The cream colored mare walked slowly through the open field feeling like she wasn't doing any better then before. She felt lost, miserable and needed something to raise up her spirits. She didn't know what she could do to change it, but the world around her was becoming darker with each passing day. Her depression was getting worse the longer she would dwell on the past. She had tried having a friend to clear it and that didn't help at all. She even tried opening up to others and that didn't do anything either. It was no use. She was meant to be lost and uncared for. Why else would everyone leave her? Why else would everyone not care?
Stopping by the tree her and Kore use to always meet at, she lowered herself to the ground. She couldn't believe she still came here all the time, but for some reason it made her feel warm. She didn't understand it since all he did was lie and then leave her like the others. She felt like maybe he did love her at some point and she simply lost out to a much better mare. Someone that could offer a lot more then she could. He even saved her from a kalona and still left her with months of heart break. That part of her died and her heart was now filled with nothing. She knew one day there was going to be a breaking point for her. She just didn't know when.
Was there something about her worth fighting for?
Was she meant to be single forever?
She couldn't think of one good thing about herself. She sometimes wished she was the little girl she use to be years ago. Happy and full of life. Now she was closer to being a carcass just struggling to survive. There had to be a way she could fix this somehow. There had to be a way for her to get over this heap that she got herself buried in.
Sighing lightly, she leaned against the withering tree giving one last look at the graying world around her before she closed her eyes.
