I've been thinking.

I've been thinking on a lot these days.
I'm all alone wasting my life it feels sometime.
I'm thinking on reasons why I am where I am.
I'm thinking on how it is a mixture of Luck, bad luck and effect.

I'm thinking on people I've wronged.
I'm thinking on how cruel I have been.
I'm thinking on how foolish I've been.
I've spent days thinking now and not haven't I reached a mile.

I'm thinking on all those things I can do.
I'm thinking on what I must do.
I'm thinking on how to feed my family.
I've been thinking what my partner is doing, now that she is not home for weeks.

I'm thinking on the talks we had.
I'm thinking with a smile as much we miss.
I'm thinking with tears how it hurts not to hold.
I've been thinking how it saddens me that she misses me so much she is almost crying.

That's what I've been thinking on.
Now to plan what to do about all that I've thought about.
I'll get rich one day or maybe I'll be one of those that die trying.
Maybe I should sleep, darn it. Now I'm thinking again.