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 Posted: Sun Sep 04, 2011 12:01 pm
  Setting:After the fight with Bat, Sara tells Huang something shocking about his greatest Enemy
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Posted: Sun Sep 04, 2011 12:24 pm
It was not often that Sara got angry; in general she was one of the most patient, level-headed people anyone could wish to meet. Yet even her temper could be pushed up and beyond what it could cope with. Finding out that Huang had gone and attacked Bataar was one of those things.
Huang was on top of the list of people she thought she could trust, she thought that he would understand more than anyone what she was coping with. That his relationship with Kyung would help him relate to her own situation, she was even hoping that she could talk to him about it. After all she knew she could not tell just anyone about her close friendship with the Mongol, it seemed like she could not even trust her own brother. The only person that she dare tell... she thought he would be different.
Was there nobody out there who would not forsake her choices?
Sara knew he was well connected; he had eyes and ears all over the city reporting back to him. Yet he was not too hard to find, especially when you could interrogate the spirits of the dead, they were always watching, undetected and undisturbed. Her search had led her into Lunaria’s red light district. It was not usually a place that Sara herself would visit, yet she felt like she could not wait for Huang to return home. She needed to speak to him now before her desire to do so faded, this was not something she could just sit on and ignore. Not when Bataar was so weak, if he tried it again...
She could feel her blood boiling, she was angry and Huang was the person who was in her line of fire.
That was when she came to the doors of the brothel, behind these doors could lie some of the most incriminating gossip about all the rich lords. Some people might look down on the girls who worked in such a place, but the truth was they had their uses. If you got them on side you would find yourself in quite a powerful position. The teal haired girl stepped inside, pale eyes scanning for her guardian.
When she caught sight of him she paused, resting a hand on her hip. Her eyes showed that she was not at the least bit impressed. “Huang, we need to talk. Now.” She stated, a lot more civil than she expected it to be.
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Posted: Tue Sep 13, 2011 6:07 pm
Huang had been on the streets for new information as usual. It had been keeping him busy as he sorted through the troubles he had at home. After his talk with Ringo, and gaining an ally in his sister Xia, Huang had done nothing but filter rumor after rumor. He had visited shops, stands and companies much worst.
If He had known that he was so easy to track, even more that he was so easily found by his "little sister", Huang would have taken more care in discretion of where he went.
Even now as he sat among the women of the brothel, all he knew by name and families. Some thought it odd to find company with the entertainers beyond what they were paid for but...using the Lee money, Huang visited the women at least once a week. He paid for their time to talk to him after all, and even had many friends among them and some of their patrons.
Even now, Huang was talking to his main informant of the brothel, Sun Hi. Sun was a beautiful courtesan of the brothel. Bright yellow eyes that goldened when hit by candlelight, she was the top paid companion of the whole company. And she was the one who heard the most. her dealings with any lord made it easy for her to stifle information, Lords foolishly believed that these woman were deaf to their complaints, or too ignorant. No, Huang knew better and he respected them for that.
"Oh Lord Huang, That's all the information I have for you." Sun batted her eyelashes at Huang as she rested her bosom on his arm. she had after all, wanted Huang just as badly as the other women in the brothel. He was the first to listen to them, to rely on them for something more then sex and to be a friend to them. She admired and was always thankful to him, and even when she flirted with him, he would just pat her on the head. It didn't infuriate her, only made her yearn for him. "Do you need me to listen to anything more my Lord?" She pet his arm as she looked up at him.
"No Lady Sun, You did a good ob. As always I am in your debt for your work." He pulled out the bills and handed them to her. She gingerly took them before pouting.
"It's too bad that you are drawn to someone else my Lord." She circled her finger on his arm, "Other wise I would attempt to seduce you again." She winked as Huang flushed before patting her on the head. As he did so, he noticed the familiar look of teal hair and looked up. There with a stern look on his face was a woman he didn't expect to see in such a place.
"Sara! What are you doing here?" Huang got up in a instant and went to her. "This isn't a good place for you to be seen, what would your priest say." He waved to the girls as they said goodbyes to him and taking Sara by the crook of her elbow headed out of the brothel. "Has something happen to you sister? Are you alright?" Huang looked over her to make sure she was unharmed before standing in front of her, "You wanted to talk?"
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Posted: Wed Sep 14, 2011 7:40 am
It seemed like Huang was as popular with the ladies as Jianyu, the girls made a fuss over him much like the clients in the tattoo shop. Only in Lunaria could girls get so worked up about a pretty face, she had always thought her brother handsome. Maybe once upon a time she had a childish crush on him, would that have pleased him? If she had given her heart to some Legion Captain with a elegant face and unquestionable manors? Someone that would take her hand and smile at her gently, someone who had been taught all the words to sing like a trained bird? Someone who she could never believed loved her? She wanted his approval more than anything, however she knew she would never have that.
Sara rolled her eyes when he said she should not be here, priests were like any other man and she would be a child if she truly believed that her masters had never looked for comfort in the arms of a woman. No doubt Huang often collected incriminating evidence of Noble priests breaking their vows in this very place. Maybe some people liked to believe their holy guides did not have the same lust and desires anyone else did, they were meant to be perfect, role models that people would aspire to be like. Maybe that is what they expected of her, however Sara was just like everyone else. Was it so wrong to give into her feelings? Was it so wrong to get some kind of comfort and pleasure when he held her in his arms? When he brushed her hair behind her fin? Did it make her a bad person?
Sara was beyond caring about what people thought of her, if people thought she was a whore let them. She had worried for too long, wore her mask for too long. She always wanted people to like her, so she had always done what was expected of a young lady, however the Mongol had come to realise that she was not happy living that way. She was happy when she was talking to Bataar in his Yurt, she was happy when she was causing trouble with Yue and running through the forest with Ghost. She was not born a lady, she would never be a lady. She was a farmers daughter and she was a Mongol. She was proud of it.
She was pulled out of the brothel by her brother where he then continued to ask how she was and fuss over her. He did not even know she was angry, that she had a reason to be. This only added fuel to the fire. “No, don’t you dare. If you really cared about how I was and how I was feeling you would not have gone to try and kill Bataar.” She finally stated not knowing any better way to put it than that; she backed away from him a little, pale eyes looking up at his. She did not care who heard her, she was fed up of having to sneak around and lie to everyone. She was so sick of it that one night she had told her dearest friend her secret and had regretted it ever since.
She must have looked more hurt than frustrated. She told herself not to, to be strong but she could not help it. She guessed she was not the kind of person who could stay made for long, or at least not the kind of person who could show it very well. “I trusted you, I thought that out of all the people in Lunaria you were the one I could confide in, the one who could relate to my situation more than any other. You know what is it like to care for someone you should not, to have to sneak around and live a lie. I have always supported you, was it too much to ask for you to do the same?” She went on to say, clenching her first, her arms by her side, straight like a board. She felt stiff, she hated being mad at him as much as she hated what he had done. She found no pleasure in this, not one bit.
The spirits had told her everything, what had happened, what he said. They even helped her find him today. She could understand him being protective; he probably had reasons not to trust Bataar. However it was not that she was worked up about, it was the little faith he had in her. “How could you think so little of me? You think that I would feel this way about someone who would trick me into his bed? If it pleases you to know Huang, I am still a maid and he has never made a move to change that. You might have your reasons for hating him, however do I look like the kind of person who could love that kind of monster?” She stated shaking her head, a small blush painting her cheeks and looking towards the ground. What people did behind closed doors was never a topic she felt comfortable talking about. Sara had never shared a bed with any man ( or woman ) and did not like her brother thinking of her in that way.
She might have fallen was Cais, she might be falling for Bataar. However she was not that kind of person. It was only then she realized she had admitted to Huang that she loved him, she had never even told him that...
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Posted: Thu Sep 15, 2011 10:51 pm
Huang could tell by Sara's actions that she was upset with him. No, he could tell that but was terrified to bring her wrath on him. He knew secretly what she must've come for, to talk about Bataar. The stupid Mongol probably went crying to her and attempting to turn his sister from him.
It was true that Huang didn't see the side of the other Mongol that Sara did, but it was vice versa as well. She never saw the sheer cold killing intent of the man either. Bataar might have been kind to her, but he was nothing more then a noble enemy and one Huang had vowed to kill in the future.
His fins dropped as she let into him, her anger roiling over him as little pricks of emotional pain into his heart. He only wanted best by her, was that so wrong? Didn't she see just how Bataar could be using her? If not for causing Huang pain but for destroying one of the Legions light?
"Sara...." Huang drew his blank face as he looked at her and waited for her to finish. His eyes burned for a moment as he though of Bataar bedding her and then blanked out in sheer relief when she confirmed that she hadn't yet been with him...yet being the key word.
"Sara!" Huang had waited until she was done. It was his turn now for him to explain why he did...what he did. "You speak as if I should forgive him for all he has done. This isn't the first time I have tried to kill him..." Huang let that hit her, there was no secrets now between them and if he was to keep her as his sister, he would tell her everything, "And this will not be the last. I didn't go to kill him just for you Sara. Bataar has hurt to many people I love, is it only fair that I do the same?" He growled as he turned away from her, "While I was long enemies before I met you with the Mongol, I did use the excuse that he was....courting you as another reason to attack him." Huang didn't look at her.
"I fully intended to kill the b*****d but I was drunk. And in my drunkness instead of fighting him seriously I embarrassed myself." Huang eyes danced as she brought up Kyung before looking back at her, "Kyung is a different matter. My lover didn't attempt to kill friends of my side did he? Bataar has attacked me, and Jianyu." Huang looked at her again, "Did you know that? He was once the lover of Jianyu and threw him aside, Did you think I wanted that to happen to you? I saw what it had done to Jianyu, I can't bear to see it happen to one I consider my little sister." Huang came to put his hands on her shoulders.
"I do trust you Sara, You have been nothing but amazing. But just because I trust you...doesn't mean I trust him." Huang looked at her straight, "Realize that this is something that I won't ask for your forgiveness on. Even if you come to hate me, I will never give up my pursuit on ending Bataar..." Huang sighed, "And neither will he to me. We are enemies in war Sara." He threw his hands up before quieting, realizing now that she had said she loved the man. Didn't Huang know how that was? He had fallen for Shin, and then He had fallen for Kyung. It was like...Sara and him shared a pattern of love for the opposing side and yet, it was Bataar. Huang just couldn't see it eye to eye. "You love him...."
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Posted: Fri Sep 16, 2011 1:56 am
Arguing her point was rather easy, if nothing else she had the same argument with herself daily. She knew that Huang had tried to kill him before, she had the needles to prove it, it was not the fact he tried to kill him that she did not like, it was the fact he tried to kill him for her own sake. "Don't I know that? This is not a whim, I have pushed him away for so long because of that fact alone, he has killed some of my friends, I had to reattach his head and give his body to his family whilst knowing damn well Bataar was the one who did it. You are at war and if people want to fight then people are going to die. I am not going to hate him for killing people when we do the same. I tried Huang, God damn it I tried to hate him and I told myself I was in the wrong for not, however I couldn't. I know I am in the wrong but I do not care, in the end it is me that is going to lose because either you are going to die or him. If either of you left me it would kill me inside." She shook her head looking away before her gaze snapped back onto him, he was such a hypocrite.
"I am sure you kill friends on his side though,is that how it is? Solders are allowed to care for us conduits because we are harmless, however it is wrong for us to care for you because you kill people? Is Kyung in the wrong then or is it just me?" She hissed, wondering if he ever thought about it that way.
She came here thinking that nothing the fighter said would surprise her, however something did. Her eyes widened slightly. "Jianyu? Wait- you mean Yue's husband? No I can not say he told me that-" She had asked him once about his previous relationships and he told her he was married to his work, it was none of her business what he did before. However that pairing shocked her more than Jianyu and Yue, she wondered how that had come to be. She tried not to let Huang see that she was surprised and then decided to get back to the topic at hand.
He had clearly caught onto her little slip up, all she could do now was explain.
She clenched her fist slightly and fidgeted. "He loves me too Huang, he will never admit it but I know. He killed a Noble for me, a assassin sent to end my life, he slit his throat in my home and then spent a week guarding my Ger to make sure no one tried it again. You will never believe me but he is one of the gentlest people in Lunaria, I see it in the way he plays with my hair and strokes my bangs behind my fin, the way he is always shadowing me to make sure I am safe, when he came back from the outpost he even snuck into the temple to find me even though I told him he shouldn't have and he always comes to me when he is hurt because he only trusts me to help him, I am the only one he will let see him weak like that." She explained knowing that she was fighting a loosing battle, nothing she could say would change his views, she just wanted to prove to him that this was more than some random lust. She had already been hurt by Cais and it has taken her so long to trust him, she told herself she would never make the same mistake. Bataar was not a mistake, she knew it deep down.
"We do not have this big passionate love affair Huang, for the most part we are just good friends. He has kissed me twice in total but that does not matter to me. I know that we can not be together, I know that if I choose to stay with him I will never get married, I will never have kids an I will have to lie for the rest of my life, sneak around and pray that I am never caught. That does not matter though because just being around him means more to me than that. Just having him in my life means more to me than that and even though he will never sweep me off my feet or whisper sweet nothings in my ear I would not change it for the world." She sighed looking at her feet, her long teal hair falling over most of her face.
Her voice went cold. "Not that you would care, you don't even care that he is dy..." She felt her legs go weak, Sara fell, fell hard and the next thing she knew only her hands where stopping her body from hitting the ground. She had taken care of him for weeks and he was not getting better, if anything he was getting worse. The giant could not even get out of bed let along walk and the worst part was there was nothing she could do about it.She had been trying to convince herself he would be okay, she wore optimism like a mask but deep down she knew. "Hes... he is dying. Does that please you, I am not asking you to apologize just please, let his illness take him in his bed rather than you. Let me care for him and make his passing easy and painless. I have never asked you for anything but if you must kill him let it be with his sword in hand, grant him that much." She was begging, she did not want to beg. It was only then she felt her eyes filling with tears. She told herself she was not going to cry either...
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Posted: Sat Oct 08, 2011 4:03 pm
"If you know, then why don't you see my side of this? You coming to me as my little sister with an enemy, and you do not think that instead of showering you with praise and encouragement that I would be angry and sad....and lonely?" Huang crossed his arms over his chest and turned his head away from her, "Do you not think that I too, because of the situation I am in with Kyung that I cannot see the pain and the war of your heart?"
He laughed at her comment, not a haha funny but a, yes your right kinda of laugh as she spoke. "Yes, you got me there don't you little all knowing Sara. I have killed many, and will probably do so more in the future. I don't pretend to be a saint. I don't touch you, something pure an innocent without knowing guilty there is another man's blood on my hands." Huang's voice cracked in anger, "I know all of this. And yet, evening knowing this. I cannot stop myself from hating Bataar."
"Yes Jianyu and Bataar were once lovers, and best of friends. Even now they still are, though Jianyu's heart carries the scars of betrayal and pain. Isn't it odd to think of it? Being friends with a noble can only cause pain, being lovers one only cuts the heart out." Huang remembered Shin-Mu, of Kyung and placed his hand over his heart. "You carry the one caused by Cais too, to your heart and your face. Do you think you can handle if Bataar does the same?" Huang face fell sadly.
"Sara....." He came to hold her before she collapsed to the ground, her news shocked him, spreading through him like a virus she spoke of before he gritted his teeth. That damn mongol, dying? Never!! He was a goal Huang wanted to achieve, to beat him, to kill him? To fall to something so simple as a sickness? It pissed him off more and made him hate the mongol even more deeply. He bent down to Sara and pulled her into his arms, hugging him to his chest and stroked her hair. "Do not cry little sister, do not beg." Huang murmured to her before pulling her back and wiping the tears with the end of his scarf. "For now, I will put aside my conflict with Bataar. If that's what you so desire." Huang internally crushed the despair, he wanted to be the one to kill Bataar, not the damned disease Sara spoke of. If he wanted to do that, it meant giving something he considered specially his. Sara wanted to heal the man, to care for the one she loved, How could he deny her that?
"I promise from now little sister, That I will not kill Bataar. If he is the one..." Huang gritted his teeth as he held her before sighing, "If he is the one you choose to give your love to, then I will not deny you." he looked away, "I will keep my rights though, if he comes to attack me that I will defend myself, but if he is sickened like you say, then our conflict will not arise now." he continued to wipe the tears before laying a gentle kiss on Sara's forehead. "Do you forgive me Little sister? Do I still have some love in your heart then?"
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Posted: Wed Oct 12, 2011 12:46 am
"Lonely? Huang..." Why was he lonely? He was always around his comrades, everyone respected him, everyone loved him. Why on earth would someone as perfect as her brother feel anything of the sort? The truth was Sara did not want to admit he felt that way, that would mean that she was not doing her job properly. They had not spent a lot of time together recently... maybe in her own struggle she had been letting him down. That was something that upset her deeply, she did not want to loose Huang. He meant too much to her for her to loose him!
She shook her head, delicate fingers hanging onto his arm like a security blanket. She found herself holding him tight to her, most of the time Sara was shy around people, but not around him. When he touched her it reminded her of the comfort that she once found in her fathers arms, there was no mixed feelings about it... since coming here she had lost her family, but gained him. He was the closest thing she had to it and she loved him like he was the only relative she had left in the world. "None of you are monsters, Huang. I will never see you as a monster, I feel sorry for you... for having to do what you do. For never knowing peace, I want that for you. I want the day to come where none of you have to fight, where none of you have to die." Were there lives worth so little? One thousand million years from now where Lunaria was dust all everything had faded from memory... would it be worth it? Would this war be worth her loosing someone who she cared for this much.
Her heart was tore in two, she did not want to loose either of them. However it seemed like no matter who much she begged they were both determined to rip each other to pieces.
He asked her if her heart could handle it, if Bataar did to her what Cais had... she could not lie to him. "No... no. I would not be able to handle it. My heart carries many scars, some still hurt, others... not as much as they did, either way I feel like if it had to take another it would crumble and die. However I trust him not to hurt me, I know I might be stupid to think it. There was a time when I trusted Cais like I do him... All we can do is move on and dare to trust again, dare to put our hearts on the line, even though we know deep down they can not take any more hurt." She was sure if Bataar wanted her dead he would not have give her the chance to escape like Cais did. He was a powerful man and maybe that is what scared Huang the most, the fact that he could so easily end her if he wanted. Sara knew he would never do that, however she could understand why that was so hard for him to understand. All he saw was his battle partner, not the sweet man that she had come to love. She wondered if the two would have got along, if this war had never started...
She buried her head into his chest, her heart beat fast and the tears flowed, yet they did so gracefully. "Thank you, Huang. I am sorry, I did not mean any of it... I am just so tired, I am so tired of fighting... I am angry that the spirits are taking him from me, I have always done what I have been told, what they want me to do... but they do nothing but punish me. It's not fair... but I should not take it out on you. I am just... so tired." She admitted, she had not slept through the night in recent memory and she had even started to forget to eat, she went through a period as a student were she almost worked herself to death and now she felt like she was coming pretty close to that stage once more. She always had to be brave, for her students, for him... but not for Huang, she just could not put on a brave face for him too. It was to much to ask of herself and truth be told, having him hold her like this made her feel better now than she had done in a long time.
"I will always love you Huang, I could never hate you and you know that. You are my Prince. There is nothing you could do that would make me hate you." She told him, looking up into his dark eyes with her own ghostly orbs. She wanted him to hear her, to know that what she said she said from her heart. "Huang, if you had to... I would not even hate you then." She did not want to fill in the blank, she just hoped that he understood. If it came down to his life or... she could not hate him for living, for defending himself. If he died instead, she would grieve from him just as much. She wanted them both to live, why did everything have to be so damn complicated? "The spirits play with us, how easy would life be if we felt love for each other. We are both the Emperor's people, you are soon to be a Captain, me a Priest. Yes, life would be much easier on the both of us if we both ran off and got married and lived how we were meant to. If I had a choice Huang I would chose to love you and I have no doubt that we would be happy together. However I can not love you in that way anymore than your eyes can see me as anything else but your sister. Huang, you need to know, you mean the world to me."
She forced herself to let out a small chuckle at the thought, leaning back and whipping away the water from her eyes. "I love you, brother. Now, why don't we go for a ride together... like we used to when life was simple?" She would make sure he was never lonely again. Never.
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