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 Posted: Sun Nov 06, 2011 10:11 pm
I'll binge my heart out for weeks and just eat everything in sight.
And then I just won't be hungry for weeks and will eat like, some grapes, an apple and a bagel all day.
I really hope one of my not eating spurs happens soon because my thighs are beginning to touch.
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Posted: Mon Nov 07, 2011 4:05 am
Me too. Except I'll gain 8 pounds. That's how ******** fragile my weightless is. SLIP UP ONCE, GO BACK TO BEING A MISERABLE COW
There is no 'treating myself.' There is no 'just have eat it for an occasional snack.' especially if it's in the house. If I own it, I will eat as much of it as I can. It's literally more fun to eat than have sex. It's easier to just not buy it at all.
An off day can literally cost me several pounds, and it's usually not over night. It's a day or two later after you think you're safe and then BALLOON WALRUS TIME.
And this past week what with thinking about stupid ******** Santa s**t coming around the corner, with everyone's leftover Halloween candy being tossed on every counter in forgotten and ignored coffee stations at work where no one can see me take it. (I am less likely to eat in front of people because of my weight, especially strangers. It's like you know they're silently judging you 'yeah I bet you WOULD take two fun sized snickers bars you ******** cow')
I'm already back up to 205. It's already started and it's ******** sickening. Brandon tried to cuddle with me today and I physically moved his hand from my stomach because the thought of anyone touching that vast flabby sack of s**t is just revolting.
tl;dr I hate that I love food more than anything else and I hate my body even more.
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Posted: Mon Nov 07, 2011 6:45 am
this thread makes me sad :c
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Posted: Mon Nov 07, 2011 7:39 am
This thread makes me sad, too. I think you're all ******** gorgeous, and I wish there was something I could do as an individual to keep you from struggling. Really, I'm attracted to the body that houses a wonderful personal as much as I am attracted to that personality, regardless of what it looks like. I wish it hadn't been drilled into our brains what I woman must look like -- a woman with curves who makes me laugh is ******** attractive. Goddamn. Size doesn't matter when it comes to practically anyone else, except me.
My body ain't perfect. I fully acknowledge it. I eat like crap, or neglect to eat at all sometimes. I try to work hard enough to the point where I forget that my a** goes on forever. Hell, I'd like to even be physically stronger for the sake of my job, which requires a lot of heavy lifting. I try to push myself every day, my boss even going during strike yesterday, "seriously, Cait, do you want someone else to carry that?" to which I replied, "nope." I work until I stop caring what I look like because I'm getting the job done. I'm not particularly pretty, I'm not even really that cute -- I'm rather homely until I get dolled up.
I think it's part of human nature at this point to just hate yourself, and I think that's what makes me the most depressed. I really don't hate myself as much as I used to, mostly on account of being in love. I eat whatever. I drink whatever. I just don't care what goes into my body so long as I make it through the day. And maybe that's what makes me feel ugly sometimes. So then I just have to work even harder.
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Posted: Mon Nov 07, 2011 1:40 pm
I've been the same. I'm all stressed out so some days I'm like LETS EAT ALL THE FOOD!
And then sometimes I don't have time to eat and I'll go a whole day not eating and not notice until I wake up randomly at 5am staaaaarvin.
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Posted: Mon Nov 07, 2011 9:16 pm
Randomly Greek I've been the same. I'm all stressed out so some days I'm like LETS EAT ALL THE FOOD! And then sometimes I don't have time to eat and I'll go a whole day not eating and not notice until I wake up randomly at 5am staaaaarvin. college
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Posted: Tue Nov 08, 2011 12:36 am
be thankful your thighs don't touch normally no matter how thin you are
when i was a kid i weighed 50 lbs, was as tall as I am now, and my thighs still touched. ;A;
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Posted: Tue Nov 08, 2011 3:53 am
LOL TOUCHING THIGHS
I can actually physically grab a handful of skin and fat from my inner thighs. It will never go away unless I have surgery.
When i was at my fattest, my legs were so touchy touchy that I'd wear holes in my pants at the inner thigh on both pant legs and if I wore a skirt, I'd get horrible chafing.
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Posted: Tue Nov 08, 2011 6:21 am
My thighs have touched for as far back as I can remember. I didn't know that was an issue with people until I was 18 and browsing Post Secret one day.
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Posted: Tue Nov 08, 2011 7:48 am
Yeah, my thighs will touch no matter what, unless I get like grossly thin which I would never want.
I think curvy thighs are hot anyway though.
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Posted: Tue Nov 08, 2011 9:56 am
I don't remember if my thighs touched when I was skinny.
I never really paid much attention to my thighs when I was young. Even today I pay very little attention to my thighs. I only noticed the grabby thing like two months ago.
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Posted: Tue Nov 08, 2011 1:18 pm
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Posted: Tue Nov 08, 2011 2:02 pm
my thighs touch depending on how i'm standing, i guess
i've always thought it's silly that people trip over thighs touching. i mean, if chafing is the real issue here, then i understand. but if one thinks that thighs touching is a sign of unattractiveness, then wat. thick thighs is some real lady stuff.
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Posted: Tue Nov 08, 2011 2:10 pm
captain buttcheeks my thighs touch depending on how i'm standing, i guess i've always thought it's silly that people trip over thighs touching. i mean, if chafing is the real issue here, then i understand. but if one thinks that thighs touching is a sign of unattractiveness, then wat. thick thighs is some real lady stuff. Tru dis.
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Posted: Tue Nov 08, 2011 2:13 pm
Randomly Greek I've been the same. I'm all stressed out so some days I'm like LETS EAT ALL THE FOOD! And then sometimes I don't have time to eat and I'll go a whole day not eating and not notice until I wake up randomly at 5am staaaaarvin. This. And.. College eating habits. At least my college eating habits. I eat so much better and keep my weight down when I'm living at home.
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