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Updates:

March 11th- Closed critiques. Did a bit of touching up to background.
January 8th- Added a few more concrete references. Saving to obtain via RL.
November 26th- Also completed appearance in evening.
November 26th- Hashed out on personality and background.
November 25th- Created graphics for "pretty' purposes.
November 15th- began setting up skeleton.

All personality traits and how they effect each other:
Koli can be classified as standoffish and moody, but hardly for the reasons people would assume. He gets tossed into the category of rude or a jerk, but he's hardly that. Koli is rather caught up in his imagination versus the "real world." He'd rather be pretending he was anywhere but where he is. He has a strong drive to be with others, but he's shy, and doesn't understand how to approach another and be confident about it. He will rarely look a person in the eye either, not to be mean, but because he has a small fear of others. He so desperately wants to be with people, but he also fears them. He struggles to find a balance within the world where he can have a good conversation with another without feeling so afraid of rejection, judgment, or otherwise negativity. Because of his deep fascination with the imaginative world, he will often forget about the "real world" and mix the two up. He struggles with remembering who people are as well, because upon meeting them, he will create another character for them in his world within his mind. He is afraid of terribly bright places, as he fears being over exposed to the world. He doesn't like the judgmental or the cruel, and thus tends to hide where ever he can. He also struggles with his gender. He knows he is male, but he'd rather be female, so in his mind, he has created a female persona for himself. He reflects that in the real world, by wearing really androgynous clothing and wearing makeup. Because of his lose hold on reality, he has a very weak sense of self. He's easily manipulated and quick to trust when anyone smiles at him. He will bend over backwards to please those who have given him the time of day. He has no real sense of what is good and what is bad, which ultimately makes him a very immoral person, as he'd kill if someone asked him to do as such. He is quick to give into emotion and cries easily. He strives his best to just stay inside his head, but of course, reality won't let that just happen.

Broken Down Individual Traits:

Imaginative: Koli's grasp on the real world rides barely on toothpicks. He is constantly within his mind, creating stories of a world where he'd rather be in. He was heavily influenced by books as a child and this has aided in his world building of the one that resides in his mind. He uses this as a way of protecting himself against the judgements and scrutinizing gazes of those that would rather see him gone. However, those who come to him in a friendly manner, hidden intentions or not, he will create a persona for that person within his mind and add them to his character roster.

Low Self Esteem: Koli was home-schooled for a long time, after enduring early schooling and receiving rather negative happenings from his previous classmates. Koli is very unsure of himself. He is exceedingly shy and has no idea how to properly speak to a person unless he is using the protection of his imagination and pretending he is something he is not. He will also allow others to walk all over him, if they say they will be his friend, because he feels unable to win a friend, unless he does whatever they wish of him.

Morally Misguided: Because Koli is willing to do just about anything for a potential friend, he has no real standpoint on morality. This causes him to be a rather "gray" character on the moral spectrum, as he does not see killing as bad if it is for someone else's happiness.

Gender Crisis: Koli began experimenting with crossdressing when he was in his early teens as a way to attract attention from others. While it, to a degree worked. It also left him heavily confused about what he really wants to be. He now blurs his gender within the clothing he wears. Opting for androgyny rather than feminine, as he realizes this also aides in attracting both genders. He isn't sure on his standpoint if he really identifies as a female, as his persona in his imagination is a woman, or if this is just another way of reaching out to find someone to call a friend.

Mild Agoraphobia: Koli is mildly afraid of people. People in large numbers makes him nervous as he feels they are all judging him. He is much better with interacting one on one with others, and preferably females, as he can relate to them more. He does get along (after a few bumps in the road from sheer nerves and awkward habits) with males. He will not go out to parties or malls. He prefers to go to the woods and be with nature over places where he knows people are heavily present.

Body

Height: 6'2 or 187.96cm
Weight: 150 lbs or 68.18 kg
Body Overview: Tall, lanky with protruding hips.
Posture: Average
Skin color: Porcelain pale

Head

Hair: Bangs longest in the front reaching down to his shoulders. Hair comes down in short, choppy layers. Think of a very textured scene/emo kid style. [x] - There be a reference! Only, I'd want the sides of his bangs touching collar bone. And then his forehead bangs work like the reference.
Hair color: Black. The longest parts of the bangs have purple at the tips.
Eyes: Gray with a heavy amount of eye liner and deep gray eye shadow
Eyebrows: Thin and perfectly groomed.

Clothing

Disclaimer: I am not an English speaking native, thus this section may be hard to understand. Also, what is here, is not exactly what I want, just a basic idea. Artists may use the teas to put whatever else they deem they like on this character <3*
Torso and arms: Tight fitting black shirt that goes down to his thighs, but much like this reference [x] Only the neck goes down further like a V neck and he wears a purple belt around his waist and then 2 smaller, silver belts. Instead of a single flowing piece, the fabric that goes down to his thigh has 3 layers, and each has white/silver lacing.
Legs: He wears skin tight jeans/pants that are black and have a bit of a glittery/shimmer to them.
Feet: He wears boots that go up to his knees, they are about 3 inches in heel and are purple to match his purple belt. They have belt straps in several places going up and one specifically around the heel much like this reference [x] Only instead of a simple circle-like belt there, it has a buckle with a skull that is silver/glittery and there are no "ties" coming off it like the reference.

Accessories

Headband: He wears a silver head band in his hair.
Necklaces: He has a single necklace with a glitter skull on it. Then there are several plain black choker style necklaces under that.
Bracelets: He has countless bracelets that are a bit too big for his wrists. They are purple, silver and black.
Makeup: He wears thick, black eyeliner, and silver/gray eyeshadow. He also has a thinner purple eyeliner going around his eyes and dips from the inner corners like an Egyptian style. The black is under this and is much thicker, but follows the same pattern.

Extras
Shadows: I'd like to have him have some kind of shadow (small scale) wrapped in his fingers, around one of his legs, or something?

Teas

1. Torn Butterfly Wings
2. Glitter
3. Rotting Rose
4. Moonstone Runes
5. Cracked Mirror
6. Endless Shadows

*Kikuri-Hime's Fan would substitute Moonstone Runes if obtained by RL custom

R.E.S.E.R.V.E.D