No, but in all seriousness, I am going to be quitting for obvious reasons. For reasons that I should have quit months ago.
I wanted to build a career off of doing things all the wrong ways. I wanted to be the guy who acted just like Kal and Killa-Mo, but got a lot farther then them. Hate is what I used to give myself something to work towards. However, I had taken things a little too far.
I had a plan to begin to settle down, and appear like the hate was gone. That the Hiro people knew was no longer going to be seen. I was going to join the Skype community, and become regular. I was going to use it to pull myself up while deceiving the world. I was not planning on deceiving everyone, as a matter of fact, I let up to my closest friends that this was not the real me. It was an act.
I dont want to get into some big story that seems like I am trying to defend myself, because right now, I am not.
I can take the hate that a lot of you people showed me, and I can take any hate that this topic will give me.
I have Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. A lot of people dont take that seriously. I cant go a weak without people telling me I am faking it, and I need to stop. I want people to realize that I am not in a right set of mind. I have not been for 3 years. I let myself get carried away here, and it was wrong of me. It was very wrong of me. I am sorry. I have apologized far to many times as a member of this community, and I understand that.
Which lets me know that I am not supposed to be here anymore. I did indeed overstay my welcome.
I want to leave here today so that Jamie can come back and everything will be alright. Without my being here, things can be normal.
Chrono was right when he told me just how bad it was to think like him. I am far too human to think like him. I regret too much. I feel too bad for people. I grow too attached. I am too weak to do things.
I want my friends back, and I hope doing this gets them back. If I am really lucky, it will.
If not, I will have to live my life knowing I pissed off a lot of people, and it really didnt work at all.
There are a few people I want to thank before I go.
Andrew
Anthony
Janelle
Chrono
Downupside
Sinner
Sam (Honestly thought you were not going to want anything to do with this.)
Cyrus (Giving me faith with LWL)
Anthony
Janelle
Chrono
Downupside
Sinner
Sam (Honestly thought you were not going to want anything to do with this.)
Cyrus (Giving me faith with LWL)
I have officially quit every guild but this one, and unless someone out of spite wants to kick me out of it, then I will try and pop in every so often after I have found myself again.
Thanks a lot guys. Good luck in the future, and I hope we can cross paths again one day.