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Posted: Mon Feb 27, 2006 1:21 pm

Hello All,

Lately I've been doing alot of thinking about alot of things. I've made several self realizations. These can be found in my journal.

http://www.gaiaonline.com/journal/index.php?mode=view&u=676762

But what about you? What have you learned in your life? Is there some truth you've happened upon that the rest of us haven't? Have you a special way of looking at things that alters ones perceptions?

Please use this thread to discuss important thoughts, musings, or reflections you've had. Discuss important beliefs, faiths and ideas that mean alot to you. I would really like to hear them.

Do not flame, mock, insult or give Hell to someone else who posts here, whether you agree with them or not. If anyone does I will ban their a**! Discuss or debate, but do not belittle. Everyone deserves to have their point of view respected.

Thank you.
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Posted: Tue Feb 28, 2006 12:17 am

I've realised I'm a very solitary person; quite the contrast to not only how I present myself but how I came to identify myself. I've always been outgoing, extroverted, and more importantly, easy to connect to.

But it's been ages since I've felt close to another human being. I haven't decided yet if I'm actually solitary by nature or if it's just by coincidence that I'm not around anyone I have that much in common with. Sure, I have friends. I know lots and lots of people; I run into people almost everywhere I go in my city. I even have friends that I can tell most things; well, like stuff that happens in my life anyway. And I'm pretty sure they care.

But. It's felt like years since I've been able to feel like I really get someone, or that they really understand where I'm coming from. Even from my "closest" friends these days there's a barrier. I'm pretty sure they don't feel it, but it's like I'm just watching myself hanging out with them. I used to always have at least one special friend that I know I could tell anything to...

But now I just don't. I really miss having a best friend. sad

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Posted: Tue Feb 28, 2006 3:45 am

...you know, I had a long, elaborate story typed out here, but due to the V and C keys being so damn close together, it's gone. (Paste, vs. copy. stressed )

If anyone wants to hear it, ask. But not now; it's too much to type up again at the moment. stressed Suffice it to say though, that I've learned that you have to find your own answers in life; nobody will provide them for you. And no amount of time, money, nor effort spent will change that fact.

To me, the most important thing in life is to be happy. Not to work your a** off, trying to get or keep a "good" job that you loathe. Not to surround yourself with useless knicknacks and status symbols. Not to live up to what anybody else wants you to be.

Do what makes you happy, and the rest be damned. So long as you aren't hurting anyone else, live your life the way you want to. Because you're only going to get one shot at it.

Posted: Tue Feb 28, 2006 6:56 am

I've realised in my life that i'm too passive, and let people walk all over me. I also lead people on, which isn't good. Oh, and i've done some stupid stuff. and still do >>

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Posted: Tue Feb 28, 2006 7:58 am

Saturn cars > all.

... but seriously, even though I've dealt with a lot of s**t in my life in the past few years the moments that stand out in my mind are the ones where I felt most happy. Most of them involve my children or my friends and rarely a significant other. Most likely because every S.O. I've had so far has done something to screw me over royally and I either had to accept my fate or compromise as a means to an end.

Such times are always few and far between, and I wish I had a means to enjoy them more often. Distance is almost always the key factor in this detriment. Kind of makes me glad that in my current relationship (if one can even call it that) we act more like friends than anything else.

Friday can't come soon enough.

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