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 Posted: Mon Sep 05, 2011 5:45 pm
So here's the thing: I'm pretty sure that I'm gay, but for some reason I just can't accept it (or just haven't yet). But it's not like I have any problems with homosexuality or anything, it's almost like I just strongly wish I wasn't... Everytime I think about about it I feel completely awful because I know that there's nothing wrong and I should be quite happy with who I am. But for some reason unknown to me, as I said, I just wish I wasn't. Maybe it's because I was constantly bullied when I was younger (I'm 18 by the way) just because my voice hadn't quite deepened yet and I wasn't exactly "manly" (just for the irrelevant record, I don't consider myself to be feminine really). Or maybe it's because I know that my life will be just a little bit harder than that of a straight person's, and I know I'm not strong enough to handle being constantly judged by certain people. I really REALLY don't know, but I want to overcome this, I'm so tired of being constantly in turmoil about it. I just don't know what I should do... And I want to apologize if I sounded rude or stepped on any toes, I genuinely didn't mean to, I hope I didn't make anyone angry.
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Posted: Mon Sep 05, 2011 5:51 pm
One: Awesome sig
Two: Don't stress over it, some people feel that way, hell I still do sometimes, but you need to get past it on your own terms, sort of figure yourself out a little more, and that could take years, or days, it all depends, you just need to realize that your sexuality, your gender, none of that defines you. None of it is even all that importent really, sure, it is who you love who you want to be with, but that is a person. Just try to look at it as, your just a person. And thats a sad thing you need to realize about life as well, what people fear most are just people. /: its sad, but you need to know, its not you that they're scared of, or that they think is wrong, and they themselves are wrong. What they think is wrong is an idea in their heads that has been planted by manipulation and hate. Your beautiful. Don't forget it ^^
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Posted: Mon Sep 05, 2011 5:56 pm
I don't think you should feel bad, and you certainly have no need to apologize. : ) Knowing that there's nothing wrong with being gay is awesome, but you are correct in that life could be a little bit harder for being that way. It would make sense to have some anxiety or dread about what's to come, but try not to let it overwhelm you. The fact that you've identified the cause of the negative feelings will be really helpful in getting past it.
Luckily, things are getting better every day, and there are more and more places where being gay isn't any harder than being straight. I strongly suspect that with time, you'll feel better. Here's hoping it's soon.
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Posted: Mon Sep 05, 2011 6:05 pm
It's ok. I was the same way. Mabye finding some LGBT rolemodels will help?
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Posted: Mon Sep 05, 2011 6:11 pm
I couldn't figure out how to quote everyone... sweatdrop
But thanks, I really do feel a bit better and REALLY appreciate it! 3nodding Today was just one of those days, I guess...
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Posted: Mon Sep 05, 2011 6:15 pm
Not that it matters, but you can start with the quote button, or just type: [quote="username"] la la la la [/quote]
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I'll whargarbl your face!!!!!!!!!!!1111111111 which looks like: response responsey reponse I'll whargarbl your face!!!!!!!!!!!1111111111 I usually just copy-paste from the topic review or copy-paste into notepad if the comment is further back.
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Posted: Mon Sep 05, 2011 6:16 pm
My advice would be to find plenty of people in the LGBT community to talk to (obviously, this guild was a smart option XD). Real people would be best, though. Also, if you haven't already, try to come out to as many people as you feel comfortable with; it's really amazing being able to talk to your friends honestly about your sexuality.
I really know how you're feeling. When I first 'realized' I was gay (in other words, got past the incredible denial) it was really hard for me to imagine getting through it. But so far, I'm doing really well. smile To reiterate the cliche, it gets better.
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Posted: Mon Sep 05, 2011 6:17 pm
Taeryyn Not that it matters, but you can start with the quote button, or just type: [quote="username"] la la la la [/quote]
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[quote="username2"] do do do[/quote]
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[quote="username3"]whargarbl[/quote]
I'll whargarbl your face!!!!!!!!!!!1111111111 I usually just copy-paste from the topic review or copy-paste into notepad if the comment is further back. I can't believe I didn't think of that... burning_eyes My brain is just so off today.
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Posted: Mon Sep 05, 2011 6:26 pm
The Ouroboros Alchemist I can't believe I didn't think of that... burning_eyes My brain is just so off today. No worries. smile
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