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 Posted: Mon May 07, 2012 5:54 pm
After a horrible nightmare, Ami woke up panting in bed- not screaming or crying, just breathing a lot faster than usual. She sat straight up, wiping her face and taking a moment to calm er breathing.
She was okayyy. She was perfectly okay. She was in the hunter compound, safe underground, absolutely fine. Stop freaking out. Stop right now.
Ami sighed and pulled her shirt down a little, fixing her hair and pulling it out of her face and back into the ginormous bun she had sitting on her head. It wasn't until she reached for her Junpei clip to adjust him that she remembered she wasn't alone in this compound.
Oh s**t had anyone seen that?
Her social status was in jeopardy.
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Posted: Mon May 07, 2012 6:38 pm
Sasha had seen it. Sasha had seen all of it. In fact, one of her favorite pastimes had quickly become the act of watching people sleep. It was creepy, she would be the first to admit it, but... well, there was only so much to keep her occupied when she was resting. Or trying to.
There was one hunter who cried in his sleep, another who spoke the names of loved ones - or at least Sasha liked to think that they were the names of loved ones. Another hunter kicked out violently in their sleep.
And then there was Ami.
Ghostlike, Sasha called out softly, "You um. You okay?"
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Posted: Mon May 07, 2012 6:42 pm
The voice caught her attention and Ami closed her eyes in frustration, letting out a sigh. s**t, she was caught. Ami pulled the blankets a bit closer and said, "Yeah, sorry. I'm fine."
She thought about laying back down on the bed, but there was no way she could get to sleep now. She could still feel the dagger on her neck, her own hand keeping her life in balance.
Shrugging awkwardly she said, "How much of that did you see?" She rubbed her eyes groggily, still not quite adjusted to being awake.
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Posted: Mon May 07, 2012 6:56 pm
Sasha offered Ami a mild smile.
"I um. I came in to rest about ah.. two hours ago. Bad dreams? You were making some.. ah. Well, never mind all that."
Sasha sat up on the edge of the bed and staidly peered over at Ami. A bed was between them, vacant.
"I have nightmares, too."
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Posted: Mon May 07, 2012 7:10 pm
Ami looked around, but everyone seemed to be sleeping. Not particularly soundly, but sleeping. A crimson blush crossed her face as Sasha revealed that she'd seen everything. She looked down at the blanket pulled around her waist and muttered, "I doubt your nightmare was like mine."
She looked over at the other girl. Funny, she'd been pretty angry at Sasha this afternoon, but now she was feeling rather relaxed with her. "Sorry for bothering you. It was just ... god it was scary." Her hand was still shaking lightly, but she set it down to stop it.
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Posted: Mon May 07, 2012 7:28 pm
Sasha shrugged, smiling at Ami.
"Well. I mean. We all have .. we all have our demons, I guess you could say."
She looked thoughtful, suddenly moving from the bed she was on to the next bed over, closer to Ami.
"Do you.. I mean. Do you want to talk about it?"
Sasha doubted that Ami would, but... "It's not a b-bother, I promise."
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Posted: Mon May 07, 2012 7:43 pm
My she was awfully close. Ami would have scooted off the bed and gotten up any other time, but she was just too damn tired. Let Sasha get her creepy on.
"No I ..." She started. She was about to just refuse the offer. Throw herself down and go back to sleep.
Yet somehow, it didn't seem like that would solve all her problems. More sleeping meant more nightmares and more pain in the morning. Besides, Sasha already saw her embarrassing scene with Otto. What else did she have to lose?
She tucked a piece of hair behind her ear and said, "Have you ever had a dream so real you thought it ... well you thought it was real?" She looked away and then back, her eyes darting as she spoke. "I know that sounds incredibly cliche, but ... I really though ... I really thought it was real. To wake up and find its not ... "
Ami buried her face in her hands for a moment, then wiped down it in exhaustion. "Sorry, it was just really vivid ... And there was the part with Wilson-"
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Posted: Mon May 07, 2012 7:52 pm
Sasha hadn't told anyone about the nightmare she'd had. About everyone she cared about, dying over and over again, each time more horrid than the last.
"I have."
She stopped herself from continuing, arranging herself criss-cross applesauce on top of the blanket that covered the bed. Sometimes it was just.. nice.. to talk to someone you didn't really know, someone that could be neutral.
"With.. with Wilson?"
Her voice encouraged Ami to continue. Sasha knew Wilson, though not well, but Sasha could recall how terrifying it was to dream about losing those you were fond of.
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Posted: Mon May 07, 2012 7:57 pm
Ami's head snapped as Sasha repeated her words, saying Wilson instead of Adam. Oh s**t. Oh s**t. People could NOT know she liked Wilson, even slightly. Even partially. Even a fraction of a heart.
After all, he was notorious for being devoted to his girlfriend ten thousand percent. If word got out- no. No it wouldn't get out because this was stopping here.
"Ah, yeah. Wilson was there- Marcus and Cass, Otto- even you were there Sasha," she said, trying to change the point of view. IT wasn't rushed of panicked though, it was calm, suave. Ami was a good liar when she needed to be.
She waved her hand a bit and said, "But the worst part was ... well Adam being there." She looked around to make dead certain no one was listening. Ami was guarded with her feelings. The fact that she was pouring this all out to Sasha was almost out of character if the need for someone to talk to wasn't so urgent.
"Sasha ... can I tell you something? The story might get kind of boring, but ... I don't know ... I think I should probably tell someone."
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Posted: Mon May 07, 2012 8:04 pm
Sasha's brows drew together in a frown when Ami asked if she could talk to her about something. It wasn't every day that an almost stranger came to her like this. It was kind of strange, but ... well, Sasha didn't mind listening. She liked to think she was a pretty good listener, too.
"Are you like.. are you in trouble?"
Sasha couldn't promise confidentiality if she thought someone was in trouble, and she could only hope that Ami wouldn't ask such a thing of her.
"Even if you are, I mean.. of course I'll listen, you know? It's.. it's always good to have someone to talk to."
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Posted: Mon May 07, 2012 8:24 pm
Ami waved her hands, "No, no ... Not in trouble. Its just ... Its like you said- everyone has their demons you know?" She gave a feeble laugh and then looked down.
A dramatic sigh left her mouth as she thought of how to begin. When she finally picked the right words, she said, "I was engaged. Before Deus Ex. I can't remember all the details- it keeps coming back in bits and pieces, and its all sort of fuzzy, but the one thing I can remember is Adam. He ... we were in love. I know that sounds stupid- seriously I can hear it in my voice, but we were." She laughed lightly and continued. "'I think ... we were in engaged and I told him about the shadows. Something happened. I'm not sure what, I still can't remember it, but ... I remember-" She took a moment to clear her throat, and then said, "I remember finding him with another girl in our apartment."
She was very pointedly avoiding Sasha's eyes now. "Don't pity me, please. In the dream, he was there. Adam was there and things were ... perfect. That's really the only way I could describe it." She didn't bother going into detail. "Then they wouldn't let me leave, I tried to take my own life- the rest is history." She was calming down now, having gotten it all out of her system. "The scary thing was that I think I wanted to stay there with everyone ..." Though her voice showed no signs of it, her eyes watered slightly. Now all the tears from Otto were coming. s**t.
"God I'm sorry to burden you with all this. Seriously, s**t-" Her voice cut off as she used her sleeve to wipe off her face. ******** this sucked.
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Posted: Mon May 07, 2012 8:33 pm
Sasha listened, motionless, as Ami talked. It was kind of odd to have someone share such an intimate story without being privy to their life before. When Ami finished, Sasha wasn't entirely sure what to say. It was ... well, it was straight up depressing, and Sasha's chest ached for the other woman.
"I don't pity you, Ami, I promise," Sasha swiftly assured her, wanting to make that little fact crystal clear. "I mean.. you know, I guess ... our histories brought us here or whatever, right? It's.. a new start. Or something." She gave a small, wry smile, hoping to quell Ami's tears.
"And.. I mean. I... I didn't leave anyone behind, so I don't know how that feels. I wish I did. I really wish I did, but I didn't. So I don't."
What else could she say? Sasha didn't know. She wasn't even sure how to begin.
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Posted: Mon May 07, 2012 9:04 pm
"Oh god, you're a total stranger and I just-" She buried her hands in her face all over again. This was so awkward. Oh why why whyyyyy.
It really wasn't much of a new start when the past kept coming back to you in bits and pieces. Not just in dreams. Sometimes she'd hear an old song, or see a familiar piece of jewelry and things would come back to her. Adam had been all pieced together- it wasn't strange to think that she would experience more in the future.
"I'm sorry," was all she could offer for Sasha' story. She wasn't really touchy-feely and this had been far too much like a lifetime movie for her at the moment. She pushed back a strand of her own hair and said, "You have really pretty hair you know. I'm thinking of cutting mine..." She looked up at the strawberry blonde nest on her head and said, "Its getting way too long you know? Yours is a pretty length though."
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Posted: Tue May 08, 2012 7:24 am
"We're ... we're both here for the same purpose, I guess.. so, you know. You.. just have to," Sasha fidgeted, "I don't know. So many people living together in like. Close quarters. It's hard to find.. it's hard to find strangers."
She wasn't sure what she was trying to get at.
"Don't be sorry," Sasha continued with a smile. "And I know exactly um. I know how you feel about the hair." She plucked at her thick braid. "After the Antarctica mission, and especially after the whole.. well. You know. I've been thinking about cutting mine too." Sasha shrugged. "It.. I don't know. I don't feel like I have the luxury of having long hair, if that makes sense. It just... gets in the way."
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Posted: Tue May 08, 2012 6:28 pm
Ami looked taken aback for a moment like Sasha had insulted her person instead of the locks of black hair on her head. "No. Vetoed. I refuse," Ami said abruptly, shaking her head.
She didn't make any move to get physically closer, but something of Ami had opened herself to Sasha, however small. "Serioulsy Sasha your hair is gorgeous. If you cut it, I will cry." She gave Sasha a look that was so serious that you really couldn't tell if it was legitimate or not.
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