....and i'm not in college either....yet..... (was)
Background:
Well, today my mom came and talked to me. She and I had a bit of a heart to heart about her not wanting to see me make mistakes and fail in life and asked if i'd take a look and consider looking at a community college again.
I graduated Spring 2010 from high school originally and went to a community city in the downtown area of where I live. Things didn't go well. She mentioned the community college I went to and one, I failed my second semester and have been on academic probation, but I never told my parents, instead I went to vocational school after telling them I despised the community college I was in. And, I did. I even got a job. But, I lost my job back on June 19th last year, been unemployed since due to a car wreck and financial issues first, then got chronically sick due to stress, and lost several friends, and even got out of touch with religion.
I didn't know what was wrong with me and neither did the specialist, but we narrowed it down to intussusception that happens when I get stressed and IBD. I had severe case. Anywho, I made a promise that if I got better, I would turn my life around. And, I got better back around December 17th, got back in touch with God more, and have financial issues settled now.
Back to the story, so anyways, after I told mom why I couldn't go (for certain reasons, not the failing, I have other reasons) she mentioned another community college that's the same distance from the house, only in the opposite direction where she lived, out in a small town in the country. The college is much cheaper than the first community college for one.
So, she said if I went, they would help pay for everything. I was excited. My sister and her husband both work in a different part of the state at 2 different colleges having their masters degrees in teaching but my sister is head of the art department and her husband is working towards getting his doctorate and is working as a history teacher at another college. So, they said they could definitely hook me up with grants and scholarships and help me out with anything and everything college related if I was unsure. I'm pretty much set and happy.
Well, today my mom came and talked to me. She and I had a bit of a heart to heart about her not wanting to see me make mistakes and fail in life and asked if i'd take a look and consider looking at a community college again.
I graduated Spring 2010 from high school originally and went to a community city in the downtown area of where I live. Things didn't go well. She mentioned the community college I went to and one, I failed my second semester and have been on academic probation, but I never told my parents, instead I went to vocational school after telling them I despised the community college I was in. And, I did. I even got a job. But, I lost my job back on June 19th last year, been unemployed since due to a car wreck and financial issues first, then got chronically sick due to stress, and lost several friends, and even got out of touch with religion.
I didn't know what was wrong with me and neither did the specialist, but we narrowed it down to intussusception that happens when I get stressed and IBD. I had severe case. Anywho, I made a promise that if I got better, I would turn my life around. And, I got better back around December 17th, got back in touch with God more, and have financial issues settled now.
Back to the story, so anyways, after I told mom why I couldn't go (for certain reasons, not the failing, I have other reasons) she mentioned another community college that's the same distance from the house, only in the opposite direction where she lived, out in a small town in the country. The college is much cheaper than the first community college for one.
So, she said if I went, they would help pay for everything. I was excited. My sister and her husband both work in a different part of the state at 2 different colleges having their masters degrees in teaching but my sister is head of the art department and her husband is working towards getting his doctorate and is working as a history teacher at another college. So, they said they could definitely hook me up with grants and scholarships and help me out with anything and everything college related if I was unsure. I'm pretty much set and happy.
Now the problem:
I put it on facebook earlier today, got a couple people happy for me and it was nice. I mean, I'm taking a big step again, getting back on my feet. I'm really happy.
I planned this fall to go to the small-town community college and take the small business management program. along if it goes well, other programs so I'd major in business. I'm going to call the school over the next couple days and learn more. Plus, I can go to school for this college at a variety of locations the college owns. The college is 30-45 minutes away, but the closest I can take classes (depending on the subject) I can go to school 5 minutes away. I will start with my associates and work my way up if i enjoy it.
My friend and her grandmother both go to another college in a town right beside downtown. It's a national college. They are actually majoring in business themselves and taking the classes together. Well, her grandmother was kinda pushing the national college on me, trying to get me to go. I was being polite, telling her grandmother i'd consider, but told her why i was wanting to go to go to the small-town college. She'd say things like, "oh that sounds great! But, you should really look into these programs here." and it made me uncomfortable. And, my friend was wondering why I chose the small town college also. Originally while I was jobless and sick, they kept asking if I was going back to college. Honestly, I was planning on just finding a job for now, so I told them I was jobhunting. And they said I should go to school with them during that time.
I'm really empathetic. I know they mean well, I know it's my choice and I shouldn't worry. It's just, it's a big decision for me and honestly I'd like to try an experience on my own. And small town college is a good choice. I don't think any if very very few people I went to school with go to the small town college. most of them go to the college i failed in. plus the majority that were in my class have passed community college and are in a 4 year, the military, or have graduated college. I really just want a breathe of fresh air. A new experience for myself. And, this is the way to do it for me. it feels right. And, I'm going to the small town college still despite the peer pressure.
It's just, I'm going to hear a lot of beef about it until April 1st when I sign up for classes. I don't want my stress sickness to come back, which started from stress. And drama causes the stress sickness. I meditate/relax, do anything I can. It's just what do I do about this peer pressure? I did okay for now. I handled the situation well. It's just, how do I deal with it coming back up soon? I feel bad for how I handled the situation, but I did it the right way so I don't regret it.
GAAAAAAAH! Peer pressure is not cool. sad
I put it on facebook earlier today, got a couple people happy for me and it was nice. I mean, I'm taking a big step again, getting back on my feet. I'm really happy.
I planned this fall to go to the small-town community college and take the small business management program. along if it goes well, other programs so I'd major in business. I'm going to call the school over the next couple days and learn more. Plus, I can go to school for this college at a variety of locations the college owns. The college is 30-45 minutes away, but the closest I can take classes (depending on the subject) I can go to school 5 minutes away. I will start with my associates and work my way up if i enjoy it.
My friend and her grandmother both go to another college in a town right beside downtown. It's a national college. They are actually majoring in business themselves and taking the classes together. Well, her grandmother was kinda pushing the national college on me, trying to get me to go. I was being polite, telling her grandmother i'd consider, but told her why i was wanting to go to go to the small-town college. She'd say things like, "oh that sounds great! But, you should really look into these programs here." and it made me uncomfortable. And, my friend was wondering why I chose the small town college also. Originally while I was jobless and sick, they kept asking if I was going back to college. Honestly, I was planning on just finding a job for now, so I told them I was jobhunting. And they said I should go to school with them during that time.
I'm really empathetic. I know they mean well, I know it's my choice and I shouldn't worry. It's just, it's a big decision for me and honestly I'd like to try an experience on my own. And small town college is a good choice. I don't think any if very very few people I went to school with go to the small town college. most of them go to the college i failed in. plus the majority that were in my class have passed community college and are in a 4 year, the military, or have graduated college. I really just want a breathe of fresh air. A new experience for myself. And, this is the way to do it for me. it feels right. And, I'm going to the small town college still despite the peer pressure.
It's just, I'm going to hear a lot of beef about it until April 1st when I sign up for classes. I don't want my stress sickness to come back, which started from stress. And drama causes the stress sickness. I meditate/relax, do anything I can. It's just what do I do about this peer pressure? I did okay for now. I handled the situation well. It's just, how do I deal with it coming back up soon? I feel bad for how I handled the situation, but I did it the right way so I don't regret it.
GAAAAAAAH! Peer pressure is not cool. sad
