I will try to keep this as short as possible.
So I have been in this relationship for about a year and four months. My now (sort of) ex boyfriend and I have so many issues it is almost hard to believe. I have never been in such an intense relationship, such as this. Now dispite our so very many problems I find my self always loving this man. But I feel as if I am no longer in love with him. It has been this way for a while now. Even from the first months of our relationship we fought. He and I come from two very different family's and have completely different out looks on life.
He is 22 years old, no plans for college, no plans to make a change in his life other then his mothers basement. Before I met him I was a very driven women at the age of 19, I was on my way to college and had a strong desire to make something of my-self. Now I have gone and graduated college and I am 20. I find my self almost lifeless, and have no drive. I think that is because I have done nothing but been hammers down again and again buy him, I am currently looking for work as a hair stylist and I want to further my career in that but I feel like he holds me back from it.
We do nothing but fight day and night. He annoys me to no end! He is 22 and acts like he is 5. constantly using a baby voice, which freaks me the ******** out and he knows this, yet still dose it. He is a moma's boy and proud of it.
Don't get me wrong there is nothing wrong with loving your mother, but when a 22 year old man runs up to his mother in public squealing "Mommy!!" It is ******** embarrassing.
Not just that but he is emotionly abusive. I have tried to break it off in the past and he threatened to kill him self. I had no idea what to do.... So I stayed with him. He freaks out and cry's hysterically if I even bring up the though of taking a break. I can not handle this. He constantly makes me promise him that I won't break up with him, and by that I mean at least every hour by text or call. It is obsessive.
As of now we are on a "break", which is more like my way of trying to figure out how to break up with him. I have no idea what to do.... I have never been in a situation like this and I hate it. I was such a happy person before this and now I have lost friends and my family is very worried....
I don't know if anybody else has been threw this and has any advice, Anything would help.
I do love him as a person and I hate seeing him hurt, but I can stand to be with him in a relationship, we are much to different and we just do nothing but fight and but heads.
Thank you for your time
-Dad's
-Dad's
