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Posted: Mon Mar 05, 2012 7:59 pm
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The sun's cherish rays did nothing to lift Ban'ma's apprehensive mood. She rolled onto her back outside of the den, their den, and pushed her hind paws against the exterior. Her clear eyes rolled up the clouded sky with a depressive sigh. What was she going to do? It hadn't been that long ago that her Pad had come back to the pride, and she still couldn't be around him for very long. It was just...awkward. At first, she had been devastated by Tsubame's lose, and tried to stay strong for her family. Then he left. She still couldn't get over it. A part of her resented Achal for what he had done, but the other accepted it. If that was how he wanted to grieve, far be it from her to stop him.
Ban'ma laid her head back on her boa while she fiddled with her paws. Namir had taken care of the others and herself while he was away, and as lonely as it had been, she'd found ways to cope. Now that he was back she felt as jittery as she had when she'd first joined the pride. Her nerves were fried. Should she be mad? Upset? Sad? Loving? Happy? She was too scared to tell him anything; too scared he would resent her for it.
If there was one thing Ban'ma was not it was secretive, and keeping her feelings inside was killing her. However, she was determined to keep up her calm facade and mother the cubs that had returned with him; after all, what else could she really do?
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Posted: Thu Mar 22, 2012 6:08 am
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Posted: Thu Mar 22, 2012 12:20 pm
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Posted: Thu Mar 22, 2012 2:22 pm
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Posted: Thu Mar 22, 2012 5:42 pm
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Posted: Thu Mar 22, 2012 7:22 pm
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Posted: Fri Mar 23, 2012 8:34 am
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Posted: Fri Mar 23, 2012 10:33 am
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Posted: Fri Mar 23, 2012 10:59 am
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Posted: Fri Mar 23, 2012 11:19 am
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If it were possible, Ban'ma would have purred. Touch was such a central part of her world, and to have him back, nuzzling her...it just put all the pieces back into place. "I've had alot of help. The girls, Maua, Namir, his banu...I wasn't alone, not like you were. Out of the two of us, you're the strong one."
She nibbled on his shoulder before turning her own eyes to the sky. "I've always known." Even if it had been foggy, her heart had never wavered. "And I love you, too. What happened to Tsubame was an accident, and it wasn't your fault. Nobody wants it to happen again, but it won't do us any good to worry about it."
She waited, then smiled a soft smile, and turnedher gaze to a patch of clouds in the sky. "It's okay to be scared. Birth...it's a scary time, and sometimes things go wrong. It hurts for everyone, but you have to remember that love brings us there. Love puts us in that situation, and through love, you'll come out of it; no matter what happens." Her earring fell against her ear as she sat back. "I'm sure I'm not making sense, but...if you let fear take over, then you're not really living, you know?"
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Posted: Fri Mar 23, 2012 11:29 am
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Posted: Fri Mar 23, 2012 11:36 am
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Posted: Fri Mar 23, 2012 11:43 am
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