I'm a girl.
I'm 18 years old.
My birthday is February 15th, 2008.
My dream job is becoming an artist or musician. Or both, I suppose... I'm not really sure what I want to do with my life...
My blood status is unprejudiced pureblood.
This is my graduate at Hogwarts.
The house I'm in is Hufflepuff.
I'm interested in men.
I'm currently with no one, not anymore...
People say that, in a nutshell, I'm responsible, mature, private, resourceful, caring, and loyal. I have taken care of my sisters and myself since I was a little girl, and I'm the only one they can depend on. As a result, I a good deal more mature than most sixteen year olds. People always think I'm older than I am, which can come in handy. I don't like to talk much about my family and am wary of nosy people. I am always prepared for any situation and usually know what to do in an emergency. I care a lot about my sisters and others, too. I am very sympathetic and good at giving advice. I will always stick by my sisters and defend them. We have a bond that cannot be broken, no matter what happens.
My background story is I was born and raised in Upper Barnton. I live with my father, Mitchell, and my sisters, Elsbeth and Morven, who are twelve and ten. I'm a pureblood. I'm not a supremacist, though. My mother, Rhiannon, died when I was six, after being killed by a werewolf. I was present during the attack, and she sacrificed her life to save me. My father has never told me or my sisters that he loved us since that night. I secretly resent him for it, just like I know he resents me for killing my mother. He has never really been much of a father figure, though I am grateful that he has never taken out his grief on us. He just doesn't really treat us like his daughters, more like distant relatives he has to put up with living in his house. I've had to be both a mother and a father to my sisters. My sisters are my life.
My first year at Hogwarts was wonderful. I was sorted into Hufflepuff to my delight and my father's consternation. I don't know why he cares. Being by myself at school without my sisters to take care of was hard, but I grew to love Hogwarts. It became my new home. I made several great friendsand I even joined the Music Club! And... I met Jay, my now boyfriend! He's in Gryffindor and is the best guy ever, at least in my eyes. He's so easy to talk to and he really listens to me. I haven't told anyone else yet; this is all so new!
My second year was even better. It was Jay and I's first official year as boyfriend and girlfriend, and my friends did find out... I guess I should have told them myself, eh? But it all worked out anyways. Chloe and Charlotte, my two best friends, are great. They don't pry or ask too many questions, and I'm always laughing when I'm with them. Unlike at home. I also told Jay about what happened to my mother. he helped me see that maybe it wasn't really my fault. I know she wouldn't want me to blame myself. Perhaps this summer I can finally grow a spine and start standing up to my father...
Right before I left for my third year I put Father in his place. It felt really good to actually let myself get mad at him for once, and I think I made an impression. I suppose we'll find out this summer... The year was okay, nothing much happened, really. I didn't see a lot of Jay, which stunk. But I'm sure I'll run into him this summer at some point. We do live in the same town, after all.
I guess I really should have known it couldn't last. Me being happy, I mean.
The beginning of the end was in the summer. We all went to the circus, Jay, my sisters, and I. I let Elsie and Morven go off by themselves for a little while, since I wanted to dance with Jay at the Masquerade Ball. What followed has been giving me nightmares ever since. A bunch of dark wizards attacked, and Jay and I barely got out with our lives, Then we found my sisters, about to be tortured by some sick, twisted murderer, and what followed was running for our lives while trying to defend ourselves. Jayden took a lot of spells meant for us, and I guess that's what caused it... his illness. It turns out he had a rare condition that means he couldn't be healed magically, and one of the curses that hit him was long lasting and didn't truly take affect until after the whole event... All I could do was watch him slowly fade away until he finally passed the winter of my fourth year. It all happened so quickly, I was completely numb. I still am, I guess. I'm not sure if Jayden was The One, and I guess I'll never know, but I did love him, and he was like a big brother to my sisters. He was the one thing that made going home not so bad, because I knew I'd always see him, since he lived in the same town. Now I have nothing. I can't sing; my voice doesn't seem to really work like that anymore, and music makes my head ache. My hands shake when I draw. I dream about him at night, him and my mother. Two people I love who have died. Who's next? My best friend? My sisters? Can I ever really be happy? I have nothing to look forward to anymore.
I guess... I guess I've kind of moved on. Nothing much happened this year. There was the festival... I don't want to talk about it. It's just another horrible thing I witnessed. All that matters is that no one else died because of me. Chloe got made one of the heads of Music Club. I'm happy for her of course, and she's dating Sun now... is it alright if I'm envious? Her life just seems to be going so well.. and mine is on the verge of falling apart. I suppose I'm doing better... I'm trying to focus on my music and art again. I want to learn violin. Elsie was a first year this past year, which was nice. It's never been just us, without Morven. She loves Hogwarts, of course. I do hope Morven was alright this past year..home with Father...
I've become friends with Miles McLellan, which is good, because I really do need more friends... and he's nice. Funny, too, even if his jokes are cheesy. They make me laugh. We ran into each other over the summer and talked, and then more so at school. Things were, well, I- he's a werewolf. I figured it out when I found him coming out of the forest one morning. I can't believe I didn't see it before. I was awful about it. He's a saint for putting up with me. But I'd never tell anyone about it, of course. He's got enough on his shoulders. I may have accidentally revealed that I... care. More than a simple friend should. He hasn't brought it up and neither have I and that's fine. One more year of Hogwarts, then I'm done, and if Father hasn't left, then we will. Right now I just need to focus on my upcoming NEWTs and have a good seventh year. How hard could that be?
Well, Morven got bit by a werewolf over the summer. So there was that. My final year was stressful. I wanted to be done with everything, but at the same time I didn't. I got through my NEWTs, though. And I made sure Morven had Wolfsbane to take all year. And I tried to keep Elsie happy too but Morven ended up telling her, of course, and they got into some sort of spat over it. Now they refuse to talk to each other. I'm worried about this summer. I don't know what my plans are, or anything like that. I'll need to get a job of some sort, obviously, but what about my sisters? What about Father? I'm afraid there will end up being a huge fight over who exactly is leaving the house. I won't leave with Elsie and Morven. But is he going to just leave? I have no idea.
I enjoy chatting, cooking, drawing, hanging out with my sisters, and music.
I despise my father, the werewolf that killed my mother, being patronized, moody people, and crying.
I'm afraid of my sisters dying like my mother did.
My strengths are music and art.
My flaws are being fiercely independent and tending to take charge, even when it's not my job.
I look like this
My wand is a buckeye wood, 12 inches, with a merpeople scale core.
My pet is a mouse named Scratch
My OWL Scores Are
Astronomy ~ P
Charms ~ O
Defense Against the Dark Arts ~ P
Herbology ~ EE
History of Magic ~ P
Potions ~ O
Transfiguration ~ O
Art ~ O
Divination ~ A
Care of Magical Creatures ~ EE
Healing ~ O
Muggle Art ~ EE
Muggle Music ~ EE
Music ~ O
Charms ~ O
Defense Against the Dark Arts ~ P
Herbology ~ EE
History of Magic ~ P
Potions ~ O
Transfiguration ~ O
Art ~ O
Divination ~ A
Care of Magical Creatures ~ EE
Healing ~ O
Muggle Art ~ EE
Muggle Music ~ EE
Music ~ O
My NEWT Scores Are
Art~ O
Healing~ EE
Muggle Art~ EE
Muggle Music~ EE
Music~ O
Potions~ EE
Herbology~ A
Charms~ A
Transfiguration~ A
Healing~ EE
Muggle Art~ EE
Muggle Music~ EE
Music~ O
Potions~ EE
Herbology~ A
Charms~ A
Transfiguration~ A
Oh yes, there's something else I need to tell you!
I love exploring anywhere I go, but particularly Hogwarts.
{~Utsuha}
