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It was hard for her to keep track of the days now. Her life cycled between being Sailor Nemesis and being Delphine Amary, with far more focus on her Nemesis identity. There was nothing wrong with that, as far as she saw it, but she was far from grounded with her civilian identity. Nemesis patrolled, came home, slept, and usually woke up in time to patrol again. She knew plenty of senshi that didn't have the time she did to dedicate to keeping the streets safe, so it was all the more reason for her to spend more time doing just that. Of course, her definition of 'safe' was vastly different from most points of view.

The Eternal Soldier of Decay could feel two energy signatures nearby, one dark and one light. It wasn't hard these days to actually run into other senshi on patrol. So many of them were cropping up that it was hard to go a night without bumping into somebody new. Nemesis was, reputedly, not the best person to deal with newbies or people she did not know. There was not a single bone of patience in her body, though on occasion she did try. Tonight, with nothing better to do, she decided to 'check up' on the situation. Knowing senshi, the senshi would probably need help, and Nemesis was used to lending a hand when it was needed.

Arriving on the scene, though, came with the realization that the senshi had a definite advantage. A dark skinned girl stood over an unconscious boy - their battle at a standstill, though the victor was clear. It was as if the girl had no idea what step she should take next. Nemesis had... been in that same situation plenty of times before, standing triumphant over her opponent, debating on whether it was okay to take their life or not.

Only now, as an experienced eternal senshi, could Nemesis tell what her action would be with one glance down to the lieutenant. Doubtless her energy had been felt already, but only now did she drift out of the shadows, the few white pieces of her fuku stark against the night. "Don't you ******** touch him." Perhaps it was not the right approach to this situation, but it was usually how Nemesis went about her ways. It was clear in that moment that the Senshi of Decay would fight for that boy's life.

Someone had to stand up for him.

"I'm not willing to take any ******** chances, okay?" Nemesis had seen enough of people senselessly dying, and she certainly wasn't going to give Midas any opportunity to end another poor soul's life. Not that... once she got a decent look at the girl... Midas would. Midas was at a point in her life that Nemesis had already gone through, that crucial moment when one decided what was wrong and what was right, what their own limitations were and how far those limitations could be pushed. Nemesis had already killed when those thoughts had crossed her mind. Maybe Midas was fortunate and smart enough to think first before killing someone.

The black and blue senshi was naturally on the offensive - the situation she had stumbled upon had called for it. Slowly, though, she was letting the tension ease out of her shoulders, her fists unfurling. After sucking in a calming breath, she stepped over to Midas, confident that the other senshi wasn't going to be doing any further injury to the unconscious Negaverser. "I think you probably beat some sense into him, not enough to really... dissuade him from trying to repeat the same s**t that got him into trouble to begin with." If Nemesis had been here earlier, she would have handled things differently, would have passed onto him a warning before beating the s**t out of him.

As it stood, though, Nemesis had little idea what to do with him herself. Her original idea for keeping track of Negaversers she allowed to live was doing the old fashioned 'keep tabs' on them. It wasn't an effective system, but she had been unable to come up with anything better. Perhaps if she could hold onto them she could... But, no, right now she didn't have a place to keep Negaversers, and keeping too many Negas in one spot was definitely a bad idea. ********, she knew what she wanted to do, but had no means of going about and doing it.

"I guess we'll just leave him this time. We won't be killing him, and there's no way to keep him without someone trying to save his worthless a**. From what I gather, a lot of the newer recruits don't really hurt civilians anyways, they do some ******** up energy gathering? So, leave him. If I see him again I'll talk to him... a little with my fists and without." It was a temporary solution, because she didn't have the capability to officially deal with him. She didn't think he deserved to die, and while she had learned from Gehenna that they could be saved, she had no idea how to do just that.

It was the easy way out, to kill them while they were weak, to prevent them from getting strong. But, Nemesis was already strong, and convinced she could handle them if they ever became a real problem. She just couldn't bring herself to end a life when she didn't have to, not when there was a chance for redemption. There were those who were well beyond that point, but that did not mean she should just go around killing all of her enemies. It'd be too easy... and it wouldn't be right. She stared at the crumpled body on the alleyway floor for a few more seconds, and then turned on her heel and followed Midas.

"Yes," she answered solemnly. There was no real reason to hide it, and it was a lesson she had learned, and hopefully others would learn from her mistakes instead of making the same mistakes themselves. "It's why I value their lives a little more now. It's so easy to kill them, you know. Killing isn't hard, not when you're in the moment, not when you're doing it." She could still remember the feel of her hands around his neck, of his skin being eaten away, muscles shriveling and tendons snapping. She could still hear the quick snap as she twisted his neck, could remember the weight of his body as he went limp before she tossed him on the ground. Nemesis could remember every excruciating detail.

"It'll follow you, it'll haunt you... and it's something we'll all have to live with. We can't save them all." Nemesis' gaze snapped up to meet Midas'. The other senshi seemed so young in comparison, not nearly as battle-worn as Nemesis felt. "There are... a lot of things you'll do that seem right at the time, but come back to bite your a** and plague your thoughts. It's better to make at least one less mistake."

She sighed and glanced up to the night sky above them, "You're right, it won't get easier, and I would worry for which side you're on if it ended up being easier."