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 Posted: Sat Jan 19, 2013 10:20 am
He'd lost track of how many days it had been, it felt like a lifetime. Rep this morning was sprawled out across four chairs he'd put in a row to sleep on, covered by a sheet he'd managed to commandeer from a sympathetic life tech. He was still wearing the same outfit Jerry had brought days ago and looked like a disaster, he hadn't brushed his hair, hadn't washed, hadn't done anything much that meant leaving the bedside and not being able to take B0nez with him. Even as he slept, he kept the totem loosely held in one hand. What sleep he'd managed to garner had been awkward and uncomfortable. The morning light shining in, weak and foggy through the window stirred him out of fitful dreams and he sat up, cracking stiff tendons and ignoring the protests of neglected muscles. He hadn't trained in longer than he ever had and it felt like already he was wasting away, he was looking gaunt and already looked a decade older than he was, bristle and weak moustache taking up residence on his face, rich ginger flecked with blonde here and there.
"Morning Ace." he said, he'd stopped hoping for a reply.
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Posted: Sat Jan 19, 2013 11:10 am
It had been days since the 'incident'. Rin had chosen to give Rep his space in quiet hopes Harrison might just... stir to at any minute and that they could reunite in private. That hope seemed... almost silly now. It's been days. Rin cracked the door open just enough to check in again. Rep is almost decomposing before her very eyes and unlike Harrison, there wasn't very much left physically to keep the man ticking away. The sight made her heart sink and her gut clench with unease. It can't be left any longer.
Rin peeled away from the door and ran to gather a cart of supplies that she felt were emergency supplies, despite the seemingly random items she had chosen. Upon her return she finally pushed the door open with a clattering racket of goods; food, colouring books, various activities, and other goods and sundries, but oddly enough something that appeared to be a fur blanket.
"Morning," she tried to sound cheerful but came off sounding more confused than anything else.
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Posted: Sat Jan 19, 2013 11:16 am
It took Rep a while to register that there was anyone else in the room with him. He'd taken to almost blanking out everything around him that might count as a distraction, his first instinct was that the cart was a cleaning one, sometimes people came in to tidy or keep the infirmary ticking as normal and he ignored them, letting disturbances wash over him. When it registered that the voice was familiar, his gaze flicked up from the floor to Rin.
"Morning." he said blankly.
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Posted: Sat Jan 19, 2013 11:21 am
He looked like he was dying. This was a thought Rin quickly squashed under her heel as she proceeded to approach. Her voice was soft as she spoke, "Hey... I brought you some things but..." But he really needed a bath. <******** hell. She held her breath for a moment as she tried to turn to get a bit of fresh air as she grabbed a plate of hot food she acquired just for him. "Here, you really need to eat."
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Posted: Sat Jan 19, 2013 11:29 am
Rep eyed the food she'd brought with a twist of nausea. Apparently not eating for a while played merry hell with your appetite. He'd been getting used to the twist of gnawing hunger, the discomfort of it somehow complimentary to the self-imposed discomfort of his situation.
Tracey said grimly.
"I'm no really hungry." he said with a slight frown. "I'm no moving around and s**t, I'm probably okay."
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Posted: Sat Jan 19, 2013 11:51 am
Probably? "Not even close to alright," Rin frowned deeply at him. "You look like you've been locked in a dungeon for weeks." Rin approached closer with the plate of bacon, eggs and oatmeal. Hoping the scent of it might bring him around a little. "I also brought hot cocoa. The good stuff."
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Posted: Sat Jan 19, 2013 12:00 pm
"It doesn't matter." he said, apparently nothing much did lately. "I just. I can't." Couldn't do anything, couldn't get out of the rut, didn't want to. He eyed the food. "I don't know how much of it I could eat, I feel like. Kind of sick." Even the idea of his favourite hot chocolate made him cringe, sweet things, pleasant tastes, they all felt somehow distant and blasphemous to him right now in this limbo he'd put himself into. "I think it might be a bit rich for me right now. You can have the hot chocolate."
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Posted: Sat Jan 19, 2013 12:50 pm
"No," she insisted. Placing the food in front of him, "Just have what you can, do you really want to be a dried up husk when he wakes up?" If he wakes up. Rin frowned very quickly but amended it when she convinced herself Harrison was too tough to go out like this. "He'll be so mad you let it get this bad."
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Posted: Sat Jan 19, 2013 1:16 pm
"Well tough for him. I'll be mad he let me get this bad right back at him." It somehow felt good to imagine yelling at Harrison for being a daft git and passing out like this, it made him think of a future where he could, where there was nothing but drawn out forever now with no reprieve or end in sight. "And if I did dry up then that wouldn't be my problem any more."
He picked up some bacon and made himself eat it regardless. It tasted all wrong to him, probably from not eating all that much of late. It helped him sleep at the very least.
"I just want him to wake up, why is that so much to ask?" he couldn't help the almost childish plea at the injustice of his situation.
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Posted: Sat Jan 19, 2013 1:57 pm
"It's not," Rin answered as she reached to grab a glass of water instead and offer that. "I still think you need a bath though. And a shave. ... and maybe some new clothes, too."
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Posted: Sat Jan 19, 2013 3:11 pm
Rep shook his head. "I'm awright. It's no like I'm going out to a diner or something man. I'm just sitting here." He actually reached up to run a finger across his top lip at the mention of a shave, minorly surprised at how much of a creepy 'stache he'd developed. He'd been so detached. "I don't feel like it." He didn't feel like letting go of b0nez to keep him away from the water.
"I'm fine." he said, taking a long swig of the water.
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Posted: Sat Jan 19, 2013 3:17 pm
"Now don't start lying to me," Rin's expression looked a bit more serious as she moved to stand even closer. Braving the stench for Rep's side. "You aren't fine."
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Posted: Sat Jan 19, 2013 3:29 pm
He didn't have the energy to lie, and it was pointless trying to pretend he was allright when he hadn't managed to leave where he was in days and could see no end in sight. "Maybe not. But I don't want to do anything. I don't want to.." he sighed heavily. "I don't want to leave. I looked away for just a ******** minute and he was gone. And like, what if he never wakes up? I don't.. I don't know what I'll do Rin."
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Posted: Sat Jan 19, 2013 4:22 pm
"There's no point in what ifs. You aren't doing him or yourself any favours," Rin reached out to try and touch Rep's shoulder. "All you're doing is torturing yourself for no reason." Rin looked a bit stung as she shifted the hand from Rep's shoulder to stroke the side of his scraggly beard, "And as a result torturing everyone who cares about you."
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Posted: Sat Jan 19, 2013 4:41 pm
"There's no point in what ifs is why I'm not expecting him to wake up." he said wearily. "I know I'm hurting other people. Jordan needs me too. But I just. I got into habits. Like. I just functioned better. I didn't even realise like." he patted her hand "I didn't realise how much he was propping me up till he wasn't anymore. He was just fine with me claiming him, saying he was mine and that was that. But I guess it went both ways, the more I tried to like, control his life and keep him in my sight, the more like, my life got focused on him. Routine and everything. I don't want to go through the day without those routines."
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