breathing coming fast and irregular as he tried to stave off the breakdown.
"You're here. You're really here, thank Faranth."
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Posted: Tue Mar 12, 2013 9:06 pm
J’car wore a puzzled expression, perhaps surprised by the intensity of I’saak’s greeting. But he wrapped one arm around his former wingrider soothingly, patting I’saak’s shoulder and speaking in a soft, low, steady voice. “Yeah. It’s me. I’m really here.”
Rider and dragon exchanged a brief look of concern. Things here at the prison weyr had gotten completely out of hand. He was going to be writing a very long, very angry letter to Watchleader T’aku once he was done here. If the discontent and misery he’d observed thus far was any indication – and not just from prisoners, but from guards – there were some drastic changes necessary, and as soon as possible.
“What happened, I’saak?”
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Posted: Tue Mar 12, 2013 9:15 pm
The question he didn't want to answer. Of course J'car would ask it - no doubt they had seen the mess on the Sands and he'd need to know what was happening, but I'saak didn't want to think any more about it than he had already. It had been - not traumatic. But it had changed the way he saw everything, opened his eyes to the actual reality of the Weyr. This was a prison for the riders as much as the prisoners.
"The hatching -" he began, and his voice cracked. He took a deep breath, closed his eyes, tried to get himself calm enough that he didn't end up crying on J'car. It wasn't upset, but relief. J'car was Watch. J'car could do something about this.
"- was a disaster," was all he managed to get out. How was he supposed to explain what had happened, put to words everything that had come to pass? It had been terrible, all of it had been terrible, and a dragonet had been shot by his current wingleader and I'saak didn't know where to turn anymore. He had nowhere to go. This was the beginning and end of all of it.
"I want to go home."
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Posted: Thu Mar 14, 2013 7:53 am
Faranth, poor I’saak. The greenrider had always been sensitive, a surprisingly delicate man under the big sturdy smith exterior. The Watch hardened some people, in time, but I’saak had never been one of them. He tightened his grip as Tauvolanth kept up that deep gentle crooning, as if they could communicate without words it’s all right, it’s all right, you’re safe with us. J’car wasn’t the kind of man who was good with displays of emotion, but if I’saak needed to let it out, better to do it here in the company of those who would comfort him, rather than in front of someone who would use it as a weapon against him.
“I know,” J’car admitted softly. He hadn’t been in favor of the transfer. He had, in fact, fought against it viciously. But the healers were adamant that I’saak was no longer suitable for Watch-work, that pushing him so soon after the accident would break him permanently. And shards, J’car wasn’t a healer, so he’d believed them. All he could do for I’saak was write him the kindest transfer papers he could (and strenuous instructions about where I’saak’s talents would be most suitable) and hope for the best for him.
But they couldn’t ignore evidence of this level of abuse. “I want to take you home. I’m going to talk to Watchleader T’aku. Either we’re going to be making some drastic changes here, or when I leave you’re coming with me. I’ll make it work.”
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Posted: Sat Mar 16, 2013 4:02 pm
They were words he wanted to hear, but words that broke him up a little on the inside, as well. He had hoped J'car would have moved on, would have found someone else and left it at that. The obvious implication that the bronzerider hadn't let go of the feelings any more than I'saak had was both heartening and devastating. "Tell him it's gone mad here," he said softly. "That the Watch at Warden's has gone insane." T'di's disappearance. Brakiheth's death. Kaelyandra's...performance. M'onk, ordering C'ross to kill a baby dragon. C'ross complying. "This isn't how dragonriders are supposed to behave. We're guards, but...we're not outside the law."
He wasn't sure where to go from there, and shook his head. Slowly, he sat up, disentangling slightly from J'car to look at him. Faranth, he didn't know how long the Watch would be with them, but even a little time was better than none. Even under circumstances like this. "Where are you supposed to stay?" he asked quietly, taking a few deep breaths and composing himself so he could look at J'car again. "Because...if you don't have a place yet, I wouldn't mind you staying with me."
Quiet, a little awkward. It was strange, since the last time they had talked it had been...quite final. But I'saak wasn't going to let the opportunity pass without at least offering.
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Posted: Sun Mar 17, 2013 8:31 am
J’car glanced over at Tauvolanth uneasily, a little bit hesitant. But he’d never been one to care much about appearances of fraternization – if Tau caught a green, then he caught a green, and it didn’t mean anything except that J’car was friendly and chronically polyamorous. And while he did have a weyrmate and son back home, Damara was perfectly aware that sometimes her wayward bronzerider took up with handsome greenriders and it didn’t bother her. (She’d approved of I’saak, actually.) Still…
“I have quarters of my own, officially. The Warden was kind enough to offer us hospitality befitting our status as Watchriders,” he remarked ironically, deliberately using the fancy phrasing that he usually scorned. All this politics and courtesy, as far as J’car was concerned you could stuff it. He didn’t want people to use polysyllabic words at him just because his dragon was big and male. “But I don’t mind staying here for a while.”
But there were official matters to attend to as well. “Can you give me more specifics on what happened here? I know it’s painful to revisit, but… I need to be as specific as possible in my report to the Watch. There’s a lot of higher-ups who remember M’onk’s name, and it would take damning evidence to get them to hear anything against him.”
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Posted: Sun Mar 17, 2013 5:31 pm
The irony in J'car's voice made I'saak grimace. Not because he thought the special treatment of the Watch was a bad thing, necessarily, but because it was one more reminder that I'saak wasn't Watch anymore. He was already opening his mouth to tell J'car nevermind, that he understood and it had been stupid to offer anyway, when the bronzerider accepted his invitation. "At least tonight?" he requested softly. "I know it's selfish, but -"
And then J'car was asking him to explain what had happened. As much as I'saak didn't want to go over any of it, he couldn't deny that the request was an important one. Probably the only way I'saak could help the Watch anymore. Sighing, he shifted so he was leaning against J'car, closing his eyes as he thought. "I guess it started with Brakiheth, really," he said softly. "Or...I guess with Kaelyandra. Brakiheth was sickly. And then...she died one morning. And M'onk called the Candidates to the Sands to watch what happens when someone's dragon leaves them behind."
He fell quiet, shaking his head. As far as I'saak was concerned, it was like asking Candidates to the Sands to watch someone eviscerated. It was wrong and there was no reason for it. "From what I hear, he wouldn't let them leave until wherhandlers kicked up a fuss."
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